Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception #4 - April 07

Today the house is peaceful and quiet as DH is rostered on to work today. He'll be home around 2... I'm supposed to be writing reports, but I can't wake up enough to get started. My chart seems to be saying that I've ovulated... but I'm not sure that I can believe it yet! I think I've run out of time to get a blood test done through my GP, I'll have to wait and see... perhaps I'll call the clinic on Monday, as I'd have to have the blood test on Tuesday. I'm starting to feel frustrated that there was no transfer this cycle (why is a break necessary between a stim cycle and a FET cycle anyway?), I'm also starting to think that I would have been happier going with the other type of cycle - progynova and progesterone - I'm not entirely sure I trust my body to do all of this properly!

*sigh* Just can't find the positivity today.

Welcome to Lynny and Michelle. I hope your stays with us are short.

BW

BW - i'm sure if you'd taken the other protocol, you'd be worried that your body would respond better on the Letrazole - your body is just like mine - defies scientific explanation! have faith in yourself and your FS - especially considering it looks like FF is telling you that you o'd...

Lou - i love my jim jams too! DH thinks i have a fetish for them! i think he's just cranky cos i like my cuddly flanny jim jams - and their kinda shapeless - but so very very comfy! i knocked off at 4 yesterday, and did hardly anything before i got home - straight into my jim jams and it was bliss! and yes - birthday is soon :(

Hi Girls
Just got home from the BT! 45 mins until I can ring for results...our embryologist came in specially and kissed the little tube of blood...she was really happy to see how horrible I look and how sick I'm feeling...so...we wait. DH has been so lovely..came with me and then took me out for brunch...not that I'm eating much! Anyways..will fill in the time viewing bellybelly posts and watching the time count down on the screen!

Bring ON 45 MINS ELLIE!!! will be back at 1pm (PST) to hear the happy news of a :bfp: :goodluck: :pray:

BW Its so hard to get started with those damn reports.
BG Hope you are having a lovely PJ day today too. I did for a while but then got changed.
Ellie I hope the wait goes quickly for you and :crossfingers: everything is just perfect.

Ive written in my journal in detail about yesterdays appointment. Short version- no more meds for me and we need to think about what we (I) want to do as he still thinks im not ready and hesistant at this stage. As I said to the FS, i think I always will be, we could be coming back dats, weeks, months later and still have the same thinking and being so scared of it all. So just going to "relax" for a bit (not sure how long this bit might be) work out all our options and then go from there.

8 minutes to go Ellie!!!!! sooooo excited for you!

Ellie – sounds like you will be graduating from here. I’ll stay online until you update us. It's great when all these good news stories happen, makes it easier to keep up hope. And there are a few in the TWW still too. Maybe this is the start of a great year of BFPs.
Welcome to the new girls. Good luck.

Sonya – any news yet? Hope everything is going well.

I have over 10 follies ATM, which was a surprise when I am on such a low GonalF dose. They are pretty small still though – most are 8-10 with a few 6s. There’s one 14mm one too – so we aren’t too sure yet if we’ll pick up a few of the big ones and lose the small ones or wait for the small ones to catch up and jeopardise some of the big ones. Not my decision and we just leave it up to those who know best. So at this stage, I’ll have another ultrasound on Monday and then, pick up could be Wednesday or Thursday.

I can’t believe it has taken so long to get to here. I saw my first FS in July 2005. I realise that it’s not over yet, and I don’t really have my hopes up too high for a BFP straight away, but this is the closest we have come after 2 years of seeking help (and more than 3 of trying). I can't help but feel hopeful, after feeling hopeless for soooo long.

Hi to everyone else too. :hello:

Ok...last post before I make the call...I thought I felt sick before...now I feel SICK!!!! I wouldn't have got to this point without you guys...THANK YOU xxxx Ok..here goes...

waiting ......waiting.......waiting......

Kotare - well done with 10 follies. cant wait to hear how they are going monday. my phone call is one hour away to see if any fertilised....

