Yep, a lot of it comes from how you feel about it, I reckon.

Would you believe I had a better birth with Ianto (who, if you don't know and can't see my signature, died before birth) than with Amelia (perfectly healthy)? I was determined to give him the best birth I could, and I was actually happy to be giving birth to him.

I started off happy to be giving birth to Amelia, but (as PZ knows) I was very very UNhappy by the time I got to a birth suite. I was handling it pretty well until I was told they didn't have a room for me yet, and I had to labour for quite a while in a post-natal room with a new mum in it (wtf, hospital?)

On top of that, my body wasn't reacting well to the induction, and I was pretty much strapped to the bed by the heartrate monitor... I ended up in massive pain, screaming for an epidural (which btw was my one big rule in my birth plan - "do NOT let me have an epidural!") which I attribute to my poor state of mind by that point.


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