Well i thought i would finaly write out my birth story!! Shane is 4 months old now, and doing well.. here is how he made his long awaited enterance into the world... WARNING.... REALLY LONG- LIKE GRAB A CUPPA LOOONG!!!!

Most people here know my history of loss, and will understand that i was getting a tad nervous and anxious in my last weeks of pregnancy.
When i lost Zahra at 35 weeks due to placental abruption i had an emergency c section, so this time around i had given some thought to a VBAC and over time depending on who i spoke to (dr's and midwives) some were prepared to support me, and others told me that it was not recomended due to my abruption. By the 30th week i had finaly come to terms and accepted i would have another c section.

I went in for my 36 week appt Shane was engaged 4/5 (had been engaged for weeks) and they said i would be booked in at 38 weeks, at this time i was feeling a bit scared and i begged the dr to book me in at 37 weeks. The dr i was speaking too said he understood and talked to me about steroid shots and possible complications but said he had to check with the Head Dr for the final decision.. well he said NO- 38 weeks was the earliest he would do it- this was the same dr who said that he would not support a VBAC and had me scared of going into labour as i lived a good hour away from the hospital and i was frightened that if i couldnt have a vBAc then it would be bad if i went into labour- and i felt that this was a possibility.... but he would not budge.

I made it through the week and got to my 37 week appt (it was a Tuesday) and saw the same Dr i had seen the week before- he congratulated me on making it through the week and went ahead to book me in for wednesday the 6th of august. As i he examined me he said that bubs is making his way down well and he wouldnt be suprised if i went into labour before the c section!! That freaked me out as i had wanted the csection early to avoid labour and possible second abruption!!

So i head home, i had been having BH and period pain for weeks- the period pain always came in the morning- it was heavy and in m back, but would disapear as soon as i got up and walked around- the BH would just come and go all day with no real regularity.

When i got home there was a message on the phone from DH who said the hospital called and needed to speak to me urgently... with our history- that kind of message made my knees weak.. i called them back and was told that they had over booked c sections and would i rather come in Tuesday the 5th or wait until the 13th,,, ummm i will be there on Tuesday!!!

I spent the week at home resting counting down the minutes and slowly organising things around the house- cleaning things and packing and rearranging the nursery 20 times- DH took the thrusday and friday off work to be with me incase anything happened and we were both acting like kids in the lead up to Christmas!!
It was kind of reassuring knowing the day we would be going in and i had been slowly doing the housework knowing i could leave some things till the day before so they were all done for when i got home.

Well it got to Saturday morning and i suddenly had this urge to finalise things, i packed my bag completely.. (toothbrush hairbrush everything) and shaved my legs (which i wasnt going to do till Monday) and spent the afternoon sitting like a waiting duck, but not knowing why exactly....

It got to evening and i sat down to watch some television- the Ice Truckers show was on (started at 6:30pm) and i suddenly reaslised that i was getting some pretty major belly tightens AND the period pain at the same time and they were lasting a fair while.... by the time Ice Truckers had finished i had had three of these major CONTRACTIONS

I kept quiet and didnt exactly watch the clock- i was amazingly quite calm about it all and proceeded to keep watching telly... the next show came on (i cant remember what that one was) and i noticed that this time in the hour i had 4 of these contractions...

Hmmmmm, i started watching the next show "big love" on SBS and low and behold- i had THREE in 15 minutes!!!
Time to tell DH who was busy starting dinner...

We decided that we would call the hospital and they said to come in.. this is where DH lost the plot a bit!! lol He had spent the last few weeks getting used to the idea that we "knew" when the baby was coming. He couldnt get his head around it as he wanted the fun of the suprise and for weeks kept saying your not supposed to know when your baby comes.. well in the last two days he had accepted that we knew and was now sent spinning coz "this isnt how it was meant to go.. we are supposed to be having him next week!!" lol

I sat calmly watching telly as DH went crazy around the house like they do in movies going back and forth from the car to the house making sure we had everything packed and ready!!Not letting me lift or move anything and debating whether he should make me eat dinner before we left or just get me to the hospital. His biggest delema was that he had cyphined some fuel out of our car for the lawn mower!! lol thinking we had till tuesday to fill the car back up!! We had enough petrol of course- but he stressed out all the same!!

