I seem to have quite a few option available to me at the moment. They are all going to take time to get me to where I could be going, but there seem so many paths I can take and it is doing my head in.
I seem to be stuck. Like I am plagued by this inability to make a decision. Take decisive action and accept that that means letting go of the others things I could/want to be doing. I want to do them all. Obviously this is not an option, but I can't seem to even settle on one thing to do first.

The more I think about it the worse it gets. The less I think about it, the more stuck I feel.
I have this sense that I should be *doing* stuff. I should be in a dynamic phase or something, but I can't seem to find the go button. And when I think I have settled on a choice, I question myself into indecision again.

My brain is exploding with options and consequences and trying to map a path for my life and the lives of my girls that will put us where I want us to be and I am... well, I don't know what this is. Fear of failure or anxiety or fear of success or petulant refusal to accept this is my reality or reluctance to confront the fact I need to change my goal posts now, post-separation and post-housewife life....

I really feel totally inept and incompetent right now, I don't really know why, but I do. It sucks.

First world problems, hey. Damn.

I suppose what I am wondering is, how do you take decisive action when you have to shoulder all the responsibility, when you are having to do these things and take thee *huge* decisions on your own, when there is nobody to partner with and talk through the possibilities?
When do you know you have taken the right path and made the right decisions?
Does it ever get easier making these life-altering decisions for your children alone? Does this weight of responsibility ever ease or do I really need to get used to that?