So I am on my own today, as DH is at work and MIL is looking after the kids (bless her) and instead of enjoying my quiet time and relaxing in preparation for bub, I am starting to freak out a little about the impending birth. I have been having lots of tightenings in the last couple of days and plenty this morning and I feel like it's not far off and I am finding it really hard to get myself into the right headspace for labour. Maybe it's because I am on my own with no one to distract me...my mum was supposed to be here but she can't make it now and won't be at the birth like she was with the others, so I don't have her to keep me calm and reassure me. All I can think about is how painful it will be and how I won't be able to cope and what if bub is over 9lb like Matilda was, will I be able to push her out and maybe I should just get an epidural straight up so I don't have to worry about it....It's ridiculous, but I can't help it! Please help me stop all these negative thoughts!