My husband and i are due to do a FET in a few weeks. This is pretty hard this time around, after a BFN. I will need to go onto injections again which, to be honest, I didn't think I would have to do. I've totally stuffed my vitamin routine, am smoking again and feel so **** about it all. I took it pretty hard after the first transfer didn't work. Slipped back into my old habits and am feeling tonnes of guilt for it. I have moved into a management role at work and, to be honest, this is my focus at the moment.
Am finding it so hard to concentrate on what I 'should' be doing right now.
My husband, I'm sure, thinks I've abandoned the idea but I haven't. It's as if I just want to carry on like this wasn't an issues so that when I am dissapointed again, I can just pick up where I left off.
How do I get my mind focussed again? Just thinking about it brings back so many awful memories of that time and I just can't bear to go there right now ;-( any words of wisdom?