Long Term Assisted Conception Nov 2007 #2

thank you everyone - i kept thinking to myself i think this result is easier to deal with sometimes as ive delt with it many times- yes im upset but nothing like i have been over the last 5 years with IVF. i guess maybe the thought of seeing my mum is a few weeks helps. just waiting for af now and since i havent had on since Aug i have no idea how im going to be feeling when i get it. im hoping she visits now befor the flight!!

Glad o hear that BW is getting closer to coming home and that she has two perfect blasties on ice - when i ohss last my ovaries measured 12cm each so i know the pain that she is feeling.

BG congreats for getting into the TWW i will be watching with all my best sticky vibes at the ready lo9l

Shannon - thank you again for your words hun - im sorry that the provera hasnt worked for you but at least you are still able to move forward with the FSH GL

Ann - not long for you now - so nice to see you popping more.

Sushee - i guess when you fall off you just dust yourself off and get back on hey? Have you got a BFP hiding in one of thoes pressies in your AV? lol i wish is was that easy - 'here love i bought you a PG for Christmas' !Great news on your forsties by the way - what a lovely surprise.

Slyder - thanks

Hollie thanks for the messages - looks like we will be seeing each other in Feb!!looking forward to that too

Lou - Just wanted to send some love & hugs your way - Didn't make the phone last night - But am going to try you today before FIL & BIL get here for a visit.

Shannon - Sorry to hear about the provera, thats just crappy - Its such revolting stuff, you can almost put up with it if its serving a purpose, but when it doesn't, thats just nasty :(
Hoping you get some better results with the FSH xxx

Ann - Whats happening with all of your 6's??!!!! ;)

Me - Well, the anti inflammatry's that the Dr has put me on are working - That with my fake tan (:rolleyes:) is making my legs look almost normal again! He! He!
Am feeling better, too so thats great!
Have a bit of an exciting day today - DH's younger brother (15yrs) is coming for a visit - He lives about 3hrs away in a country town - He got a call from the CC Mariners (soccer!) - and they want to give him a trial - How exciting for him!!!
So, am taking him off to that this afternoon - Its absolutely pouring rain, so hopefully it will ease a little.
(All very non TTC, but anyhoo!!!)

Big Hi to everyone else I've missed this morning xxx

and a bit more BW news...

just got an SMS from BW - she has another 5 embies on ice! so 7 in total. she's a lot happier now than she was for sure! doesn't look like she'll be allowed home today though...

Only 5 more sleeps for me!(FET 6/12)
Hopefully we'll have something to transfer.
It's funny though in all the other cycles I have been excited and looking forward to the transfer. This time I suppose with all the other disappointments we have had, I'm not excited at all (a bit annoyed that I have to take 2 days off work).
Any way I suppose you dont get anywhere by sitting on your bum!

Luv Ann

some more from BW...

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i get about six hours off ther drip today. Hopefully off it completely tomorrow. I'm guesswing out some time on Tuesday. Have had quite a bit more pain last night and this morning. When you consider the weight loss, it's probably my poor ovaries heading back to the right place.

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i feel so much calmer about the whole process now - i have every confidence that our bub is in the freezer right now... Pain has settled and i've been for a little wander. will as the doctor to let me out next time i see her, but i think she wants me off the drip for a whole day before she lets me out... And the thougts on pain can be entirely different dependion on the when the last dose of pain meds was!

