Sorry if this should be in a different section - i picked what felt like the closest relevant forum but there are a few issues here!

I'm having real difficulty with not ever getting time to myself to go out even once a month in the evening. CJ has always fed to sleep and won't sleep any other way except in the Ergo or car - when he wakes when transferred. I can't seem to pump enough for a full feed so I'm thinking of introducing a FF for him to feed to sleep with so he can at least be babysat. It won't be every night, just a few nights a week so he is comfortable with it. I just want an evening a month to go out! Some nights he'll be FFed to sleep in a separate bed and others will be BFed co-sleeping as usual. Will this confuse him or kill my supply do you think? I'll still BF to sleep for some day naps as well - I just want him to be comfy with both scenarios...

I always wanted to BF until he self-weaned and I still do - I don't want to jeopardize that but I need the time out or I'm gonna go batty. It's already getting to me and I'm irritable and snappy with him and everyone else but I also feel so guilty for wanting to introduce formula when I feel like I 'promised' him I'd BF him until he chose to stop... And now I'm betraying that. Or so it feels.