Nah. Try it! You will have lovely sleep and hopefully a bfp!
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Nah. Try it! You will have lovely sleep and hopefully a bfp!
Awww Emma, hopefully you won't need another stim cycle :hug: This is the thing, how can you know for sure that you've given it all you've got and that you've had a great big crack at it? I guess I keep thinking that you are still so young, that you have so much time left in you, it just depends when you've had enough, really enough. When it all starts to really impact on your physical/mental health and on your relationship with your DH. I guess you'll know when you've had enough. I am becoming quite an old duck, but I can't give up just yet. It does help when you have a DH that co operates though....Like I said hopefully you won't have to do it all over again with the drugs and all, but if you do, and you know you can have another crack, I hope that your DH comes to the party :hug:
You're funny n2l, you always make me smile, thanks lovely :)
Thanks miss.B.
I feel like my fertility is defining me as a person these days and its taking its toll on my everyday life.
I am still young, as is DH-- but my DD is getting older and I'm not sure how keen I am on going back to the beginning.
I think what is getting me down is the lack of answers-- it seems to come down to chance with us.
The perfect embryo at the perfect time in the perfect environment.
When will that all come together? Nobody knows.
We have to have a cut off somewhere and this seems as good a spot as any.
My DH will do as he is told :P (to put it bluntly)
It's me going through all the procedures and all that jazz....
I will talk it through with my FS, but I'm wondering how long 'to keep flogging a dead horse' so to speak.....
I'm desperate for another baby, like all of us in here.
If my FS thinks PGD could give us a better chance, then I'm open to another stim cycle or if she has some other ideas- then so be it.
Truthfully- I'm sure we will do 1 more stim anyway.... But there has to be a line somewhere for me!
Emotionally and financially--- this journey will come to an end for me and I'm lucky to be blessed with my DD who will have a wonderful, full life with or without a sibling.
She will have to, cause its out of my freakin (insert terribly worded expletetive here) control :(
***stalking***
Hugs emma
Thanks WM.
DH and I agree that we would try naturally for a set amount of time, and then that would be it.
That's how I feel sometimes too Emma, that fertility is defining me and I hate it. I hate the fact that my whole world is evolving around TTC at times. I think it's because we have so many obstacles. But they are here and we have to deal with them. I just don't want to get to a point where it's ruining my life and my relationship. There was a time when I was really resenting my DP because it was him that wasn't ready to try again after DS was born. I kept thinking while you are taking your time, my eggs are getting older, but I knew it takes two to tango so to speak. In between the cycles we try naturally too, but I know that if we somehow conceive, it will be the biggest miracle ever. Big hugs hun, I hope that we both get there.
In regards to the PGD testing hun, it might be worth looking into. I know it's expensive, but if you want to see how healthy the embies are, that's one way of finding out. It might be nothing, which then becomes an issues why they are not sticking. I was told that under a microscope in the lab an embryo might look perfect, no fragmentation, diving nicely etc, but if there are any chromosomal abnormalities, it won't show unless you do the testing. My doc seems to think it's a lot of money to spend to find out what your body can tell you. Anyway, that might not be the issue for you hun.
Hiya girlies :-)
It's me sarah4kurt with a slight new name lol, I'd lost my email account and belly belly passwords so its been a prob trying to post!
But I've been reading and figured its about time I sign up n post again lol.
Emma big hugs I know how it is to come to have had enough, I was there a few months ago and nearly lost our relationship over it all... I feel much better after a big break and consciously letting ttc go for a while. It was hard at first but actually good after some distance. Maybe you might feel that way too after a break xo
Afm I juniper I am cd 19 and 6 dpo of a clomid cy...
Been on dhea for quite a few months so hope it helps, I actually had (tmi) ewcm for the first time in a long time lol hope that's a good sign.it has been the first time in a long time that dh has actually been home from work at the right time... Yay :-)
Good luck girlies and a big hi to the new girls here xoxo
Welcome back Sarah4kurt, good to hear you've had a good break and FX a BFP is just around the corner for you!!
Sneaking in...Emma, if you can afford to try PGD then I would give that a go. That was going to by my next thing to try. I know our bodies can tell which embies are not perfect but its a lot of heart ache to go through, not to mention the stress of the financial side of things. If you can afford to pay for PGD and get one good embie that sticks surely it would end up being cheaper than a whole heap of cyles that dont work. Plus the BFN's month after month are horrible and very consuming.
I know how lost you must be feeling as I was ready to give up way before DH was. 8 cycles and 7 transfers in less than a year took a toll on me mentally and physically and financially. I was lucky he was keen to keep trying as it was not in me anymore.