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She has another blood test tomorrow morning, and says she has a rather interesting set of bruises from the injections... i'm keeping my fingers crossed that she is home soon - i'm sure it's been a very long and uncomfortable week for her since her EPU last Sunday...

for me - well, i'm pretty cruisey at the moment - was really uncomfy up to and including ET day, but started the crinone that night - i'm not sure if it's the crinone, the reduced stress, or the added rest - but i'm feeling pretty ok - a little blah in the tummy, but i was kinda expecting that - the trigger shot does it to me every time! but pain wise - well, nothing substancial - a few little ovarian twinges but nothing too stressful. my fears of developing OHSS have pretty much gone over the weekend, which is great - i know if "Emmett" sticks, there is still a chance of it developing, but for right now, all is good

My DH starts a new job tomorrow - he will be working "away" permanently - 10 days on 4 off - but totally negotiable. His boss is an old friend who has been asking him to work for him for the past year, and the "ball is in our court" to dictate what he will and won't do. Boss has friends who've been through IVF, so is really understanding about what it entails - and DH is now more than doubling his income (well, he earns more in a week than we both were in a fortnight) - so there will be a lot less financial strain on us - YAY!!!

Hi Guys

BG - Glad to hear you are feeling a lot better and more positive this week, just kick back and relax as miuch as is possible during the TWW, what date is your BT? Oh also congrats on Dh for the fabulous new job!

BW - Glad to hear your feeling better and 7 embys on ice is fantastic! Rest up and hope your feeling better really soon!

Ann - How exciting only a few days left b4 FET! sending lots of sticky vibes your way :)

Holly- Those leg and their lumps! Thank goodness for fake tan :) Hope DH's brother did well!! Are you still taking Anonias tonics? Maybe a honeymoon baby?

Lou - How are you holding up hun? Holiday home sounds fantastic, will be great and hopefully very relaxing :)

Hi TL - Is this your last week?


Well 2 lots of FSH down, and am actually starting to feel fabulous! The dr said considering how low all my hormone levels were she wasn't surprised how negative, tired and blah ive been feeling. And with the FSH kicking in im feeling a lot better today! Yay i hate PCOS!!

Starting to get some twinges in my ovaries and some CM already so hopefully we will have more than 3 eggs this time. Last time we had very little symptoms of ovulation so i knew it wasn't working so great. Oh well just glad im feeling more me again! And DH is grateful too :)

Have a great weekend ladies.

BG - good news all around

sounds great Shannon! won't be long now before it's al systems go for you!

well, i'm thinking i'm not feeling as great as i thought a while back - the heat here is driving me insane!! normally, i have a fan going on a hot day, and just keep it dark to keep the rooms cooler - and i don't worry too much about the heat. today i had to ditch the clothes i was wearing just to put summer jim jams on, and have had a couple of "so hot and dizzy i've almost passed out" moments. DH has been a gem - when i got bad earlier, i was forced into 20 minutes of bed rest - with a cool cloth to help chill me out a little! i think i may have overdone things last night - late night out for my brother's birthday - but i hung out inside with the "quiet" lot, so i thought i was doing ok - did start to get a bit of a headache so came home by 11 - then spent the next two hours so angry at DH for being drunk and snoring so i couldn't sleep - and breathing alcohol fumes on me - so i had a hissy and went to sleep in the other room! these bloody hormones are fantabulous aren't they??

today has been a fairly lazy day - sms'ing BW now that she has a phone charger so she can stay in touch with the world - and supervising DH trying to put the christmas tree together - he's not BAD, he's just not used to doing stuff like that! he had fun helping put the santa train together to go round the tree though - he sat in the middle of it playing like a 10 year old! if you knew what my hubby looked like (over six foot, broad, heavy set - and with a very big thick red beard - almost scary looking for most when they first meet him) - you'd know why it was so very amusing for me to see him like that!

oh well - he's gone to do some shopping, so i might wander over and "tweak" the tree a bit before he comes back...

LOL BG I had one of those hissy fits the other night! Making DH & I sleep in the spare bed after seeing some dirt on the sheets i went a little insane made us both go have showers and the sleep in the spare room. DH just shook his head at me :) I agree HORMONES!!

Oh and Rest and look after yourself!!!

