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sorry can't do this anymore !!!
I know your trying to help ferrals and for that I thank you but I really can't carry on like this putting my life on hold month after month after month for what a god damn BFN all the time its best I just face it my days are over and my life is screwed up I can't even be happy anymore ! :pms::pms::pms:
Hi Ladies
Firstly GBH to you Crafty. I have no idea what your going through but I hope these help just a litle.
Luna & T-Hopes - Congratulations!!!!
Crafty-If thats the way you feel and its doing this to you it must be effecting your family also maybe enough is enough before it does your head in i know with me i am nearly there also if i get bad news in the next 2 scans i think i will be done and throw in the towel.
Crikey so much to catch up on....
Craftymummy- I can understand where you are coming from, it does rule your life, when I think about how much feeling up and down has consumed me in the last two years, it really is a strain. I don't know whether you want us to encourage you to keep at it or not but if you feel it is time to move on to other stuff you have all my best wishes and love and thanks for all your wise words. If not- stick with it hunny, you have all of our support through the good and bad times and either way I understand it will be diffucult, so enormous hugs for you xx
Ferals- all I can do is cross my fingers and toes for you, oh, and that is sh*tty about DH's niece, xxx
Sunbeam- I hope you can wake up tomorrow with porno boobs, i guess if you were getting cramping it might mean implantation so the boobs would come later after the hormones build up? My porno boobs have only ever come a few days before Af was due, don't get too down its the waiting thats a killer and it is too early to tell which way its going to go :stickyvibesgirl:
Luna- :happyforyou: CONGRATULATIONS well done gorgeous lady, very happy for you, see you in the PAML thread when we all escape from here!! ps we do get 'I didn't know I was pregnant" here, it is a crackup, one girl thought she had done a bowel motion and only realised when she went to walk away from the toilet and the umbilical cord held her back and she saw a baby in the toilet- bl**dy hell!
India'smum- sorry AF arrived, good luck for next month and I am so sad for you about your doggy, glad you had a great weekend at the beach xx
THopes- hope you are still partying, are you still POAS every morning? Has it sunk in yet? SOOOO happy for you xxx
Clairesmummy- if you still have slippery clear mucous I would guess you haven't O'd yet, it tends to disappear fairly quickly once you have. I get ovary pain all through my cycle now, no idea why. Hope the blood test sheds some light!
ALice-:goodluck::crossfingers::goodluck::crossfingers: for your embies, let us know!!! xxx
Hi to Porsche, possummagic, matthewsmum, damprye
No news from me, just finishing with old AF, hope she never comes back. I'm waiting ot hear from the nurse so I know when my next cycle is, lots more waiting probably, on the BCP which is giving me a headache but nothing to complain about really xxx
Hi everyone, I hope you won't mind me doing a quick post tonight and catching up tomorrow - I can see there is a lot going on but just got home and need to get to bed. Just wanted to let you all know that we had a grade 1 expanded blastocyst and a grade 2 early blastocyst transferred today with none to freeze. We are pretty happy with that knowing that our pg last year was from a grade 2 blastie. I had a late session of acupuncture tonight before coming home and feel a lot calmer and more positive though she was shocked that transfer went ahead after the ordeal of last week (she's been away). I'm OK with it, I feel OK considering but emotionally a bit drained so going to take it easy.
Love to everyone x
great to hear you are PUPO Alice :dance:, take it easy and rest up xxxxx
:stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:: stickyvibesgirl:
Hi ladies, sorry, been out of touch for a few days. finding it hard to get on at the moment (we've been sick, new job etc)
T-Hopes::happyforyou::leap: Congratulations!!!
:stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: I'll be stalking you my friend!
Luna: Hooray!!! Great news on the BFP!
Alice: I was cringing reading about your ordeal. So sorry you've had to go through the wringer to get to where you are. I'm glad you now have your embies on board. Will pray really hard for you that all goes smoothly from now on. You sooooo deserve it!
Saffy: bah! AF! Hope the old witch doesn't bother you again for a looooong time.
