Feeling pretty stressed and upset

[haleyscomet]

I have just gotten back from my ultrasound and GP appointment to find I have yet another uterine polyp that is attached to the back of my uterine wall. I was also told that 2 other uterine polyps (small) were also seen and a nabothian cyst (which she said isnt a big deal). She also said I have 17 follicles on one ovary and 25 follicles on the other.


I am seeing a specialist on Monday morning (Julie Whitehead) for the first time, as I have undergone over 5 removals of uterine polyps the last being the end of jan 2008, where I also had ovarian drilling done. I had a bunch of blood tests done today as well (I get the results on Friday), but my GP said that the results will not be positive for future conception. She said I should start thinking about adoption and that since I have had so many uterine polyps they may consider a hysterectomy. I am pretty upset and scared right now. My partner is working back late (thankfully) because I need to be in control of my emotions before he gets home. He worries so much and we both want children so bad, he will be asbolutely and positively devastated when I tell him anything about the GP appointment. I will tell him to not worry til we see the specialist on Monday but its so hard to remain positive for him when I am so scared inside. I realise my appointment is only next week but it feels so long to find out what are our options going to be.

Thanks for letting me vent.

[missya]

Hiya, I just wanted to send you a big hug.
I have endo and suffer with it on a daily basis and was told when I was finally diagnosed at 24 after years of suffering that the chances of me having children were very slim. Every situation is different but I just wanted you to hold onto hope, Doctors think they know everything but they don't. I've had two children (and a twin miscarriage) since but prior to that I had to go through a period where although I was determind that I would prove the Drs wrong I contemplated the idea of adoption and seriously decided I was born to be a Mother regardless of how I got them.
I'm so sorry that you have to go through this and hope things will take a turn for the better, Cheers Missy

[mehza786]

Hey haleyscomet,
i was also told i couldnt have children when i was 15 cause i have Endo, PCOS and Adenomyosis. I did plan to adopt and be a foster parent but somehow I got pregnant after a few operations and Emergency Room trips.

Im 22 and have a gorgeous baby boy, i know that the Doctors have told you that conception will be difficult but theres still chance...they still cant tell me how i got pregnant and neither can we.

I have also been told that i will have to get a hysterectomy asap. but i'm not going to until i give it one more try for a second child.

THis is a very important time for you and your partner to bond...i pushed my husband away for many years before i realized that he was in the fight with me. i'm on hormone therapy and have been for almost a year and before that was on different hormone therapy both of which make me sick and he was with me through the whole thing and he was my strength.

Dont lock your partner out let him know how you feel and definitely don't give up on the baby prospect, regardless of what doctors say.

[haleyscomet]

Thank you so much for your replies . My partner would love to give my GP a good talking to right now since he reminded me that not once have they ever said I would need a hysterectomy until today and she was only my GP's cover for the next 12months. He was devastated when he heard I had more uterine issues which will mean more surgery, I must admit I am too though I think it hurts him more than it does me. I am trying hard to stay positive, it's just really hard. I am in tears typing this at 1am just because I am so stressed right now. Logically I know everything will be fine but my heart is just torn right now. I am venturing into natural treatments and hopefully seeing a proper specialist who knows about PCOS and specialises in fertility will help. We have never seen a fertility specialist before and we have never seen someone who has an interest in PCOS. Its just hard that my last polyps tended to be roughly occurring every 2yrs or so, and this one has occurred in less than 9 months. It's like how many more surgeries do I have to go through, how many more surgical procedures I have to put my partner through. My partner is so precious to me and I hate to see him hurting (it doesnt help that his mother continually keeps asking when are we going to have children). I am 31yo, I have been 'told off' so to speak by several people, that I put my career first etc. I have had these problems for over 10years so I strongly believe it has nothing to do with focusing on my career and travelling overseas. I am feeling more comfortable however that I am attempting the natural approach and from what I understand even though I am told it is unusual for someone who is not menopausal or postmenopause to experience this many polyps, something natural combined with some hormone regulatory medication that the specialist recommends will help it from recurring.

Thank you so much again for your replies, it means a lot to me.

[joel's girl]

Firstly, big hugs to you haleyscommet. I hope the news has started to sink in now and you can remain positive about the future.

Your DP sound wonderful, your GP on the other hand !!!!! I've had my share of stupid dr who say things that they shouldn't have. The consequence of what they say is amazing hey.....

You will be fine, do whatever it takes to find the right specialist for you. Research them like you would a employee, are they what you are looking for ? Will they treat you in a way that is logical and satisfactory to YOU ? It is your body, if your not comfortable with what the speciailst says next week then get a 2nd, 3rd opinon etc.

I may sound worked up about this...........that would be because in July/Aug 2006 I was told by a specialist that I need a hysterectomy and that I should start looking at adoption. I was not convinced that this was right - gut instinct if you will. I searched and searched, found this forum, got a recommendation to see a specialist in endo, had two surgeries (yes they were awful) but I was pregnant in Dec 2006.

Imagine if I had listened to that STUPID doctor a few months earlier

And I'm pregnant with our 2nd now also

Please please please listen to your instincts and do whats best for you and your DP, don't just take the word of the dr's as gospel.

Let us know how you go. Thinking of you HC.

[haleyscomet]

Thanks JG

I am feeling MUCH better now, it was more a middle of the night meltdown from just finding out the info. I am more positive now, I am seeing the right specialist for this on Monday and then we can go from there. I also found out that uterine polyps is more of an issue with too much estrogen, allowing my endometrium to grow too quickly which makes perfect sense and to me that is an issue that is definately treatable

Thanks again, I really appreciate it!