Hey everyone,

I haven't been in TTC before - I've actually been hanging out in the pre-ttc thread since the beginning of the year.

I had a mc back in September and since then DH and I haven't been trying (though I want to - so does he, but we're trying to be sensible about various things). That said, this month we've had a few... erm... moments of carelessness, including what I'm pretty sure was in the few days before ovulation.

Anyway... fast forward from Feb 14th and af is due this week. I normally get sore nipples around ov for a few days but then it goes away again. BUT... in the last few days or so they have been getting more and more tender and I've noticed for the past week they are really dark in colour - almost purplely! I'm not sure about changes in the areola... I find it really hard to to tell, and I struggled with seeing those changes when I was pg back in Sept. But the darker nips are absolutely undeniable, and they suddenly seem a lot bigger too! Its not specific to any time of day, they're like that ALL the time.

Also, I had a sharpish pain to the right of my belly button last week - within a day of when my calendar said implantation would occur. I felt implantation last time and that was when I first had a sneaking suspicion I was pg... just like this time. I've had waves of nausea for about the last week - starting from last Tuesday and I was nauseous really early last time too... like mega early. The doctor was amazed I'd had any symptoms at all. Sometimes the nausea is in the morning, quite often I get it at night which is when I was at my worst last time. My tastes seem different - I had a pepsi last night (am a big cola drinker) and hated it, had a coffee after lunch today to wake me up a bit and I spent the next three hours feeling sick as hell and actually thinking I was going to have to run out. I struggled to even get it down, though sometimes I just decide I don't like coffee and it makes me sick (though thats usually the other end). I've been a bit constipated and had more cm than I would expect after ov too.

What do you all think girls? I'm trying to hang out for thurs before I test, but... you know... I really want to be and I'm not sure if half of this is in my head! Kind of freaking out - I dont really want to face up to the disappointment if I'm not pg, but at the same time it's not like we're actually trying. Last time I just seemed to instinctively know I was pg... this time I'm not sure because I am very aware that my desperation to be pregnant may very well cause me to subconciously create instincts and thoughts that just aren't right.

Anyway, feeling sick (there goes the night time nausea!) so off to bed...