Craftymummy: That first day of AF is always a hard one and you've had a long difficult journey. We'll support you whatever you decide. Take care.
Porsche: hope you are well ; )
India'smum: i was a bit thrown by the name change but guessed it was you from your signature. I like it! Sorry AF came. Hope the old witch doesn't bother you again for another 9mths either. I know what you mean about the gap between kids. I never imagined it would be this large for me either. But your kids will enjoy a special relationship even if they're further apart. Your DD will enjoy the 'big sister' role even more than if they're closer together. That's my hope for my DD anyway.
Ferrals: I totally don't get it either: there's some bizarre Murphy's pregnancy law where the most undeserving are the most fertile. Crossing fingers for you that you get a lovely clear look at your healthy baby's fingers and toes on Wednesday.
Sunbeam: hoping you will get the BFP even without strong symptoms (it can happen).
Clairesmummy: a fellow defector to this thread! welcome! Hope you get some answers to your questions soon...
Damprye: hope you are ok
Mathewsmum: not sure where you're up to with your osteo or other treatment. Hope you are well.
AFM: AF is finished and i'm due to have an U/S tomorrow to check that all is back to normal, one cycle after mc finally finished. BUt...i think i've changed my mind about TTC this month. Even if U/S looks good i don't know if i'm ready to TTC. I've just started a new job and i'm not sure i could handle the stress of a new job and then stewing over telling my new boss i'm pg just after i start there (assuming it happened quickly). My next pg (please let there be one) is going to be stressful enough with daily injections of clexane and extra tests for problems like thyroid that i've had in the past as well as fear of m/c. I think it's all a bit much. I think i'll see how i feel in a month but i'm thinking of giving myself til Dec or January before i TTC again.
Crafty- I pretty much understand where you are coming from. I have given up TTC now and will most probably not try again even when I am older. Between DP and I there are 3bubs. His oldest DD is 5, his youngest is 3 and my DS is 3 next month so between us I think there enough bubs now. The mental stress of TTC is way to overwhelming especially with my issues as they are, plus it has been putting way to much of a strain on our relationship which is why I have decided that enough is enough. I am still trying to find a way to tell DP that I do not want to TTC...ATM I have just been avoiding DTD around O time. Things between him and I are going ok right now. It isn't the greatest but it is ok and we are working things out slowly. Hopefully he agrees with me about no longer TTC rather than it cause even more issues lol.
Congrats Luna :)
Thank you for asking after me ladies. I guess I am in the TWW but obviously not expecting anything. I am pretty sure I have all my bases cover as to not get UTD. I know that sounds horrible, I am still coming to peace with it myself that this is the end and that it really is best to make sure I do not get UTD *sigh* I will definately miss the baby stage, especially with DS growig up so much now but such is life.
Hi Ladies
Alice - Yay on being PUPO!!!! I had a 2 grade embie and a 2- grade embie transfered so I have my FX for you.
I'm running late for work but just wanted to say all is well here. We have reached our 10 week milestone and bubs s doing fine. The sac def had a little person in there. So I can relax a bit now. NT scan is booked for the 26th October but I'll be 13 weeks lol. DH can't come as he's away for work so I thiught I might ask MIL if she'd like to come. This is the first grandchild on DH sied so she might get a kick out of it.
Whoo hoo Alice i can feel some twins coming on double the blessing for all the waiting and heartache you have been through good luck i hope the tww flys by ooh! i am so excited for you.
Porsche-Yeh! on the 10 weeks i am 15 weeks now it feels good doesnt it.
Damprye-I understand the way you feel i think if this bub has SLO then thats it for me our lives have been on hold with doctor appointment after doctor appointment and u/s after u/s and geneticist appointments FS appointments and now the uncertainty of if this bub is healthy is just all to much i dont want to do it again my marriage is to important and i think we should throw in the towel before all this baby stuff effects our marriage.
But it would be nice if you get a sneaky BFP when you least expect it the month we stopped ttc because i had to have a knee operation i fell pregnant with Abbi.
Possum magic-hope your u/s goes well and you will know the best decision to make
at the time.
