This will probably be long and might not make much sense but I need to get it out!

Ds has been co sleeping since about 4 months! Before having him I would never have considered it, but after much reading and feeling like it was the most natural and easiest thing to do we started full time.

He has never slept through the night, maybe for a week when he was tiny.

i feel like i am a failure cause he doesn't sleep through and is still BF constantly. Now I love that he is still BF but I feel like I need my body back especially at night when from about 3am he wants to be constantly attached.

I look at other peoples babies who have controlled cries and formula fed and they are sleeping through and are the most perfect babies, it makes me feel like I am being punished for choosing a gentle and natural way for my son. I am so worried he will still be waking up 5 and 6 times a night by the time number 2 comes in October and it scare the hell out of me!

He is high spirited and cheeky kind of kid and I know this is from being nurtured they way we do cause he feels safe and secure.

I love co sleeping with him but I just wish he would sleep through I am so tired and need to sleep.

I need to hear some positive stories of co sleeping and breastfeeding babes who sleep through.

Thanks for reading.