My story, my abortion, I doubt

[Spring0105]

For a long time, and I must say it my experience, I would like to know is that I confused, is confused family members, or love, confused, and me and my boyfriend is a high school classmate, exhausted from the entrance, we are together , and feeling has always been a very good freshman year in 2004, in March, I was pregnant, he took a medical abortion, there is no Qing, in the September, 12 months later made two drug flow, all of the Qing . Sophomore year in April, making the first flow of people, junior's 2007 New Year's Day to do a second flow. This year we all graduated, and very lucky, I was pregnant in April of this year, I discussed the door to get married, but my family which I had not closed, and crying, trouble, and they agree with my mother married, but only if are: poor condition of his house and refused to do the wedding, and wanted him to spend 10 million to our future lives. I know that they do not have so much money, the next day, my family should I go to the hospital surgery, through collusion with the doctor that I can not perform an operation before that day is not up to the operating table, then place a series of storms that , asking them what not to give 50,000 yuan of money I can, and, after a consensus. Meet the parents, and in the day, played a major conflict, they brought in was 5 million deposit on behalf of his sister dad check, but it is this check, and parents are not and, everything did not come to an end That night, he phoned me to ask him to do good, next day he was leaving, he came in later, and that there is no money, asked me not with him now. . . My heart really tired, I was my family, many, many concerns have been wrapped around the enchanted. . . . In the case of like a robot, I did the sixth abortion, the heart is the pain is numb, and finished the day after surgery I walked, I would like to look for him.
Really want to ask, is what I want money Mody, we love enough? Is the family's outrageous and maiming? Is his reluctance to allocate the money for me? ? ? ?
Tired, contradictions, and two people in the world there are too many words and contradictions, but I really want to know why this tragedy is generated. . . . . .

[Just Me]

I am very sorry that you have had to go through all that. I don't have any answers for you, but I hope you can find the support that you need on BB and find some peace with it all.