HI all.. most of the girls on here know I have been round for a while.. although had nearly 12 months off from TTC after 3 major operations performed by the wonderful Dr Michael Cooper, to rid my endo. Unfortunatley I went undiagnosed for a long time, and even underwent an IVF cycle which failed dismally... I should be happy you say now that we are starting again??? Really I am very anxious, scared and worried.... I a sort of know why... I guess it is because of what I have already been through and I just don't want to have to deal with it all again... the charting, temping, POAS fixation, as well as OPK's, timed BDing.......... oh you know the list goes on...... and the fear of having to go through the IVF program again.. I don't cope well with stress...

My surgeon who also is a fertility specialist as well as endo surgeon, has said that I have increased my rate of spontaneous conception hugely by bravely having all the endo removed... which also meant having a 20cm bowel resection and 6 cms removed from the dome wall of my bladder....all of this has now stopped my horrendous pain, where I don't even know my period is existing and I can now function during that time of the month....

I probably wouldn't be really to stressed but i have recently lost 15 kgs and by no means has this put me in the under weight catergory, but since the weight loss my periods have gone from 28-30 days to 6 weeks???? and I don't think I am Oing, although I am getting mid cycle pain??? but no CM which I always used to get....???

I am starting to get stressed and I know I shouldn't .. I am flying down to Sydney next week to see Dr Cooper and will discuss this all with him.... but I am still worried.. what if they messed the operation up and damaged my bits and now i don't ovulate... hopefully my mind is just creating havoc for myself and this is just a ridiculous thought...

Love Leis xx