Lol Shannon that sounds like me for the past few weeks :) This is my last week and I think DH will be glad when I am sane again in the new role

have had a couple of messages from BW - she didn't get a great nights sleep last night, so is very tired. AF arrived today, so she's received a bit of relief just from that - last time she had OHSS, it was a turning point for her - so looking the same this time! she is off the drip at the moment, and all going well, it will be completely removed around lunch time and she'll be home tomorrow. she is drinking like a fish to make sure she stays hydrated so that they'll let her out in the morning!

Good Morning

Just saying Hi!

BW - Hope you get to go home today!!!

BG- How are you holding up in the TWW?

Ann - 2 sleeps left hun! Thinking of you!

Big Hi to Holly, Mel, Lou !

Not much happening here, 4 injections down and we see the FS on Friday for our scan. Starting to feel a little uncomfy in the ovaries which is hopefully a good sign something is happening!

Have a great day!

Shan

Shannon great news

Wow, I can't believe all the news in here! I have been offline for over a week as we moved house and finally have the internet back on as of today! I can tell you, it's been a long 10 or so days without it! lol
Lou, I am so sorry about your BFN. Please get in touch if you want to chat. We really should get together at some stage since we aren't that far away from each other. Maybe it can be a new year resolution!! ;) How exciting your trip is so close now. I hope you have a wonderful time with your family.
BG, completely pretzeled over here for your BFP. Good to hear that you have some frosties there for down the track. Will be anxiously waiting your good news. :)
BW, what a time you have had! Before going offline, I knew that you were concerned about your e2 levels and now I come back to find you have been in hospital!! It's good to hear that you're home now and recovering. 7 blasties is a great result too.
Ann, not long to go now... good luck for transfer this week! :)
No news from me really. Have been so flat out at work and moving house that I haven't had time to think about anything else. I feel like I will be ready to go through with a FET cycle in Jan or early Feb. The break has definitely done me the world of good and I will be better prepared to deal with whatever the cycle throws at me.

yay on the big move Megan! welcome back!

Big hi to everyone :D

Not much news here - On day 23 of my cycle and having terrible AF cramps and wind pain... really don't ever get cramping with AF anymore, so who knows what my body is doing???!!!
Day 23 is a little early for me, too, but who knows... we will wait and see!
The lumps are doing ok, but had to see the Dr in regards to my feet and knees swelling... my left hand knee is full of fluid its a little bit hard to walk properly :rolleyes:
Dr tells me its yet another symptom of the condition... Its just fantastic :rolleyes:
Tried to try on shoes for the wedding on Mon, but my feet were a little too swollen to get into the shoe properly :(
Praying for something to happen soon, as I'm trying not to think about the fact that my feet may not fit into any shoes for my wedding day... aaahhhh!!!
Dr said he can up the dose of anti inflammatries if needs be - So I'll be medicated on my wedding day.. he! he! :lol:

Oh well!

Hope everyone is wonderful - BG, how long until BT?

Lots of Love xxx

sorry to hear you're still having issues with those lumps and things Holly - you can't seem to catch a break!

you may need to get two pair of shoes for the wedding - one for ideal conditions, one if you're feet are swollen... i had spares in the car "just in case"

still a while to go before my BT - feeling the effects of the crinone - had a big cry earlier about stuff that probably wasn't tear-worthy, but i'm home alone, feeling flat - so too bad! have a headache now from it, but i needed to get it out!

:hugs: BG... we make a bloody good pair today! :crying:

BW

Hi Guys

Megan Welcome Back Hun, sounds like the move went well :)

Hi Holly - i like BG's back up shoe plan, if not just wear thongs if the dress is long you probably wont even see :)

BW - How are you feeling has AF helped?

BG - Crinone is definately a witch! Sorry your feeling alone.. as a second rate compromise compared to DH you have us :) :hug:

Oh and Good luck tomorrow Ann!! Thinking of you!!

Well 6th injection tonight, quite sore ovaries and pretty tired we see FS Friday afternoon so just taking it one day at a time until then.

