Thanks for all the input xx

I can't work weekends or nights because DP doesn't work set hours himself. He's a farmhand which means at the moment he is working midnight till midday, sometimes 7am till 7pm and sometimes weekends. Which is why if I return to work the kids go into daycare. Brendan already goes one day a week now (paed's orders) so I'm well aware of what goes on.

DP is the biggest issue, he won't budge on ANYTHING and his family SUPPORT that! I have cut down my internet and phone bill, which are my only bills. I have swapped food choices and buy cheaper branded things and we don't get treats as often as we used to. I've cut down on power usage in the past 6 months which hasn't helped with our power bill being increased anyway... goes up another 16-17% in July There is nothing else I can do... it's all up to him now and he just won't budge. Foxtel is currently in my name so I will be reducing that to the basic package anyway and as soon as the contract is up it's going (July). But I can't control the other things. He has a motorbike and a Ute which we are currently forking out around $1000 a month in loan payments for, and then he wants to ride his bike which costs us more. He just doesn't get that we have no money right now. I have $50 to last me till next pay which is about the 10th of May. That $50 is for food shopping because that's all we had left after paying some bills. I don't know what else I can do but go back to work and hope to make ends meet

I really wanted to see out this year because Brendan will be in kindy next year.

PS Sorry for the rant