I guess only you know when you have had enough. If the thought of not having another bubba is worse than going through another cycle then I guess your not done. That was me in the end.
For me TTC was highly addictive. Silly I know, but it was very consuming and it was all I thought about. When was my next appt, when was my next jab, how can I get pg!!! The endless counting down to something. AF, EPU, transfer, BT...it was a vicious cycle. If I had been younger I would have taken time off to rebalance myself, but being 41 it was not an option. You still have time to take a year off and regroup. If the thought of taking a year off fills you with dread then your not done :)
I really wish you the very best on your journey. And hope that a sticky BFP comes your way ASAP xxx
Sneaks out...
Tuesday 23rd April 2013 :boohoo:
Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Kel82 - taking a break
Curtysgirl - taking a break
Miss B - waiting for April cycle
Rai - on a break this cycle
Kerbear - CD2
Awesty - CD4
Ceejelz - CD4
Myturn - CD6
Emma - CD6
Hummingbird - CD6
N2L - CD7
Furbabies - CD7
Shellbell - CD12
Treenie86 - CD18
Beau30 - CD19
Jo_white - CD49
Waiting for Transfer
Faye* - CD21
Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...13-2-a-190976/)
Juniper - CD14 0dpIUI
Sarah4Kurt - CD19 6dpo
Becnxavi - CD?? 9dpo
Got Their BFP in April :leap:
Krikkit - 3/4 hCG 821@18dpo, 10/4 hCG 11600@25dpo!
Nic - CD43 - 12/4 +HPT!!! (6+1 by LMP)
Kbudgie - 16/4 hCG 253@16dpo!!
M.I.A. - We'd love to hear from you!
Rosemarry006, Emerald Star, Blossom
Miss.B, I'm on melatonin too. As WM said, it's a hormone your body produces to sleep. I have been told that you shouldn't take it for more than 6 consecutive weeks or your body will stop producing it's own. I love that I don't have to worry about my insomnia during my treatment cycles, thanks to the melatonin!
Emma, most of what I'd want to say has already been said above, so I won't repeat it. I think we all have a time that is right for us to stop and it takes courage to recognise it and act on it, especially when it's something so all-consuming as LTTTC. You show a lot of wisdom for someone so young and I know you'll do what's right for your family. :hug: FX for your little snowbaby.
Afm, IUI was this morning. Still not sure about the timing (worried I O'd on the weekend, but keep telling myself he would have picked it up in the b/w), but DH's number were great today, so very happy with that! I had been very worried after his borderline numbers for the last IUI, so it has been a great relief to see such a big improvement!
Thanks ladies for your kind words.
Ill be speaking to my FS to explore my options.
Best of luck Juniper with your IUI!
Good luck to all ladies who are currently cycling :)
Emma I to feel like you, unfortunately I think having to go on this journey and experience this heartache defines us all a little different to what we were before going through this.
I just want to make sure I learn to deal with my pain and jealousy one day and not be this awful person I feel i am at the moment.
I hope you find some answers to help you on the path that might get you your bfp, it is so hard to know what to do and there are so many different opinions xo
Juniper hope your IUI is a success xo
Sarahkurt hope your clomid cycle is successful :-)
Ho to everyone else, I am here reading but feel the need to be a little bit quiet with posting. As I am having shoulder surgery on Friday we won't be trying this month but I have no doubt I will still hope for a miracle lol.
I've got my mum telling me we should think about giving up. She's tired of worrying about us. We've been through enough etc etc.
I am so angry with her. I've blasted back a text (she's in the UK) saying that I can't worry about her worrying! We will choose when to give up. We are in charge of this.
Sometimes the things people say infuriates me! In one conversation she implied my pregnancy with DS was so bad it's not worth having another. Therefore there's no point getting 'fixed'.
She worried about me so much during the pregnancy she couldn't go through it again........ OMG! I couldn't give a poo! She has given me all her worries on top of my own..... Selfish!!!!
Word of the day: worry. Ugh!
oh willi sorry your mum is being that way xx
Sorry Willi- that's ****!
Sneaks in
Willi omg really? She can't go through it? Love your reply x
At the moment every second person is asking when number 2 is coming. I want to slap them when they ask. I can relate so much as ttc took over my life. It is addictive... I am scared to ever think about ttc again because it's so hard for so many of us.
Hugs girls I stalk you all the time and hope and pray for bfps xx
Sneaks out
Oh Willi that's terrible - she's tired of worrying!! How selfish that comment is :(
I can't believe in a few more hours I'll have a day 3 embie on board :) FX it's a sticky one!