Last time I couldn't bf ds because I was too unwell and he was sleepy from pethadine, jaundice and bsl oh and the midwives were all so rough and inconsistent

This time I am planning to antenatally express to give me a better chance and because of my high bsl

Tomorrow I will be seeing the hospital LC about antenatally expressing but are there any other things I should ask while I'm there? My breasts & nipples are fine the only thing that concerns me is getting bad PND again and feeling that I won't be able to escape baby If i need to like I could when ff , I'm really sitting on the fence as far as commitment because I'm scared of failing