Im not sure what happened, but what i am sure about is I had 2 faint positives last week because hubby has confirmed he saw it too. i thought they were evap lines but they were pink lines not grey lines. the next three days were negatives. That i had faint positives means something, means the hormone got picked up but wasnt strong enough and having studied my chart and all the symptoms I had, and the timing of everything and being late for my period, it all suggests I had a chemical pregnancy. Unfortunately since only yesterday at 4 pm the blood sample was taken, the blood test might not have detected it but i will only find out tomorrow for sure. I am convinced though that last week yes I was pregnant, it was just different from my last cycle. I was so deadset sure I bought my husband a rattling teddy to tell him in a special way as soon as the lines on the tests got darker. unfortunately things didnt turn out that way. This afternoon i have had the most excrutiating cramps and back pain while i was at work, i nearly fainted. This is not like ordinary cramps before AF. I went to the loo but no sign of AF all afternoon. I just got home and now there it is. bright red. no denying. The pain has eased a bit, the pressure in my abdomen seems to have released somewhat.

It just wasnt our time.
Tomorrow I am getting blood test results. Maybe that will reveal something, but maybe it was already too late to pick up hcg levels. i dont really care if it doesnt show in the test now cuz in my heart of hearts i know my little bean just didnt stick.
im sad but im ok, some things just happen for a reason i guess ...