Sunbeam-how you doing?
AFM-Well tomorrow is my u/s i am excited and very nervous of what they will find i hope they find nothing to worry about they will look mostly at the heart hands and feet and bone growth that is were Abbi's obvious abnormalities were.
I hope that if all looks good i can stop worrying but i had a dream that when the baby was born it had SLO but was mildly affected so there were no signs until it was born so that is another concern maybe i should have the amnio on the 18th to be sure GGGRRRHHHH!!!! i just dont know what to do.
Ferrals, you can keep saying twins to me as long as you like it just makes me :D and it's early days so I can play with that fantasy for a while. Come on now, one step at a time, don't give yourself more to worry about, just get through this scan first and then think about that other test. I really hope your worries will end tomorrow so you can enjoy this precious time. How is your DH holding up? Are you going to find out the sex tomorrow? I hope I didn't upset you by wondering if it will be a little girl after all the grief you went through with Abbi. :hug: for tomorrow
Porsche, congratulations on your 10 week milestone, so glad to hear your bub is in there growing strong, that's wonderful news! And thanks for your vote of confidence in my little embies, I'm already talking to them and thinking warm snuggly thoughts about them. How I'm going to stay sane over the next two weeks I have no idea!
Hello Possum! I hope your us goes well today and you can know that everything is alright for when you are ready to try again. Having a break for a few months until things have settled down for you seems like a good plan - you'll know when you are ready again. I hope you'll pop in from time to time to say hi to us. Take care x
Saffy, thanks lovely, it feels a bit unreal at the moment like I'm still waiting for it all to go ahead. I hope your cycle gets in sync with the others soon so you can try again. Did you have a follow up with your FS and discuss their plan for this cycle? I so hope it goes well for you.
Luna! :stork-girl: CONGRATULATIONS!!:stork-boy: that's great news! Well done!!! I hope you have a happy and healthy pg and you'll visit us from PAML thread to let us know how you are going. Better still, we all move over there with you! Best wishes to you and congratulations again!
Crafty :comfort: I'm so sorry :comfort: You've been through so much sadness and loss and months of disappointment since your mc. Like Saffy already said - we are with you no matter what decision you make. You've been so strong for a long time and it's OK to say you just can't take it anymore, it is hard to keep hopes and dreams on hold for so long. I know you'll get through this and find your old self again and some comfort and joy in your family. xxoo
Sunbeam, how are you feeling? When is your bt? I have everything crossed for you x
Clairesmummy, sorry everything feels very up in the air at the moment - so frustrating after a mc to figure out what our bodies are doing. I hope things improve for you soon and you can get a clearer picture of when you might be 'o'ing. Have you tried Vitex (chaste tree)? It is meant to be very good for regulating hormones and might help. Sunbeam and others recommend it.
T-hopes, is your bt tomorrow? How're those cramps? I think they are a great sign but know it must be freaking you out. Think of MurrayCod- she had them for weeks and weeks and all worked out well for her.
Intheslowlane, hope you're having a good holiday.
MatthewsMum, how are you? Did you test?
Mildez, Damprye, HappyBaby and anyone else I've missed - hello to you all and hope all is well with you.
Just wondering, for you IVFers, has anyone been told their E2 and P4 after transfer? The nurses called this morning to say mine are good but just wondering what anyone else had? I know it's all relative...hmm, yes that's me obsessing already. I've been for a walk which was good but have had two really bad nights sleep so hope some of this anxiety can go soon, don't want to be worrying my passengers. Grow embies, grow! x
Alice-If the little bugger will sit still long enough of course we will find out if its a boy or girl and no you didnt upset me i really dont care what we have as long as it doesnt have SLO that is all that matters to us but i do feel more towards a boy for DH as he doesnt have one i have 3 and i got my girl even though for a short time she is my daughter watching over us so it's DH's turn for his boy.
Cant help with the levels after TF never had them done.
Congrats Alice FX for you hope the TWW goes by quickly !!!
Luna - Congratuations:happyforyou: I hope you are able to find some peace and relaxation and not stress too much.
