Newbie, TTC for 11 months now!

[littlemissmountain]

Hi everyone,

I hope I am posting in the right place/format with the correct terminology etc etc!
I am turning 31 this year, my DH will be 37. We have been TTC for 11 months and are beginning to get a little disheartened with AF and the BFN's each month We so badly want to start out little clan!!

My AF is pretty regular, averages 28 days, is heavy the first 2 days and then hardly worth mentioning (stops on day 3 and starts again momentarily on 4). I check my CM daily and am just starting out with OPK's, but haven't been temping yet. We have booked in with a doc in town for check ups and preliminary tests but have to wait until mid-July to see her - haven't been living in a rural area for long and had no idea that there were "closed books" everywhere as far as western medical practitioners go! But hopefully it is worth the wait, she was recommended to me by more than one person and is apparently ONLY accepting new obstetrics patients.

The roller coaster of hope/disappointment/hope is getting tiresome and that little voice in my head that keeps piping up with it's "what if...." is REALLY starting to annoy me! I am also feeling quite squashed by all the loved ones around me popping bubs out every 5 minutes like it's easier than washing the dishes which is a shame because I am actually very happy for THEM! Hopefully my time will come soon.

It has been great to do some reading on this forum and get some insights and some little pieces of hope restored - you all seem so lovely and supportive! I welcome any tips or suggestions or comments from anyone who has experienced or is experiencing a similar journey. Best of luck to you ALL!

LMM
xo

[hopeful10]

Hi There.
My husband and I haven’t nearly been trying for as long as you but I imagine how disheartened you are feeling.
My story is I am turning 25 year, DH is 27. I was diagnosed when I was younger with PCOS which can make it difficult to have children.
I have been put on Metform to treat the PCOS and amazingly I appear to have ovulated on the weekend so I am hoping and praying I am one of the lucky ones and I get a BFP at the end of the month. The wait is already killing me and I know I will be so disappointed if it’s BFN. I am so scared that it is going to be a very long haul. This week I have felt very strange so I’m hoping it’s early signs but hey who knows. I could be reading things that aren’t there. Yesterday I had an emotional breakdown when an old school friend emailed me that she is pregnant. She told me a couple weeks ago they were trying and now she is pregnant. I don’t know why but I started crying and the funny thing is I am happy for her. I really am. So I don’t know why I was crying but I felt like crying all day and that was the straw that broke the camels back I guess. We haven’t been trying for long at all but I guess I’m just scared it’s not going to happen and I know having PCOS makes it difficult! I have starting temping which has helped me understand my body. Maybe you might wanna look into that.
I hope that you get a BFP soon!!! Thanks for reading

[littlemissmountain]

Thanks for the reply Hopeful
That's fabulous news that you are O'ing and the meds are helping!
I know exactly what you mean about the wait being such a killer... it's so easy to read in to very average signals, and the BFN's are very crushing sometimes. I have been bracing myself for a long haul too... will be SO glad when we have been to the doctor and will possibly have some answers, or at least some kind of direction other than going in circles here.

I did the same friend when one of my close friends told me she was pg. I bawled. I think it just makes it real hearing that someone else is there... not that we aren't happy for them... just a bit sad or fearful for ourselves at the same time I guess. That particular friend is due in about three weeks now... she was telling me on the phone yesterday about her DH singing to the baby and rubbing her belly and a lot of other very intimate family moments which just made my heart ache a bit. It's a shame that it actually puts a little wedge there between us... but the reality is that we aren't going through the same thing at the same time!

Yes, I should start temping ASAP, I was going to buy a basal thermo online, but it seems like the shop isn't up and running or something?! That's great that you are a few years younger too... I know we have some time left too of course, but at least if it does take longer than usual for you for other reasons you don't have to worry toooo much about the clock ticking as well!

best of luck this month, I will cross my fingers for you

LMM
xo