Thank you :flower: again to my wonderful friends for your kind words about my Dad and Charlotte.

I have been reading through the posts but I can hardly remember where everyone is up to. I am sorry for selfish post.

It has been a gut wrenching week. I still feel physically sick, can't sleep much and can't cry anymore atm. It is just all too much.

Monday I started spotting and when AF was late by several days - timing was cr*p - 'Monday' was year to day I found out my precious Charlotte had passed away in womb. Yesterday AF arrived in full colour 1 year to date 30/08/05 excatly - but it was not the same grief as you can imagine.

I had expected AF since Friday.My beta was supposed to be today but I didn't go - they never said I had too. NO point !

I couldn't face also walking back into same hospital - to get bad news again - it's where my Dad passed away - but one day it will be nice to get BFP there.

Tomorrow is Charlotte's 1st anniversary /birthday so my DH are going away later today for a special day together tomorrow - soon as we finish a few things for Dad's funeral Friday.

Next week I start another FET cycle with my last little embie , if this doesn't make it to transfer I will hopefully start another stim cycle late September/early October.

I know each little bub has it's own chance so I have to have hope in my heart while keeping a backup plan.

Welcome to all new ladies - you have found a wonderful place of support and I hope your stay is short all the same. We have had an amazing run of successful BFP here lately.

I will be back. At least I can have a drink now - though I rather I could have gone without for 8 months but there is always an upside to every situation.