Ok, I'm not too sure of what the point of this post is... guess I just need to get it off my chest. It would also be nice to know that I'm not alone in these thoughts or hear others experiences with this dilemma...

With DS I was induced because my waters broke and labor had failed to progress after 4 days. I ended up having an emergency CS after what was a pretty hideous labour, with DS being posterior and then getting stuck with an anterior lip.

At the time I was a bit disappointed because I had hoped to have a natural birth. But didn't focus on it too much and instead enjoyed my precious little boy. As time went on I pretty much came to the conclusion that next time round I would try for a VBAC...

But now that I'm UTD I'm not so sure that I want to...

In some ways it's like the first time around where labour is this 'big unknown' but then I have this hideous induction experience too (and I 'know' that an induced labour is typically a lot more painful etc than one that progresses naturally). Part of me is afraid of a natural birth... There's always the chance that I could end up with another emergency CS (which would be a huge disappointment) and on the other side of it there's the fear of a forceps and a severe episitotimy (a friend just had a really nasty one which is probably a big factor in this fear).

Then on the other hand there is the option of an elective CS. I'd know exactly what I'm in for and I know what to expect in terms of recovery. On the logistical side of things (which really shouldn't come into it) it would be easier to manage with DS in terms of the delivery, but then the recovery would be difficult, but DH will be home for 4 weeks too.

So here I am weighing up the pro's on con's over and over. Yes I've got plenty of time to make up my mind... And I'm very lucky that my OB is pro-VBAC, but will support whatever choice I make....

Argg.. not sure what to do????

Thanks for reading/listening x