Oh Loula sweetie - I think we are about even...and man is it hard. Everytime I 'do it again' I say the same thing. I really feel for you.
I just can't give up yet, I almost wish I could. I don't have much time left and this is now out of my control..but while FS will let me..I'll keep going..
You need to do what you feel is right for you..
If you ever want to vent or need to spill..am here for you anytime..or via PM..
Hang in there L..

