Hi TT

I just wanted to let you know that I also share your fears going into labour 2nd time round. I was also induced for the birth of my DS as he was 9 days overdue. I was really happy with the labour up until it came time for the after birth. I also had a retained placenta that needed to be removed manually under GA. I missed the first 4 hours of my son's life and even writing that down hurts. Luckily enough I didn't need a blood transfusion! However 2 months after his birth I went back to the hospital concerned about continued bleeding they had a look and told me it was not that much and would stop when it was ready. A further month went by and i was not well, couldn't get out of bed I thought I was suffering post natal depression. Finaly I went to a private OB and he arranged an US, It turned out I had further retained products causing me to be very sick. I had a D&C the next day. I felt so much better almost immediatly.

And now here I am for #2 and i am so so scare. I am 20 weeks and it is keeping me up at night. I decided to go private this time because the care i received through the public system was ordinady to say the least. My OB is trying to reassure me that it will be ok but at every appointment i just seem to want to go back over what happened and how to stop it happening again. My biggest fear, dare i say it is that it happens again and they can't stop the bleeding and I know the option in that situation are limited and not at all positive. I want to enjoy this pregnancy but i am spending most of it being terrified.

The one thing i do know this time round, i will be in control and i will not just blindly trust doctors, they are fantastic they save lives, but they are also human and they make mistakes.

I wish you all the best for the birth of your bub, I pray everything goes perfectly and you are able to come back and report a positive birth story following a retained placenta

GOOD LUCK and thank you for being so honest about your fears