AF late ... want to know but dont want to know ...

[deni]

Hi all,

It's been a long time since I"ve posted on bellybelly, as after about 7 stim IVF cycles over two years we took our doctor's advice and decided the chances were too slim to continue (my AMH is <1 and FSH is 13-15).

So I've focussed on our little boy (our IVF miracle who is now 3), and although I feel sad for him that he wont' have a sibling, I am so enormously grateful that we were lucky enough to have him.

However... for a 27-28 day cycle person, AF is now a week and a half late. Now, my brain is doing some crazy talk.. I have no idea when I O'd, we maybe BD'd only once or twice last month as it's so incredibly hot in this house (not in a good way) , and I don't even know if the timing was "right". And I took a HPT last tuesday when i was about 1 or 2 days late and it was negative. That week I got some cramping, but nothing else.

So here I am... a week and a half late.. .and too scared to take another HPT for fear of seeing yet another negative. But I also want to know ! Part of me is also wrestling with the thought that this could even be the start of early menopause (my mum's AF stopped at 42 yrs, I'm 39.5yrs).

So I've made a GP appointment for 5pm today.. they'll prob make me do a HPT and write a request for a blood test. So although I'll have the HPT answer I'll still have to wait for my hormone levels... I could have already have had all those tests done this morning (and know the answer by now) if I chose to return to my fertility clinic, but I feel conflicted about going back there, when I'd already made the decision to move on (not through choice but after much emotional wrestling). I certainly don't miss that period of the day 2-4pm waiting for that phone call with the results. That used to be the worst part of IVF for me.

Anyway, this is just a vent. If any of my old fertility buddies are out there, please send positive vibes, and I hope all is well with everybody.

[Maruschke]

Ugh, I would be sooo wanting to know, but dreading that familiar bfn feeling. I hope it is good news for you .

[Joeve]

Deni I remember you from waaaay back when! I am sending you lots of sticky vibes hope there is a surprise for you x

[deni]

Thanks for the well wishes girls ... HPT at GP's today unfortunately was negative.. now I'm wishing i just did it myself and save myself the GP fee and the agonizing wait (with the gp as an audience)! But more disappointed about the result than money of course. GP has written me up a BT request but i might just wait another week, i'm not holding out any hope for BFP really. Must just be a weird month for me cycle-wise. Not helped by lots nights of insomnia too!

Joeve, yes I do remember you well, I hope you're doing OK, I see you've from your sig you've had some tough times Sticky vibes to you too

[Maruschke]

Sorry Deni *hugs*