I know I've had a few woe is me posts lately, but dear lord I really pulled the short stick. As far as babies go, I got a horrible one.

I'm over helping him get to sleep. We have tried *everything* and I admit to resorting to cry it out. 3 hours later he was still screaming. He just does not want to sleep and fights it like nothing else. I'm not after advice, there's nothing more that can be done here. I just need to get it off my chest.

I don't understand. I really don't. I hate spending all night in the room trying to get him to sleep. It's averaging 2 hours of settling for 1 hour or less of sleep. Do the math. It's simply not enough for a baby. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm shaking with rage and frustration. I'm not unrealistic, I don't expect sleeping through the night. I don't expect to just put him in his cot, walk away and have him self soothe to sleep. I can do rocking, patting, cuddling, feeding whatever it is. I feel like my entire life is revolved around getting him to sleep. And I hate it. I do not like my baby.