Hi guys. i had to post as Im having huge problems at the moment. it probably doesnt' sound so bad, but someone wrote about having a good sleeper turn bad!! Well, to start Coco was an awful sleeper. The first 8 weeks we didnt' get a wink. Then suddenly she only woke for one feed. she'd sleep for 8 hours! Now the last week, she's waking up quite a bit. I willNOT feed her and so there fore everyone is getting stressed. I'll feed her once, but Im not getting into a habit of feeding every time she wakes. I had that with DD1 and that is where I can understand you guys, she was AWFUL at sleeping. She woke 6 times a night every night and I had to feed her to sleep.
Anyway, maybe out of fear of that returning, I am just not coping well. I feel that Im getting depressed about this. Last night she went down at 7.30, but was awake at midnight (this has been happening all week) and then it took half an hour to resettle. Then awake at 2am for feed, then didn't settle until 3.30am adn then woke at 5.30am. Going from one wake up (at 4.30am) to this is just killing me. I have not been asleep since 1am, and I think thats what is making it so much harder, my loss of sleep.
As Im sure you'll all understand, sleep deprivation has some serious side effects. Not only am I just not happy, and snappy and angry, but it's almost dangerous, especially when driving. Im feeling resentful to Coco and to Dh, and even though I love bubby to bits, Im just so tired and stressed all the time that I almost don't like her (only at times, and mainly only at 2am or whatever)!! I just wanted to really enjoy this experience. I guess i have set myself up and DH tells me to stop worrying etc, but that's it I WORRY so much. I 'd be ok not sleeping IF Coco slept really well.
Anyway, gotta go, hope you all had a good sleep!!! And sorry to barge in, just had to get this all out!!