Hi everyone,
Yay Sonya on your EPU. great results in the end!!!
Welcome, Lynny and Michelle, hope you dont have to stay here too long,
Yay on your great appt BG and Summer, a way forward, horray. Dont worry Summer, it is very daunting and you should get your head around it before hand, that only makes sense.
Ellie, waiting for your happy news..... fingers crossed. Please bring some luck into this thread for everyone!!!!!!!
Me, Not so happy, I am pretty sure my embies havent stuck. I just feel like a worse version of what PMS always is. Very sad. If it was a normal cycle AF will be here tuesday but blood isnt till thursday/results friday but I dont think I will have to wait that long.. I can hardly stand myself today. So sad.

OMG! They told me to call back in 15 minutes...so I cracked it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So they put me through to the nurse...

AND.....

BFP!!!! HcG = 235, E2= 4400 P4=315....YIPPEE!!!!!!!

They had the whole team on speaker phone! SOOOO cool!!!!! Bloods every 3 days now to check it's not another ectopic...let's not go there!!!!

Yay, Ellie! :confetti:

:crossfingers: for continued good results over the next few days.

Sazz, don't give up just yet! Still :pray: real hard that those embies will stick!

BW

Horray Ellie, You clever thing!!!! So happy for you
:stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: :happyforyou:
Well done, you deserve it. Let's hope I can continue the trend.....

Yay Ellie - :dance: :dance:

Sazz - I will be keeping fingers and toes crossed for you that they have both stuck really good. Please don't be hard on yourself. :hug:

:happyforyou: WELL DONE ELLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


so so sooooooo happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!

WOO-HOO!!!!

6 out of seven eggs fertilised......cant wait to see how they all doing tomorrow

That's fantastic Sonya, terrific rate of fertilisation. You must be sooo releived after the slow start. Maybe now everything is on track to success. Hope so !!!!! are you doing day 3 transfer?

if they struggling i will be doing day 3 but if they mainly fine probably day 5....

Well done Sonya!!!! Keep us posted!

:confetti: for you Ellie! YAHHH

and

:confetti: for your Sonya.

What a wonderful day in here.

WOO HOO Ellie - that's great news hunny! fingers crossed for great results over the next few days.

Sonya - that's a great fert rate - woo hoo for you too!

Jo - sounding very promising hun - it's so hard having to leave the decisions up to someone else, isn't it? hoping you have another great result on Monday

Sazz - just been talking to my SIL about her 5 pg's - she said for all of them she felt like AF was on her way big time - and she just didn't show! she has 3 beautiful children and 2 little angels now.... Don't give up hope - it ain't over yet!

I love logging in here when i've been offline for a while and getting such great news - helps to make me smile!

as for me - DH is packing his bags and heading away for work - but i'm not sure how long he's going for - maybe two nights, maybe a week! have just driven 250km round trip to pick up another car for him to drive up to New South to pick up his truck. I'm so not sure how this positive vibe is going to hold up now...

Thanks BG, that is just what I needed to hear. I am feeling a bit better now, had my ugly cry earlier and now just feel flat...nothing I can do now but wait.

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I'm so not sure how this positive vibe is going to hold up now...

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BG, it will hold up because we'll help you hold it up when it gets too heavy to carry by yourself. :hug: Just remember the reason your DH is doing this - so that he can be there to support you when you will really need it.

And if you really can't stay positive... don't worry. We'll all be here with hugs to cheer you up. You know where to find me. Yes, I usually hide on msn, but if you want me, let me know and I'm there.

BW

thanks BW - i was just saying to DH that i'll be fine once he goes. i find it easier to say goodbye if i'm the one leaving him - he hates leaving so procrastinates, and i just get all worked up over it - if i have to take him somewhere for work, i'm able to walk away when it all gets too much for me,

have organised food for him for a few days (well, not dinner, he can buy that, but everything else he can possibly need) - and am giving him a hot feed soon so he'll be leaving here content - just hope we can both keep it that way!

Sazz
I have had the worst AF cramps for over a week...and have done with all of my pregnancies..this time has been the WORST...so I'm thinking it could be a good sign...it's from all the progesterone working on that little uterus making the muscles stretch to get ready for the bubs to get bigger...that's why I didn't know I had an ectopic coz the further along I got the worse the cramps got...hang in there...drop into the 1st trimester posts on early symptoms...it is full of girls questioning if they are going to mc...has made me feel better this week!

