Hun I know how you feel, my DD self weaned at 9 months and I was shocked! She was such a booby girl I thought we would go well past 12 months, but one day she just refused to BF and has refused every day since. I have been expressing for her which she happily takes in a sippy cup, but my god what a pita! I only have a manual pump and now have blisters all over my fingers from expressing. It's so sad when you're not expecting it, isn't it? I had a few teary days before I admitted to myself that our BFing journey was over. It's like she doesn't need me anymore, whereas atleast before I was good for milk if nothing else lol! I guess we have two independant girls on our hands!