Ladies the support in this thread is truly amazing, it has brought me to tears. The strength that each of us poses is unbelievable.
Bec i couldn't agree with you more about what you have said about your DH, mine is my rock and without him i do not know where i would be, although recent events have pushed him to question. he also told me tonight that he has had enough, enough that ALL our conversations are about the same thing, i felt terrible however explained that the physical pain i feel every day is a consent reminder.
I am glad that you have some questions lined up fro your clinic and good that you have been able to email them so that they can too prepare so that you can get the correct or up to date information from them.
I feel like all Dr, FS are avoiding me at the moment and have to wait still for next Tuesday, this is driving me insane.
Holly again so glad that you are cycling again.
WLAB i hope that you are feeling better and that your temp is under control. praying that ap will assist you with egg production and long awaited BFP.
M2C - not long now for you
Julie, thank you for keeping me in your thoughts, its a long road but you are right we find the strength and continue or at least come out the other end.
i am thinking of you all and hoping that this thread brings some good news soon, sorry for those that i have misses in this post
Oh Bec - it really is the hardest thing but I'm glad you are feeling better. Sometimes I don't know how any of us manage to continue on with life as if everything is OK when inside our hopes and dreams are crumbling.
I find work really hard some days and a great distraction on other days. Even when it is distracting me though, I am not as interested in work as I used to be.
A big thank you to everyone though, without your posts I think I would have been a pathetic mess long before now.
Popping to in write I hope everyone had a restful weekend, you know I am thinking of you all.
Lou, gl for Tuesday hun, I hope these FS's come to some sort of agreement
Bec, hope your symptoms are settling down, and you can rest your body, I am sure you will find the strength to continue
Holly, Good luck for Stims this week
Hi to M2Chloe, Julie, MsPink, Briget, Dusty and all you loverlies I might have missed
AFM; the only one cycling atm, I am injecting away, I completly forgot my syneral last night, Im not going to stress about it, I am sure they allow for this is the dosage at some stage, someone will miss one dose one day. Scan and E2 this coming Friday, then this time next week I will be preparing for EPU, all being well.
Did anyone see this weeks new idea, Simone Buchanan preg at 41 with first attemp at ivf at monash, one blast transfered. Ohhhh to be so lucky .....
I am so sorry I haven't been in for a while. I'm am crushed to come in and find so much horrible, cruel, heartbreaking news. I'm crying so much right now, none of us deserve this......
BecD - I am so very sorry. I have no words that will help but my heart is crying for you. Sending you much love and hoping you can find the strength (and resources) to keep going.
Loula, I completely understand your negativity, don't apologise for it. you have been through more than many could stand and you're still here, fighting and trying. You will be rewarded one day and I'm hoping that is very soon. Thinking of you and hoping you get some answers that lead to appropriate treatment and success.
Hollybolly - best of luck for your current cycle. i hope the cycle goes as smoothly and painlessly as possible.
WLB - I'm excited for you! Happy stabbing! Wishing you all the best for a BFP this time. Your turn now ok - and that is an order! I can't stand those mags, so sick of hearing about these "celebs" doing IVF once and falling pregnant - no worries. Makes the rest of the world think IVF is a process that always works Also hate hearing them go on about how difficult it was. I'm sure it's not the celebs fault - probably more the journo's and what they include but they are not helping us 'infertiles' by giving a warped view of what IVF is like.
Hello to M2C, Dutchie, bluiej, dusty and bridget. Hope you are all doing ok. you ladies have given amazing support to others that last few weeks, you are all very very special. Hello to everyone else, hope you are doing ok.
Nothing from me still, been having a hard time lately (aren't we all), last week it was a year since I found out I was pregnant for the first time ever, I don't know where this year went??, it has been very hard to deal with being even further away from a BFP than ever - one year on, no baby, no pregnancy. I feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare. Will be trying again soon though, just building strength and trying to move forward emotionally a bit first.
hi me again, just wanted to come in an add that I just called and made an appointment with my FS to discuss Round 2 and what we are going to do this time. I have no idea where will will be going from here. Appointment is tomorrow, I'm interested to hear what he suggests. Will let you know what he says and when we 'might' be jumping back on the rollercoaster. I hate rollercoasters
Hi all your lovely women, I am sorry that I haven't been around much lately and probably will be in the next couple of months as well, but you are never far from my thoughts.
