My heart is aching...

[BrightSparkles]

For another baby.
( was going to post this in boo hoo but its not showing on tt???)

I know that it's not the right time ATM even if we did. Dh is completely against the idea still.
It's to a point now that I'm struggling to be happy for friends who are announcing their pgs and having babies. Deep down I am but I can't help but feel jealous that its not me. I have stopped going on fb because I can't face all the baby photos and stories etc. i love all my frienda dearly and I know it's selfish but it hurts too much. It just keeps slapping me in the face and showing me what I can't have again
Even if we were to go again, now isn't the right time. Maybe in 6- 12 months but not right now. But dh is so against the idea it's not an option.

I just had to get this out no real point....

[Calluna]

I understand hun. For us it was 2 years of desperately wanting another baby, then 5 months TTC, then I miscarried. 7 months TTC now and still waiting. anyway, what Im trying to say is, I understand, it sucks so much when you cant even TRY.
That jealousy is normal, try not to beat yourself up or be ashamed of it.

Lots of hugs.

[BrightSparkles]

Thanks cal.

[Footsteps]

Wev been TTC for over 2 years and had a miscarriage in that time. We are starting ivf in Jan. My brother is having a little girl due in Feb. Its been hard to take but I pray we all get our BFP soon. If you need to talk pm me hugs xxxx

[forshelby]

I waited 2.5 years to TTC after an unexpected BFP and m/c in 2008. I feel your pain.



I did get a happy ending, and I hope the same for you too.

[Cherished]

I'm almost in the same boat as you BrightSparkles, my dh is dead set against us having our 2nd baby. My heart was aching for a good 12 months and I nearly left him, a fantastic husband and father.... just because I wanted another baby so badly Some days I think I will never forgive him... My ds will not have a sibling.... He doesn't have any other family/cousins to grow up with I got my BFP for DS on Boxing day 2009 and only wish I was about to get another one but that day will never come the way things stand. I did struggle with others getting their BFP and of course all of my mothers group has had their 2nd or is pregnant.... just little old me with my only child. I've had to focus on the positive things, like that otherwise my life is awesome! I get to be a SAHM, my dh really is lovely and super supportive and a very helpful dad I couldn't ask for anything more.... except another baby :/ We will also get to do other things down the track that my friends with 2 or more babies wont be getting to do due to lack of time/money and just logistics of having a larger family. I know these reasons don't apply to you but find your own positive reasons of how/why the 2 kids you already have will/can be enough for you and focus on that. If you don't the resentment/jealousy will consume you.

[BrightSparkles]

Gah what is it at the moment. Everywhere I look friends are having babies or announcing pregnancies. It's in each tv show I see and now dh and his mate are talking about starting a business with baby furniture.
This is c**p. it just feels like another knife each time.
First world problem I have but far out. I never thought the want could be so strong.

[Calluna]

it sucks.

[nothing2lose]

You are young BS. A lot can happen in time. You never know what is around the corner

[BrightSparkles]

Yeah I know n2l. Have been thinking positively in that regard. I think I just have so many emotions going on in my head atm that everything seems bigger (though this feeling has been around for a while).
Pulling up my big girls pants now..