I didn't really have any pre-conceived ideas at what I would be like, but rather what I did NOT want to be like.

And so far, I have done well to my standards.

Yes, I've lost my patience over the smallest thing on the odd occasion.
Yes, I beat myself up over the kids development - more so DD being prem.

But, I guess its a work in progress. I will be a mother for the rest of my life, so I will adapt and evolve as the children grow up.