sleep deprivation is the pits. bilby was feeding EVERY two hours until she was 20 months old. i was averaging maybe 90 mins sleep per 24 hours, an absolute walking zombie. i have no idea how i DIDN"T crash the car when i was like that. (in retrospect, i wish Xdh had taken my car keys away from me).

everything you put down, i remember so well, but i was doing it with ONE child, not TWO like you are.

how supportive is your dh? does he get up at night and bring you water, whatever you are needing at the time, change the baby etc? that made a huge difference to me, to be able to get thru it.

it's so hard, but i agree, formula is not the cure all. i've met so many mums who did exactly that (switch to formula, thinking it would solve the sleeping issue) and it actually didn't make any diff. Not saying what you should do, just presenting the idea, that it is not guaranteed you will get teh sleep sorted out, if you put bubs on formula. it might, it might not.

bubs have very limited ways of communicating. something i wished i had done (when we were at this stage, but i was too damm sleep deprived to think of it) was to take her to a chiro, to see if there were any alignment issues. as well as GP checkup, to find out if there was any physical reason, why she was waking every two hours, 24/7.

do you still have houseguests? if they are still there, do they help (housework, looking after your oldest)? is your DH supportive? for the bf-ing to continue and to succeed, you really do need practical and moral support from the people around you. if you don't have that, if it was me, i would consider formula.

so damm hard to problem solve, when you're in the sleep deprived state.

thinking of you and wishing you all the best, whatever you do, i know you do the best you can, we all do. so don't guilt trip yourself hon, just do the best you can, with the situation you're in. only you know what that is.

i really hope your dh is onboard and "in your corner". this is too hard to do alone.

there isn't a RIGHT or a WRONG answer to this. you gotta do, what you gotta do, to get thru.