I know what you mean about saying goodbye. DH and I lived 140km apart for nearly 4years before marriage and every weekend was like that. I would get all sad and clingy for a couple of hours before and he would delay going but if it was me coming back here it was different, we just said our goodbyes and I jumped in the car and went. Think of the time he will be back for when you need him. Hope you are ok.

Oh Ellie, thanks so much that is just what I needed to hear. I have never felt quite like this and keep thinking it us just the drugs still plus AF.... I am going to lurk in their threads and spy for a while......
PS.... GOOD LUCK FOR A STICKY ONE!!! I really hope so chickie!

i'm doing fine at the moment - will be a sooky la la when he finally gets himself organised enough to leave (again with the procrastination!) - then i'll come good til bed time. our poor phone bill will get a work out though (one of the big disadvantages of living in the middle of nowhere - not too many people to keep me company - and the ones i could go see have babies - definitely not what i need right now!) - i've actually hit the point where i'm going to go and pack the car for him, and kick him out! we lived apart for a few months when we got together (he was an interstate truckie so i'd only see him every few weeks for maybe a day!) - and he swore when he got the local job he'd never go away again - he's only casual though, and the work is a little thin locally at the moment, and his mate needed him to help desperately.... i think it's him not wanting to go more than me not wanting him to leave....

sooner he leaves sooner he can come home is my theory - and i'm sticking by it for now!

:dance: YAY Ellie so happy for you swettie :happyforyou:

And Yay Sonya :clap: thats the best news hun :pray:

Hey Sonya...how are they looking today? Any news yet?

wont find out until 2pm. so close yet soooo far away!!!

bg- my DH drives his truck locally and i know if work dried up he would go interstate... that is something i dread as i would be lost without him. he goes to Thailand with mates every year for a couple of weeks and i quite enjoy the break, but i think its coz its by choice, not because "he has to"

be brave honey and your theory of the sooner he goes the sooner hes back is so good!! i would be sookier than you, sometimes i ask him to finish work early coz i miss him, and i only said goodbye 8 hours ago!!!

oooooooh, 2pm seems so far away - and i'm in vic so we're a couple of hours ahead of you! hoping for great news for you. heheheh!

i hate it when DH goes away - but mainly cos i have shocking anxiety attacks and if i don't hear from him for a while, i start to get stressed... i also hate that he cathces sleep whenever he needs it, and i seem to have the WORST timing and wake him up all the time! would be lost if we didn't have mobile phones!!

Hey Sonya
Keep meaning to ask you where you are in perth...north. south, east? I'm as North as the metro maps go!!!!

I'm pretty sure my ovulation date will move soon... Back then I only had the slightest hints of EWCM, but now... I've got so much EWCM it's like when I was on puregon! Strange the things that we can get excited about! I'm a little disappointed that it appears to be happening so late, but at least it appears to be happening!

BW

BW - sounds pretty good hun! who cares the date as long as you get the response you needed!

guess it's a good thing you didn't arrange the Day 21 BT - would have been too sonn post O!

ah well - looks like you'll have to try for your natural miracle - there's always hope hun!

Ellie- im pretty well that last suburb south, so we opposite ends of the city!

couldnt wait till 2 for my embies update and it works out i dont have to. they are having me go to blastocyst and expect to lose a couple but are hoping to freeze a couple and put 1 back... here's the results

1 at 2 cell
2 at 4 cell
2 at 5 cell
1 at 6 cell

they wanted 4 of the 4 cell so all is going well. transfer is going to be wednesday YIPPEE!!

yay Sonya - sounding very good there hun!!

bring on Wednesday!

Sonya
Fantastic! You must be so excited! Roll on Wednesday...there's good vibes in here this month...and they're all sticky!

Just poping in to congrats Sonya on her little embies, well done hun you must be so happy GL for wednesday then we will be in the tww together

Hey Ellie - you didnt answer my Q about why the hcg shot ? can any one help y you would have this done

Clutching at straws here

xx

Congrats on the BFP Ellie, thats fantastic news :D
Sonya good news on your embies too - goodluck on Wednesday!!