I am just devasted to read the sad news about Bec and Loula, I am so so sorry. I have no words just the biggest hug as I know both of you have been through so much in this journey.
Bec, take some time out to heal and you don't have to make any decisions yet at this moment, see how the appts go and I hope the decision will just come naturally once you get all the information you need.
Loula, I am glad after all that, you are seeing this new discovery as a new begining rather than an end. Sometimes you can't look back as it frustrates you (how come they only find this out now, I am exactly the same like you) but to look forward, later rather than never. Now, we just need to find the way to fix it. Like Julie said, we all, one day sooner or later, will come out from the other end, with our dream fulfilled.
Holly, so glad you are starting another cycle soon, go hunny!
WLAB, good luck with this cycle hun and happy jabbing, hopefully time will go fly by...
Hello to M2C, Dutchie, bluiej, dusty, infinity and bridget.
Not much on 'me' front, just busy with life really and the next cycle is on horizon but at the moment I am going to live this TTC dream through all of you...
Bec & Loula, you've been in my thoughts and I'm hoping that you are both ok. This can be such a heartbreaking journey and sometimes its so hard to find the strength to move forward. My prayers and love are with you both xxxxxxx
Lou - Good luck for tomorrow hun, they'll do this damn D&C...
Infinity - Good luck with your appointment tomorrow as well
Big for everyone else & sending some smiles to everyone as we all seem to need them
AFM - AF started today & we picked up our meds, so starting puregon tomorrow night.
Apprehensive as always - 6 stim cycles will do that to you I guess - but doing my best to remain optimistic
I wont bore everyone too much in here with details - my journal is best for all of my babble
Hi girls,
Just thought I'd pop in quickly and do a couple of persies.
Bec and Loula- Thinking of you both. I hope both of you have been feeling a little brighter.
infinity- Very BOL for your appt today, hope it goes very well.
Holly- Very BOL for this cycle, we're all here with you the whole way cheering you on.
WLAB- Happy jabbing, wishing you the very BOL also with this cycle. Didn't manage to see the story in New Idea about S Buchanan- not really a mag I read a lot but good on her anyway!
anyos- How are you travelling hun?
M2C- How did your scan go last Thursday hunni, have been thinking of you. You must be getting close. Are you still starting the pill this Thursday? I'll be cheering you on all the way also.
A big to CPie, buliej, Bridget, Dusty and anyone I may have missed, hope you are all well.
Not much on the me front either, just waiting to start again. Until then, I'll be here for all of you that are cycling the whole way.
D&C booked for Friday, sca was seen again today, not much growth and still empty.
Thanks for your support
Just to add HCG just came in @ 5074! Nurse said def requires a D&C! hello was telling them this two weeks ago, been here before! I know how this is all going to end too and i cant see it being good, i dont think we will ever get our baby this way
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Loula, hang in there, I'm relieved that you finally get your D&C. will be thinking of you on Friday, again I'm so sorry you have to go through this.
Hollybolly - i understand your aprehensiveness. Hoping you can remain optimistic, I will be optimistic for you! Best of luck with this cycle.
cuddlepie - i hope you are going along ok. Glad life is busy, just hope it's busy with the good things! Best of luck with this upcoming cycle and fingers crossed that the immunity supressive therapy does the job for you. Keep us posted.
Hi anyos, hope you are travelling along ok.
Dutchie - when do you start again? thanks for your neverending support xx
Hugs to everyone else.
AFM - appointment went well yesterday. FS is very positive that we can all make a baby together - which is nice. The plan is something new. My FS calls it a "mini-stim" cycle which is apparently having a lot of success in Europe. The theory is when you get a lot of eggs that quality is compromised. My first cycle was 18 eggs, 10 mature enough for ICSI, 9 fertilised and 7 transferred all up - result - a miscarriage from the fresh transfer and zip for all the other 6. So we are going for a lot less eggs that are hopefully better quality. I will have no pill and no syneral (hooray), we start scanning from about CD8 - my folicles will start to develop themselves and when they get to a 'medium' size i will start FSH injections - to give a little boost - for a few days, more scans, then one injection to stop ovulation (does same as syneral but in one injection). then a trigger, EPU and transfer (if we get that far) as per usual. All up it's just under two weeks long. We are aiming for less than 10 mature eggs. I feel really good about this, the cycle itself will be much 'easier' on me with less drugs and a shorter time frame. We'll also later decide when the time comes whether to do 2/3 day transfer or grow to blast.
