I have no idea what to do from now, I don't even know how I feel about trying again.

I know that we have been so so blessed to have 2 DD's previously whilst on fertility but my track record since then has scared me. I've had 3 mc's in 12 months, 1 went on for 2 months not sure what happened or how far I was - possibly ectopic, 1 was a little boy at 13 weeks from food poisoning , I was so excited I thought he would be our last planned for baby. On our last icsi cycle in May I had an ectopic and my left tube removed at 7 weeks with lots of internal bleeding). I also have some endo and DH count vary's greatly.

In the 12 months we were trying with AR we did 8 cycles (5 IUI's and 2 IVF stims and 1 IVF/ICSI stim cycle). Twice I had poor egg/sperm quality and we didn't even make it to fertilisation and/or transfer. Sometimes I think I could have another go and other times I don't think I can handle any more disappointment.

I am happy to look into other things like fostering and adopting, but my DH would really like us to have one more go, and although I don't want to I feel like its just as much his decision as it is mine. I know that we're still young enough that we could wait a few years but I was really hoping to be finished having babies while I was still able to be on maternity leave, I really want to stay home with my children while they are young, but really want to go back to work once they are school age aswell. I find it really hard to work and be on fertility treatment and I don't have easy pregnancies with morning sickness and need c-sections.

The worst part is I'm not even terribly clucky anymore but still feel sad (not jealous though) when my super fertile friends keep falling pregnant with their growing families.

Sorry about the rant, how do you know when to have another go? How do you know when its time to stop?