So after an awful horrible painful 40hr labour I swore I'd never do it again, I wasn't planning on doing this in the first place, he was a beautiful little accident. Here I am, 5 months later and, I really really want another baby I know it's mental. Especially considering we aren't in the best financial position with me only working part time and my partner studying. But everyone else is having these beautiful little newborns and I just want another! My partner would kill me if he knew, we agreed to wait about 2 years in between children. So right now I'm watching birth shows and stuff trying to make myself remember how hard birth is and the first few weeks of their life but it's not working haha. Help, or at least let me know I'm not the only one!