Alice - Well done my sweet that is excellent. We are both PUPO :dance: I hope the TWW is not too agonising. I did not get an E2 level after but I did wonder what it would be with my OHSS. Oooh twins that would be soooo exciting!!
Crafty - :comfort: It is so hard to know when to stop but I think we all need to draw a line in the sand some where. I have this cycle and one more stim cycle and then whatever frosties we have and then that's it for me. I'd probably find it impossible to quit but I know Donor daddy does not have much left in him. It is so hard to think there is actually an end to the raod.
Possum - If you feel waiting is the right thing to do then you should but I would not worry about it because of telling your boss. If you are not feeling ready or want to selttle into your job a while then it might be a good idea.
India'smum - I understand about wanting to give your daughter a sibling. I want 2 but only because I loved having a brother to grow up with but I'm not sure I could go through all this a second time.
Damprye - I'm gald to hear things are working out between you and DP.
Porsche - 10 weeks whooo! I hope you can settle down and stress less now you have seen your little person growing strong :D
Ferrals- My sweet there is nothing more I can say that I have not. Please just know that you are in my thoughts and we will all be breathing a HUGE sigh of relief with you when you finally find out your bub is beautifullly healthy.:grouphug:
AFM - Another BFN this morning but still have hope. I am actually fine either way at the moment though of course a BFP will be awesome. I go on my cruise in 2 1/2 weeks and would then come back with a week till I started another stim. cycle. We need to get it in before the end of the year so we get the most back from Medicare then we can use our frosties next year if need be as FET cycles are within our budget.
Anyone doing IVF might like fertilitycommunity, I love it. It has helped me stress less about having no symptoms and I don't think I'd stress about a low beta either after seeing the very low numbers on this site that have lead to healthy bubs. Enjoy.
hi ladies!
alice - yay for the 2ww!! i have everything crossed and sendy sticky vibes!! xx
sunbeam - sorry to hear bfn, but like u said, your still in it! great that you have the cruise to look forward to, a nice happy focus!
crafty - im so sad to see you so down, i wish things were easier for you, take some time out so find yourself again, we are all here when your ready xx
thanks again for all the congrats! you girls are so wonderful to me!!
Just letting you know that had my BT today and hcg is 267 and im 15dpiui! the nurse said that was a very high and a excellent result so were delighted! she said no need for a follow up and have my 6wk scan on thurs 18 oct so not too far away!
Sorry for everyone i missed but im at work so its just a quick sneaky post! will be back later to catch up on everthing! xx
T-Hopes-great number and not long for your 6 week scan on the 18th i will be having my morphology scan to check bub at the fetal medicine unit so i will be thinking of you.
Sunbeam-thanks hun i hope you will hear my sigh of relief tomorrow from where you are.
Dont worry about the BFN just yet there is still time for that second line to show up.
Carfty-thinking of you.
Alice-I'm still excited for you.
AFM-DH and i are having a nice quiet night alone to get our heads around tomorrow and try not to worry this is so nerve racking we are so in love with this baby already DH kisses my belly every night when he gets home and says how's bubby.
I just want to thank you all for your support and i hope tomorrow afternoon i can give you all some good news .
Love FerralsXXXXX
Thanks Sunbeam - the first one I read was around my age, been trying for 8 years, had endo like me, had 5 embies transferred (!!!) and is pg with twins. Made me smile. Amazing how few symptoms most of them felt and thinking back to last year the main thing I had was, apart from no bleeding, a weird taste in my mouth about four or five days before the test, full-on AF cramps the day before and day of test, and incredibly sensitive nipples. Don't remember anything else. Everytime I do this I think I should keep a diary...What day is your test again?
Good on you ferals, you are in a great head space, I wish you all the best for tomorrow, it will be hard to get through but we are all thinking of you and your DH and your little baby xxx
Alice- I had my consult over the phone with my FS and I think I recall him mentioning E2 was 3000? I just have that number in my head, not sure if it is accurate but he said that was a good number, not sure about the P4, I should ask these things I suppose!
