Thankyou for all your words, it means so much. I tend to to keep alot to myself so sometimes it god to just let it out. Although my dad is suffering from this terible disease, it also terrible watching someone go through this, my mum is suffering so much as well , she has her own sicknessess, but she has put her pain aside and take care of my dad. Sometimes i try and take her out but my Dad doesnt allow her becase he thinks hes going to die.