Well, I didnt think I could do it, but I did.

The diabetes educator was really nice and there was another lady there with me that was also needing to give herself the insulin. She had been doing it already, but her times had changed from night to daytime as well. Anyway she even looked nervous. I told her to go first. lol. I would have thought she would have been ok doing it, so she grabs her skin and as she was puting the needle in, I got even more nervous. Here she is, going Owww that hurt. Not sure if she was doing that to make me feel more nervous about doing it myself, yet it did.
I told the educator, that I dont think I can do this. lol. I literally wanted to go home and forget everything. She asked if i had anyone at home that could do it and I said No, just me. Also added that I think Dh would take way to much pleasure in it for my liking. She then proceeded to tell me that yes you can do it.
OMG, I honestly felt like I just couldnt do it. She also mentioned that it has to be done in the tummy, nowhere else. She had me grab my skin and push the needle in then let go and press the button. Even after everything that you lovelies told me today, I was still expecting it to hurt. Anyhow I thought the needle would have hurt more going in, so hooray it didnt hurt much at all. I also remembered about the breathing out when the needle goes in that was a helpful tip from a lovely BB member, so a great tip. Honestly I was glad it was all over. phew !!!! Now to work up the courage for next time - Dinner.
Ohh she also mentioned that we are likly to gain a heap of weight with insulin? Why thanks for that, just what i want to hear. So definately have to keep an eye on everything that I eat. its ok for bub, but she said that it is harder to lose the weight that you put on after bubs.
I hope I have the courage to do it again at dinner now.

Thanks everyone for being there for me, and for all the helpful advise. hugs