How is :dance: PUPO :dance: going?? It is hard to sleep when anxious, sooo annoying xx
Sunbeam- great thanks for that site I will refer to it, glad it has made you ok with no symptoms. Before I was obsessed with TTC it would never have occured to me that there would be any symptoms to notice until way after AF was due, now we are so conscious of every little twinge lol!
THopes-:clap: on great numbers-nice little snuggly embie happening there by the looks! xx
Craftymummy- hope you are feeling ok today sweetness xx
Possummagic-nice to see you again- just pop in when you can, there is no pressure, you obviously have a life unlike me lol! How is your new job? Taking a few months off will be no drama I am sure, and takes the pressure off a bit!! x
Damprye- nice to get a catch up from you, I hope things continue to get better for you and DH and your family xx
AFM-very :leap: as FS nurse rang today and I am cycling at the end of this month, going in tomorrow to pick up meds, transfer week will be first week of Nov, now i better get strict on my diet etc as I have been a slackarse and had drinks over the weekend and a full strength coffee today :doh:
Thanks Crafty, Ferrals and T-hopes xxoo
And T-hopes, great levels babe!! Well done!!!
Saffy, that's GREAT news about your cycle (we posted at the same time)! Bring on November and a super happy end to the year for you! Don't beat yourself up about one coffee or a few drinks on the weekend - my stand-in acupuncturist said to use the 80/20 rule (be good during the week, relax on the weekends - you're only human!). I liked her attitude, especially as I have devised a kick-arse cake that is dairy and wheat free. Now I'm just working on getting the sugar down. So in our house, Saturday is now cake day!
PS Oh and thanks for mentioning the level, I'm a bit worried my E2 is a tad low...this is the first time I've ever asked about levels and I don't know that it helps, it's not like you can change anything so I wouldn't worry about asking probably just gives you more to worry about!!
Alice - I hope these next two weeks pass quickly for you and I can't wait to hear your announcement.
Sunbeam - You just amaze me with your resilience and positive attitude. Surely another BFP is only just around the corner. Where is your cruise to?
Crafty - I am not sure what frame of mind you are in today. It seems a real shame to end your wonderful run this way. You have had an amazing number of years with conceiving and having beautiful healthy bubs but your focus this past year has been on your failure to conceive. If this were a movie I would be standing up and doing the slow clap as you walk away because I think you should be acknowledging your successes and not your failures. I am so envious of you and your lovely big family and your supportive husband. I hope that if you do give up that you find peace with that decision. Either way, we are still here to support you.
T-hopes - your news just gets better and better. Let us know about the scan at 6 weeks so we can feel part of the pregnancy too.
AFM - Trying to focus again on dropping some weight. The closer to a healthy BMI, the easier it will be to conceive next month. Incidentally, my dog seems to be doing a lot better, she is able to go to the toilet again and is sleeping through the night so maybe we will get a little more time with her.
Hi friends, thanks for all the congrats, you really are a great bunch of ladies
Crafty - I just want to give you a hug, I know how you feel, it takes over your life, doesn't it? I had very similar feelings of sadness and despair and I talked to my doctor and she thought it may be depression, because it is normal to feel sad after M/C but not for 8 months. And MC, beeing a major traumatic event, can certainly cause depression. I wonder if maybe you are in the same black hole. I did not want any drugs, so my doctor recommended holy basil. It is an herb that can relieve stress and improve your mood.
Damprye - I see TTC is driving you nuts too. I think you are doing the right thing taking a step back. Enjoy your DP and your kids. We get so obsessed with the family and life we are trying to have that we get disconnected from the family we have and the real life just runs by. Who knows what may happen in the future, you may decide you are in a better place and ready for another child.
India's Mum - glad to hear your dog is better.
Alice - for some people insomnia is a symptom, when are you testing?
Sunbeam - I had no symptoms this time until after the BFP at 15 DPO at least. I am glad you have something nice planned too look forward too and take your mind off things for a bit. Where is the cruise?
Saffy - glad to see you putting your plan to work already.
