I have been feeding DD for close on 4 months and I have truly treasured EVERY moment of being able to Breastfeed her

I am starting to realise that I will probably have to be on Motillium long-term - well, for as long as I BF her. Those of you that have read my previous posts will know that it took 12 days for me before I could exclusively feed her. I was on Motillium from day 1. So my supply wasn't great to begin with.

After a month or so, I started weaning myself off the Motillium super-slowly - it took ages. Eventually I was totally off them and 2 weeks later I hardly had any milk. She was feeding constantly and her nappies were nowhere near as wet as they used to be. Her weight gain also slowed.

I freaked out and started on the Motillium again - it took over a week to kick in and now, after two weeks, I am in oversupply (can't win, can you?!). So I am now going to start weaning back down to a lower dose and see how I go.

The problem is that I hate the idea of having to take medication to breastfeed (I am already on chronic medication for depression) - especially if it is secreted in my milk (safe or not, it is still medication). I dread the thought of having to formula feed (primarily because I tried sooo hard to BF this time and all of the problems we encountered when I FF DS), but I am now wondering if it is something I should be considering.

I am struggling with the idea of taking the Motillium for another 8 months until she is one year old, or stopping earlier and moving her onto formula. I found it hard even typing the previous sentence

What would you ladies suggest?