lisa thanks for enlightening me on that.... yes i would definitely say that it brought on a panic-situation and i did completely freak out and melt down when i was put in a shared room, so much so that i called my partner in tears at 7am the day after having a c-section asking him to pick me up and take me home.... the nurse manager came to see me and i just bawled hysterically like an idiot the whole time and said there is no way i can share a room and i want to go home, in the end they moved things around and i got my own room.... TBH i think i had post traumatic stress from the birth and took well over 8 months to recover emotionally, but i didn't know it at the time...

i suppose i could go see my doctor beforehand and explain all my anxieties with getting pregnant again in relation to the birth and see what becomes of it...

i'm not even at the stage of TTC but i'm already looking for solutions to the shared room thing, so i suppose it is causing me more anxiety than it might others...

hmmmm i wish i could relax more!!