Ferrals - keeping fingers crossed for your scan today, I have a good feeling about it :D
Hugs to everybody I missed and I will be waiting for you in the PAML thread.
All the best of luck to you Luna, enjoy your pg and hope to see you in the PAML thread.
I've only just had the transfer on Monday so too soon for testing - my official bt isn't until 15th Oct (next Friday). Feeling perverse already about it - don't want to go. I think this time I will do a HPT (first time ever). All you POASers have had an influence on me...think I'll hunt down these First Response sticks you all talk about and then DH and I can be together for that private moment instead of having the news come to us through the nurses and FS. If it's good news I'll go for test. If not, I'm getting my haircut that morning then I might have a go at that lemon vodka recipe I keep thinking about (kidding)(sort of).
Still not sleeping...was sure I would get a good night last night 'cause I was so tired but no, got up to pee three twice and just felt restless. Worrying that this is not going to help with the implantation but hey I'm sure I'll find other things to worry about during the day too! It's only day 2 and I'm already going crazy!!
Just poping in to wish Ferrals all the best today.
Oh Babe- I'm sure I would be exactly the same- you have worked so long and hard for this and invested so much effort its normal that its culminating in the most stressful :2ww: ever!
sending the most sticky :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: in the world ( one for each embie!)
How can we get you to sleep? Have you tried the usual-glass of warm milk? Theres not much else non pharmacuetical is there? What about some more acupuncture sessions? Or essential oils? Or getting on the computer and reading bellybelly all night lol?
Anyway we are here for all the way and :cheer::bluecheer: for you day by day
Thanks Saffy!! :hug: xx I will try the warm milk and essential oils tonight. I'm staying the night with my godson (his mum is overseas) so looking forward to some little person time and hopefully we will wear each other out and both sleep well! I just came back from a walk so feel a bit more relaxed. That's one of the nice things about living in the mountains, when it is misty like today it is so beautiful and calming. I've made a cake to take for my visit and now I think it might be time for a Nana nap (just a short one though - don't want to sleep too long)! Thanks for letting me go crazy xx
Ferrals, thinking of you x
:o sorry for all this me posting while we're waiting to hear from Ferrals but
:leap: WE GOT AN EMBIE TO FREEZE!!!!!! :leap:
I just got a call and it is also an expanding blastie so good grade and the embryologist also said my P4 was on the high side and E2 dropping nicely so I should stop worrying and be happy. xx
Wow I think we have some good karma :heartbeat: going on in here at the moment, hopefully it extends to Ferals and her scan today!!
Alice-that is brilliant news :hooray:, that means the twins will have a little brother or sister lol
Me- Found out today that we only have to pay a few $100 for the next cycle cos we get the rest back from our last cycle. Next month it changes somehow and we wouldn't have got as much so :dance: for getting into this next cycle!!
Alice - Yay to the frostie!! Youve done so well!! Take Saffys advice and have the warm milk b4 bed! And look out for your 'sleep window!!' Its the key for me getting a good nights sleep! remember i couldnt sleep a few weeks back?? i tossed and turned ALL night long, drove me batty! It was 4-9DPO for me and i got my BFP, maybe its a good sign :)
:grouphug: Thanks so much for your support it means so much, I know I should be better able to cope with getting a BFN should be used to it by now ! and I know at my age its going to take some time its just so intense when your TWW is nearly over ! Anyhow I feel abit better today not such a black cloud hanging over me still no AF so when she desides to turn up I will be happy !
Ferrals hope your scan is well and truely over now and with excellent results can't wait to read later on the good news !
Sunbeam way too early for testing so your not out yet be patient !!!
Alice think positive you know your embies are there inside you you just need them to burrow in I am sure you will be fine try to take your mind off the stress you are causing yourself and relax its out of your hands now whatever will be will be !!!
Luna thanks for thinking of me its been 15mnths now since my mc and I do struggle with
it still only because I was stupid enough to think I would get a BFP real soon after it happened and now I am thinking maybe never again I feel so stupid for thinking it would be easy !!! But you can be sure I will be trying again and trying not to let it rule my life so much !!!
