Hey ladies,
[TMI warning]

I don't know where this goes, but I am really really depressed tonight. Managed to DTD last Thursday and I don't think it worked- again! I think we missed by 2 days!

The hard part is that sometimes I have 30 days cycles, others shorter. My last 2 cycles have been 30 dayers. Last monday (sorry TMI) I woke up and there was so much EWCM I had to get up before it got all over the sheets. I felt what I think I get and nick named the 'post ovulatory burn' across my abdo about either Tuesday or Wednesday, but my CM was still thin and stretchy and clear. Thursday my man had to come into town from the farm. Up until yesterday (4th) its been u.know how it goes- 'is that him or me'... and last night there was still some of that with this big clump of snotty jelly in it. Today I am 100% dry except at lunch time came a desperate need to run to the loo and wipe, it was the same snotty colour.

Being dry and that kind of CM is usually normal when I will continue toward a period.

How can it be so heart breaking I feel like its never going to happen, wasn't meant to be and my heart is bleeding more than A.F !
I can't describe this ache in my heart. I know you all have been there too, butwhen you are 40 and have no children at all it hurts just a bit more.

sorry ladies, I just need a good cry I think.

Mejane