On 15 December 2010 our lives changed when we got the news that our unborn son wasn't going to make it. We were told that he had a 1 in a million combination of conditions meaning his heart would never beat for itself and if he lived to be born which was only a 50% chance, he would be hooked up to machines for the majority of his lifr which at the most, could only be 10 years.

On 24 December 2010 I gave birth to our son, Chase when i was 22 weeks and 2 days pregnant. We held our beautiful liuttle boy and said our goodbyes. I didn't think I could handle being pregnant again... that was until we scattered Chase's ashes on 14 January 2011. That was a huge letting go for me and my Husband. By that time it had been a month of grieving as we began grieving before labour was induced.

Today I have discovered I am pregnant again. We are so hopeful. I am so delighted it hasn't taken long. We have been told we are 3-4% chance of another baby having a heart condition, but still 1:1,000,000 for the same problem happening.
Surprisingly, I am more concerned about getting to 12 weeks... then i can become concerned about that 18 week scan.

I am not religious, but i am starting to pray... the universe took our son away and it has killed us but now we have a chance to have the baby we so longed for... I don't know why Chase couldn't have made it... i would be on maternity leave from work right now... his due date is only 5.5 weeks away... that day will be a tough one... please let this baby be ok.