Shan

AF arriving does make a huge difference. I'm now back to my normal weight (not size, though!), no longer in pain... I hardly ever need to take pain killers now. Still feeling bloated, I guess my ovaries are taking a bit of time to shrink - I still had some pain from OHSS when I ovulated three weeks into the break cycle first time, so I'm certainly not expecting over night recovery! Mostly just very, very tired and wobbly still. I'm having to watch fluid intake very carefully, and really can't do much... very, very sick of being sick and feel bad having to watch DH do all the housework while trying to work longer hours to make up for me being on half pay for such a long time! But each day is just a little bit better than the one before...

BW

glad to hear things are improving for you BW, even if recovery is much slower than you'd like it to be!

thinking of you hun

Well transfer for me today.

The bosses wife at work had her baby last Sunday night, so I have ben surounded by flowers, baby pictures, the grandparents dropping by each and every day with the latest updates on the baby. Hmmmmm!(nobody, except you girls here know that we are currently undergoing ivf, had to tell a small furfy to get the day off work)
Well 12.00 oclock transfer, even if one little embie makes it it will be another 6. Silly I know, but seeing as this is our last attempt I have to cling to something. This is totally different to all the other cycles. I am just not excited or feeling positive at all.

Luv to all An:pray:

Ann :hug: it is normal sweet

BW - Glad to hear things are starting to return to normal for you

have everything crossed for you ann. i know how hard it can be o stay positive - and i haven't been at this anywhere near as long as you, so can only assume it gets a lot worse!

all those sixes just HAVE to mean something!

Good Luck today Ann! I agree with BG the 6's have to mean something :)

afternoon all! hope you're all having a great Thursday! i'm officially exhausted - just been out for what was supposed to be "a little bit of quiet shopping" with my SIL and niece - but when i got to their house, bro had decided to come too - and it turned into a much bigger day than i'd expected - but great fun anyway! we bought some more chrissy deco's, some presents for their kids, few groceries - then over to lunch in the park while my niece tried to feed some very unenthusiastic ducks (who ever heard of ducks that didn't want to eat bread when it's given to them!!)

finally got my cycle summary sheet from the clinic this morning - the nurse had told us right at the start that only four had fertilised properly and that a fifth looked like it would be discarded that day - obviously it wasn't cos we have Emmett on board - and four in the freezer! woo hoo!!!

Well I have two little embies onboard!
Get this, transfer happened at exactly 12.06pm.(hubby was watching the clock), so another 6 in there. The scientist told us that she felt very uncomfortable about thawing all 8 embies, but only two looked good anyway, as she said it was the best thing we could have done. On the down side of things, progestrone levels went from 49.7 on Tuesday down to 29.1 today, so pessaries 3 x times a day, what fun.
I hope all is well with you all

Luv as always Ann :pray:
Please stick little ones

BG - Hope Emmett is Snuggling in well!

Ann - :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:: stickyvibesgirl:

Oh Ann im sorry i missed youe TF day - sending you all my very best thoughts and prayer. very interesting to hear about your P4 - they never test mine on the day unless im doing a natural cycle - which is never the case for us

xx

Good Morning

Yay Ann on the two on board!! Snuggle in tight little ones!! :stickyvibesboy: :stickyvibesgirl:

BG - Hope your feeling good hun and Emmett is snuggling in :stickyvibesgirl:

BW - Stay positive i know its hard but every day you are one day closer to feeling great again! :hugs:

HI pitapata love the new name!!! When do you head off to London?

Well we see FS this afternoon... 80% think they are going to can this cycle, there just isn't enough CM :)
Saw the Acupuncturist/Chines Medecine guy last night and he thinks the FS shouldn't have let me go straight to FSH when my body hadn't recoved yet from the last cycle 2 1/2 months ago, But oh well too late now and at least i know ive tried :) DH wants to go on holidays to the US next May so wants to take a break from TTC until we get back...... 6 months is a long time :( So im hoping we dont cancel and i get this last go before we have to have the holiday vs IVF discussion. Oh well sorry for blabbering i guess i care more about this scan and potentially cancelling this cycle than i thought i did.