I dont know where my calmness came from- i think all my nerves and craziness was going straight to DH!! Coz i was sitting there with this huge grin on my face thinking- im gonna have my baby!! I wasnt scared about being in labour or rushing to get to the hospital i was calm as a cucumber!!

Well DH finally got everything sorted, baby seat suitcase, blankets, teddy's the kitchen sink lol and off we headed to the hospital.
Now due to our petrol situation, we had to go the long way to the hospital lol We had a few different ways to get there, but the short way didnt go past any servos and while i am sure we would have made it, DH didnt want to risk being on the side of the road with me in labour in the middle of the bush!! lol All our practice runs and timing trials over the past few months for nothing!! lol Not to mention stopping would also add to how long it will take to get there!!

At the servo- being a small town we ofcourse run into a mate!! Who of course had been drinking (not driving, a passenger!!) lol Who wants to stop and have a chat!! DH is trying to be polite while i sit in the car calmly contracting!! he eventually tells our mate look we are going to the hospital mate we gotta go- which brought on the "oh wow, good on you guys, good luck how special...." so we smile and nod and drive away leaving our mate grinning in the middle of the servo!!

So we are on our way!!

We get to the hospital and go straight up to maternity-by now its like nearly 11pm and i had only had one contraction between the servo and getting to the hopsital. i laughed at myself as they hooked me up to the CTG monitor that we came all this way and i bet the contractions stop!! DH said that would be blooody typical of me!! lol

With in a few minutes i start contracting again, the midwife offers DH a cuppa and looks at me and says- "Hmm you better not- we dont know whats gonna happen for you yet, good thing you didnt eat your dinner- you may be going in tonight!"

They call the dr and look over my ctg print out and i am in labour- but in very early stages, the contractions are not too regular but they will be keeping me in and orgainsing the c section fo the morning.

I take two panadene forte and told to get some rest- DH and i watched a movie and the panedenes slowed things down abit... at about 1am i asked for a heatpack as i started getting the lower back period pain and every hour or so i got a heavy lower contraction...

At 5am i got the most painfull full on contraction i had ever had!! DH woke up and i buzzed the nurse, they put me back on the monitor gave me an internal (i was 3cm dialated) and told me now i was in in full labour- contractions where regular and ontop of eachother and it was time to call everyone in for the c section- if that was what i wanted!!! WTF NOW they say i can keep going???? I made a very quick decision that i was too chicken to have my vbac and yep i want the c section, um now please!!!

So i was prepped for the c section and was wheeled down to theatre with a big goofy grin on my face and contractions coming every couple of minutes.. lol my body apparently wasnt told that i was having a c section but i was apparently very amusing to watch coz i couldnt wipe the smile from my face even during the contractions!!

We got down to theatre and DH got dressed in his cool green outfit and i was given the spinal- they warned me that i may start to feel a bit funny if my blood pressure drops but they can give me something if that happens- i told them to get it ready coz i have low blood pressure and then it was all actions stations. DH and i sat (lay) there behind the curtain listening to all the pulling and tugging and awaiting the first cry... to our suprise there was no loud wail, but a very cute little gurgle! They raised my son above the curtain and we saw our boy for the first time!! He was whisked to the side and his chord was cut and he was tested for his apgars (9 and 10) and as i predicted i started to feel alittle funny and was given the stuff for my blood pressure while they wrapped my boy and then handed him to us.

I was able to hold him while they stitched me up and we all got to go to recovery together where we had our first skin to skin contact and our first breast feed.

We got back to our room and called my mum and let her know that our little man had made his early arrival and spent the day enjoying our son!

I spent a few days in hospital and got to go home on Tuesday- the day i was MEANT to have my c section!!

I will have to leave it here as the little man is awake and being as cute as ever!!