Matthews mum how you doing did you test yet ??? you been here in this boat longer than me its real tough at times isn't it !
Indias mum I know I should be greatful for the kids I have and you can be assured that I am its just the loss from last year was after 12 wks so I guess it was a real shock to the system as before the 12 wks I would have expected it !! anyhow I can assure you having lots of other kids doesn't make the pain any less, and I have 6 yrs between my first 2 and they have always been very close the age difference really is not an issue so try to relax on that front !!!
Everyone else thanks for being patient with me I am a silly old fool at times !!! :shhh: don't tell everyone I just admitted that !!!
Alice: Yay on the snowbub! Broken sleep has always been a pg symptom for me, esp early pg. Hope it means something good for you too (not just stress!)
T-Hopes: how're you incubating? (I mean how are you?!!!)
India's mum: glad your dog is better. My parents' old dog was very ill and seemed on the verge of needing to 'go to the vets' but he rallied and had another few good weeks before we said goodbye. Hope your doggie gets a little more quality time too.
Saffy: good news on the $$ for the next cycle. Thanks for the good wishes.
Luna: Best wishes. See you in the PAML thread!
Hi everyone else!
Alice - Wonderful news! You deserve some good things after your shocking week. Sleeplessness is one of my biggest pregnancy symptoms so maybe that's why you are not sleeping so well. I have often ended up in a bath at one in the morning trying to relax
Crafty - good to see you are feeling better. I didn't mean to insinuate that having more kids made the pain any less as I'm well aware it's not. I just didn't want you to look back on your childbearing years and remember this past year and it's heartbreak more than the earlier years and their joy. I fully understand about the shock of losing one around 12 weeks because I've been there 3 times now. You really think it's going to make it when you get that far.
Ferrals - waiting to hear your good news!
Alice - Whoo so happy you got a snowbub too :clap: Glad the sight was useful. The TWW is agonising but I seem to have figured that the symproms start later with IVF so try and stay calm, hard I know especially when you are not sleeping well. Pleeeease can I have your cake recipe :p. Have fun with your godson.
T- Hope- That is great numbers fo this early, awesome news.
Crafty - Glad to see you are feeling abit more positive.
Saffy - Awesome news that you can start your cycle soon. What meds are they giving you?
India'smum - It is so hard to focus on weight loss when so much of our focus is on TTC. I managed to drop 3kg since my last m/c. My FS said you are more likely to conceive if your body is in a state of weight loss rather than a state of weight gain (seems really illogical to me but that's the facts.) Good luck. So glad your dog has picked up too, I hope she stays well for a long while. My cruise is from Brisbane to Vanuatu and Neumia(?) for a week.
Ferrals- Been thinking about you all day.
AFM- Bit excited to day. My boobs have gone all veiny, I've been crampy and I have been nauseaous on and off all day. Don't want to get my hopes up too much but will test again in the morning :crossfingers:
Ferrals?? I have to go at 4pm - hope we hear from you soon and holding my breath that it is good news xxxxx
Sunbeam, will PM you the recipe - I LOVE it and have made it a few times now and each time it gets better :) Did I mention I was a cake addict? It is my biggest weakness...sigh. I was thinking about you and the cruise and thinking how nice it will be for you to kick back with your lovely pg belly on a relaxing holiday. I'm so hopeful for you, keep testing 'cause I'm sure you're going to get a BFP. How're you finding the Clexane injections? Damn but that needle seems thick or blunt or something after the FSH injections! Still, I think it really helped me last time and I hope it's helping you too. Go the veiny boobs, cramps and nausea!! Fingers crossed
India's Mum - thanks, T-hopes and Possum both said the same thing - I hope you are all right! I was told not to have a bath so haven't done that and it is my usual way of relaxing so I am missing it. Hopefully tonight will be better.
Saffy, go the good kama!! That's great news about the next cycle not costing you much, we need all the help we can get with IVF it is so expensive (much worse in the US though so I'm grateful for that). Yah you can start soon x
Thanks T-hopes, I saw you have posted in the PAML thread with a new ticker - lovely to see you there after all this time and I hope a few more of us will be joining you soon (I was stalking Ferrals to see if she posted there first).
