I dont know where to put this, I figure its friendship based, so here sounds good.
I have two friends that I am finding it hard to be around at the moment. Both are probably my closest friends here.
Friend A has had trouble haing babies. It took a few rounds of IVF to get her DS who was born this year. She went back to IVF at the same time that we found out about sprout. Since then she has had 2 attempts, both unsuccessful.
Im finding that at the moment its really hard for me to be around her. I dont like being around her with my bump growing, I dont like talking about sprout either with her. Just being around her is uncomfortable.
I have talked to her about all of this, and she says it doesnt bother her. But Im sure that in some way it must. I mean I know that I get a horrid feeling when she talks about what she'd do to have another baby, what options are there for them and what arent there for them. I feel bad knowing that this is yet another surpise baby (very much wanted, we were having a break from ttc). I feel bad in general, and its just uncomfortable.
Then theres friend B. And I dont know why but being around her makes me uncomfortable at the moment when it comes to sprout. She has 3 babies, and an angel baby. And I dont know why, but Im finding it hard to be around her.
I feel like I have no friends to share my pregnancy with (well those who live close to me anyhow). These are my two closest friends, and yet I feel uncomfortable to share my pregnancy with them. And I want it change. I dont want to feel so lonely and separated from my friends.
I'm not sure what's going on for you, but are you having any problems with anxiety in other areas of your life? Do you think you might have some unexplored issues around this current pregnancy? Maybe finding someone impartial to talk this through would help. Some friendships are all encompassing, and others involve connecting on a narrower bandwith. Perhaps if you think about what it is that drives these particular friendships and what your connection points are with these friends, then you can concentrate on nurturing those connections, and then see how you feel about it all.
uncomfortable around my friends. :(
Reply With QuoteI'm not sure what's going on for you, but are you having any problems with anxiety in other areas of your life? Do you think you might have some unexplored issues around this current pregnancy? Maybe finding someone impartial to talk this through would help. Some friendships are all encompassing, and others involve connecting on a narrower bandwith. Perhaps if you think about what it is that drives these particular friendships and what your connection points are with these friends, then you can concentrate on nurturing those connections, and then see how you feel about it all.
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