I am about to finish my first week of sleep school and it has been recommended to me to stay another week, not because DD hasn't improved, but because I have severe PND and the hospital think I may not cope with following the routine at home. They believe 1 more week will consolidate my DD new self settling skills and my new meds will kick in while I am in a supportive environment.

The thing is, I miss home. I miss my husband, I miss my cats, I miss doing what I want when I want, but most of all I don't want my DD to return to an unfamiliar home. I cry each night and can't see how being lonely, depressed and constantly doubting myself with no one late at night to talk to except the nurses is beneficial. The other mothers are great but they won't be here next week and my husband is 40 minutes away.

I am meant to be getting more sleep but feel more anxious knowing she is so far away and that a stranger (even though the nurses are really fantastic!) has to get me to settle her. I still check up on her regularly throughout the night so even though I am no longer night feeding, I am still up.

The program so far has been great. My DD who is 9 months is sleeping through the night with nothing longer than a 3-5 minute grizzle (crying, talking, humming, laughing, squealing that is off and on with breaks inbetween). However her day sleeps are still a struggle but I can live with that if she continues to sleep at night.

I am keen to follow the program initially to the letter,but in the long run, I know it will be adjusted because it's too strict for me and means I will literally be house bound. It doesn't account for the fact that I truly believe that my DD doesn't need 4 hours of day sleep on top of 12 hours uninterrupted sleep at night. I am sure I can follow the program closely but I know at home there will eventually be changes.

I feel really scattered at the moment. I keep changing my mind and really need to make a decision. My husband wants me home but also thinks I should follow any recommendations given to me.

What would you do? I guess I need to know if it really is difficult to keep the routine in place while at home and what are the chances my daughter will fall of the wagon if I start making changes. I would hate to think that everything I have done in the past 5 days would be thrown out the window and I would have to start again.