Hi,

I am in some need of advice please ladies & gents..... quick background - I returned to work in July08 and was unable to get child care so I suggested to my employer that I could work at night- sure not a problem only temp basis untill you get a spot . Mon- Thur 17:30-23:00 (great in theroy).... anyways I am finding the nights really tiring as my little man is up and running everywhere (which I love) and then coming to work is really hard.... so I started really pushing the child care emails and phone calls... Have been having issues with work because I took a few days off to look after Aiden who was sick (apparently I should express my milk so that daddy can look after him while I come to work - another long story!!) - Anyways we were offered a place at my 2nd choice of child care places... DH Aiden and I had a look today and Aiden was exploring and playing with the other kids - but DH stood there with an unhappy look on his face and said to me that he doesn't want strangers looking after our man!

I agree but I am at my wits end, I am soo tired all the time, work is hard going and lonely BUT I love that I get to spend all day with Aiden... so do I take the 3 days aweek and try it out or wait untill work cans my nights?????????????????? I feel sooooooooo guilty and selfish that I want to work during the day and then spend our nights as family, when I could be at home all day with Aiden but then I am so tired so am I giving him quality time ?? And DH don't really see each other!!

DH and I can't decide and I appreaicate any advice or stories that you have through - I know I am not the 1st or nore will I be the last muma to be torn about work and care and am I doing the right the thing!!

Thanks for reading and listening to my vent

Kez x