Have a great day ladies :)

Excuse me for having a random vent this morning... I've just debriefed the entire last week or so in hospital in my journal, and it's helped a little, but not enough!

I'm just completely not coping with the idea of Christmas this year. There's also the realisation that our referral to our FS expires on the 14th... and I feel like I've got precisely nowhere! Sure, I've got 7 blasties in the freezer, but I'm not pg, not looking at having a transfer any time soon... And knowing that Christmas is coming, I have no good news, I'll hopefully have a transfer in mid-January before I return to work, but I won't be passed where I was with Caterpillar when we get to Caterpillar's EDD (20th of Feb), and I'm just completely not coping with any of it!

And the mere sight of a babydust/sticky vibes/BFP emote is likely to inspire homicidal tendencies in me today! GRRRRAAAAH!!!!!!

I think I'm at least passing through weepy and getting around to angry... I guess that's progress?

BW

BW,
You have every reason to be feeling this way. Nothing ever seems easy does it.
Big hugs Darl.
Please excuse my signature
Ann

Nothing at all wrong with your signature, Ann. I feel so much better for having a vent! I do hope those two embies snuggle in nice and tight.

My psychologist would want to shoot me if she were here - she's taught me to accept what I'm feeling, rather than fighting it, and in accepting, I find that it passes so much quicker... I've just been ignoring that little piece of advice for the last three weeks or so, but I'm back on track now.

BW

glad to hear you're back on track BW - sometimes ignoring or denying what is going on is the only coping mechanism we can apply - just a shame is comes back to bite us so badly later!

Hi Ladies

One day down Ann!! :stickyvibesboy:

BW - Glad your feeling better after the vent, its completely normal and we all feel like that at times :hugs:

Just a quick one after stressing all day and biting everyones head off at work we saw the FS this afternoon and my body has finally woken up from its menopausal state (FS words arghhh) and has made me at least 12 good sized follicles. After a horrible stim cycle last time feeling good. She is a little concerned about OHSS, after getting it with 11 follicles first cycle so bloods and a scan on Monday 610am arghhh... but at least one step closer!

Shan

yay shannon!!!! sounding good hunny!!!

fingers crossed for monday's (very early) appointment!

Oooooh! Now you've done it, Shannon! :protest::protest::protest: You used one of those horrible sticky vibes emoties! Gah!!! :p Fortunately, I'm slightly less homicidal than earlier. Great results, there, and I do hope very much that you manage to avoid OHSS this time!

BW

lol i know BW but i only just figured out how to do it yesterday lol! So now i can do more than :)

Hi all

Shan - great result id say start drinking NOW just to be on the safe side, have they checked youe E2 levels already??

Not long til we are off - im getting very nervous!!!still so much to do but i cant get my head round it all and im stil so so tired, i had a very bad AF and hemorrhaged for three days, i was told by my FS that if it didnt look like it was going to slow then i should go to the hossy, i felt fine up til the last day, nearly passed out at a in service for work, had one of the girls help me to the loo, just in time!

still spotting today but at least i wont have to put up with it on the plane or while in London!!Yay

Ann - hope you are all doing well, when is your Bt?

Megan so good that you are getting things together again after the move

Ellie - hope you are setteling in Ok too?

BW - good to hear that you are back on track

BG - woooohoooo not much longer now - it must be one week down for you?

Hoping everyone is doing ok, and sorry for the lack of personals

Awww Lou hun sorry AF was so bad this month! But as you said at least you know she will leave you alone for your flight :)

Never had my E2 levels tested b4 at all, last time they just told me at pick up i had a case of OHSS, but it wasn't that bad painful but still bearable to go to work etc. But yep ive been drinking my 2 - 3 litres of water for a day for months now but am quite nervous about Mondays results and my ovaries are very painful today and my stomach is quite swollen oh well :) Just wait and see