OK ladies, I have to go to Sydney now. Ferrals, you have lots of love from me, been thinking of you all day and hoping for the best. Will be back tomorrow to hear your news :pray: it is good. xx
I've been lurking since my first post but every time I go to post something I end up logging off because I hate labelling myself "LT TTC + MC", I don't know what it is, every time I see the heading I'm on the verge of bursting into tears.
Grats to those ladies who got their BFP recently and :hug: to those who received unwanted AF.
Thanks for everyones replies, I know I could go by myself but I feel in a way it's pressuring him. I know I can put my foot down and pretty much get my way and force him to do what I want but I've been very cautious not to do that in regards to another baby. I've asked him over and over if he's sure he wants another baby and the answer is always yes, I don't know, I'm just confused at the moment.
I'm very close to giving up, I've been stalking a friends wedding pics looking at my SIL who's pregnant with her 5th, I hate that she's pregnant, part because "why isn't it happening to us" but also for other reasons, which aren't really important but I'm finding it increasingly frustrating. DH's parent's are coming from Brisbane to stay with us at the end of the month and I know oldest SIL's pregnancy with be the hot topic.
I hate AF, I'm dreading the thought of it coming in 8-9 days. I'm at the point where I want to give up and have my IUD put back in just so I don't have to deal with it.
I hate that I have to keep our TTC secret from my mum because she doesn't approve. Every time I know she's coming I have to hide everything, delete the internet history and so on, why can't I just say "mum we're trying for a 3rd and if you don't like it, that's just tough!", why do I let this woman control me!
Sorry I'm ramblingly here, well I started vitex but just one tablet a day until this bottle runs out then I'll go to the 3 a day. Also looking into royal jelly and maca powder onto of my black mores conceive well gold. Also changed my DH onto menevit instead of his performance daily, was going to try sperm max but the lady said menevit might be better to improve quality considering he's over 30, it was also cheaper which is a plus. Also getting him to cut out his daily coffee milks, he's really reduced his smoking on the champix so hopefully that will stop completely very soon. Now all I have to do it get him off coke and for me to lose some weight, which is a whole new set of hurdles.
Sorry it's turned into a bit of a novel :shakehead:
The luckiest of lucky :bluedust: and stickiest of sticky :stickyvibesgirl: to everyone.
Hi girls thankyou so much for thinking of me it means a lot.
Anyway so far there is no sign of any abnormalities bub looks normal and healthy the u/s tech said the heart is still a little small to see everything but so far it looks normal there were no extra fingers on the hands and the feet look normal to one was a little hard to see bub wouldnt stop figiting which is a good sign.
The little bugger wriggled and moved so it wasnt easy to have a look but she said the next scan on the 18th should be more accurate.
The bub was measuring a few days behind my 7 week u/s dates but she said there is always room for slight variations a millimeter or two can mean a few days on u/s so i am relieved.
We need to see the geneticist to be find out if its possible that bub can still have SLO without obvious abnormalities which is a scarey thought but we will cross that bridge when we get to it but for now we things are looking positive.
Even though we are not home free yet i can see the finish line.
And they had a look at bubs bits and we have a little GIRL on the way Abbi has sent us her little sister.
Sorry for no persies i didnt get much sleep so i am off for a bath and will pop back in later.
:leap::happyforyou::thumbsup: WHOO WHAT A RELIEF AWESOME NEWS
BIG SIGH OF RELIEF
Have a great sleep babe you deserve it so much. Big hugs to you and DH. So happy for you that its a girl.
ooohh Ferrals!! IM soooo happy to hear your beautiful GIRL looks strong & healthy! Such a positive sign!!!!!
Im soo happy for you!!! I know nothing is guaranteed yet but its a great start!!! lots of love xx
ferrals - Sounds like you're cooking a perfect little girl in there :crossfingers: for your next scan :D
:happyforyou: way to go Ferrals, Mr Ferrals and little miss ferrals
what a relief!