Anyone heard of this protocol or have done this? Does it sound like something that already happens everywhere, i've maybe just never heard of it?
I am due for AF in under two weeks and we will start then. Apprehensive as you just never know how something new will work for you but excited to be doing something different. i had prepared myself for quite a wait and another long stim cycle so am happy that we can get into things a bit faster.
Infinity, glad the new plan is under way and you sound so positive! I haven't heard of this protocal but sounds like a mini antagonist cycle but also maxmizing your own natural hormones with less drug, given your age (which is spring chicken ) I think it makes lot of sense especially when you are trying to get good number of eggs without comprised quality. I am so excited for you! Will be here for you hun all the way!
infinity- Really glad to hear that you have a plan forward and your FS sounds really positive which would be very encouraging. I've heard of mini stim cycles before but I have never heard of a 'mini' antagonist like you're doing and just one jab to stop O sounds really good, I've never heard of that before either. I'll be doing an antagonist too very soon (AF due approx 6th Sept) but I'll have max dose of stims so a little different to you.
I'll be following you in your cycle the whole way and look forward to hearing some great news from you very soon.
Loula- I'll be thinking of you Fri.
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this is my 1st post in this thread. I'm long over due to be in here (2.5 yrs TTC - assisted). Anyway you are all very supportive in here and I think that is what i need right now. Basically I'm not coping very well with it all at the moment. I'm getting very depressed (i suffer from sever depression). My FS said our 1st attempt at IVF would work - guess what? it didnt. I dont see him for another 2 weeks. This is such a long process when it is hard to get in to see my FS.
I've got a meeting with my boss on Mon to see if i can work 4 days a week next year - hoping this will take some stress off myself.
I feel so down, i dont think it will ever happen.
A friend just call to tell me she is pregnant. So many people I know who are pregnant - it is really doing my head in.
Hi toby, vent away hun, that's what we're here for!
I'm sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment, IVF is sooo full on it's hard sometimes not to get down about it and having everyone around you being pregnant can make a hard time even harder.
It's important to take time to nuture yourself during this process and continue to do things that do bring you joy, I find that helps a great deal. I think it's great you are looking to reduce your work hrs too, I have heard that it can help.
I have clinical depression too and for me anti depressants are a real god send however, they're not for everyone but it may be worth discussing with your doctor about whether they are a good option for you. I also find talking to a counsellor/therapist is a great way of coping with it all aswell, it really helps to just 'unload' everything and helps me to keep things in perspective especially when I'm in a really dark place.
I find it interesting that your FS said to you that it would work first time. The truth is that most are unsuccessful the first time (though a lucky few are) but it usually takes a few cycles to get pregnant especially as your first cycle is pretty much trial and error as they assess what works and doesn't work for YOU and adjust things accordingly in your next cycle/s.
I want to wish you the very best of luck for your next FS appt and for your next cycle, we will all be here to support and encourage you the whole way.
Loula - Writing to send you my best wishes for today, I am thinking of you and will hopefully speak to you later to see how you are xx
Toby - welcome to our thread, Im sorry you are feeling down, and completly understand the frustrations of waiting and waiting and waiting
Hi to all my friends, sounds like everyone is gearing up for cycles and waiting for af's and appointments
AFM ; Scan and E2 BT this am, 27 follies on the right with 15 over 11, and 15 on the left with 9 over 11, this explains my incredible full bloated tummy doesnt it ? I cried my heart out all the way to the scan. feeling so exhausted and tired of appointments and waiting rooms. I felt better after that. Luckily I had a great u/s person, who was very experienced, and I only had minimal discomfort,
Update E is 4252 - and it seems most folls are at the same size - fs is happy for pick up next week, I am praying for a miracle, how many cycle's can a koala bear
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Also hate hearing them go on about how difficult it was. I'm sure it's not the celebs fault - probably more the journo's and what they include but they are not helping us 'infertiles' by giving a warped view of what IVF is like.
), last week it was a year since I found out I was pregnant for the first time ever, I don't know where this year went??, it has been very hard to deal with being even further away from a BFP than ever - one year on, no baby, no pregnancy. I feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare. Will be trying again soon though, just building strength and trying to move forward emotionally a bit first.
as I know both of you have been through so much in this journey. 
they'll do this damn D&C...
- but doing my best to remain optimistic 
to CPie, buliej, Bridget, Dusty and anyone I may have missed, hope you are all well.
i am having bb withdrawls lol
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