Nearly ready to go back???

[Bronze]

Ok,

Well DH and I have been on a break now from treatment for about 10 months after a horrible year last year (2 miscarriages, methotrexate drama, retained tissue, 5 surgeries etc etc)

We have 6 frozen embryos and are hoping to try again in a couple of months. This will be going into our 5th ivf cycle and it will be the start of our 6th year of TTC.

I am tearing up as i write this because I am so scared and sick of being in this situation. I had a dear cousin ring last night to tell me she was pregnant and I felt like throwing the phone out the window and screaming obscenities at her!

I have truly enjoyed having a break as I started to feel 'normal' again, I first of all had to go through adrenal fatigue which took about 4 months (due to excessive surgeries and stress) but I am starting to feel good again. I have lost nearly 9kg and have started exercising again.

I am wondering do I go back and try or wait a bit longer? I desperately want to be a mum, but am so scared of going through all that ivf stress again. I need to lose more weight but I am 33 at the end of the year and don't want to keep putting it off. Also I am feeling really healthy now so maybe I should, darn it I am soooo confused!

Has anyone had success after a big break from ivf?

What should i do?

Thanks for listening, Bronze

[*Sparklez*]

Bronze I have no idea what it's like to be in your shoes right now, but I couldn't read and not post..
I wanna give youth biggest possible and am crossing every inch of my body that you get that precious bundle you sooo dearly want and deserve.
GL in what ever you decide Hun xoxo


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[onthefly]

Hi Bronze.
First, I'm glad you've had a good break! It must be lovely to feel normal again
What a sticky situation. I don't know. I do understand the toing and froing that goes through your mind though
How does your partner feel about it all?

[RhiChiChi]

Hi Bronze,

Given what you have been through last year, I can totally understand your reluctancy/fears to start the IVF journey again.
Have you spoke to your FS about the medical side of things - like are you physically fine to proceed with IVF? If you are, then I guess for you & your DH it will be more about the emotional stuff. Counselling may be a good start or even just writing a list of your fears down can help you to process your thoughts. Even considering an alternative therapy like accupuncture to assist with your emotional well being... Best of luck

[Bronze]

Thanks for your responses.

My hubby is wonderful and very supportive but I know he really wants to be a Dad but he also hated seeing me go through all the drama last year.

I am still unsure, I think I will try again around late July-Aug and if no luck with the FET I will wait again and have another break in the middle.

Does anyone know of anyone who had success after a break from it all?

Thanks bronze