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Sunbeam - So sorry the TWW has left you feeling flat :hug:
Saffy - The self pity then guilt for being jealous cycle is very vicious :hug: I'm still so sorry it didn't work, I hope you click with the counsellor and she helps you find some strength to get through all this.
Saffy - Big hugs babe, this is all so hard I totally am with you on that. IVF has been much harder than any of the other TTC for me. I'm glad you have found a counsellor I hope she is nice. Don't feel horrible for feeling jealous we have every right to feel jealous it is totally unfair that we have to go through all this torture and heart ache to have one some people get a the drop of a hat.
Hi everyone.
AFM - Sook post from me too. I'm feeling totally like my transfer has not worked. I did POAS today and BFN (6dp5dt). I have lots of symptoms but I am sure they are all due to the crinone (horrible stuff.) I was not going to put my Christmas tree up because I was so down about another christmas without a baby, but I made myself do it. I am going to a charity event at Movieworld tonight I hope it can get me in a christmas mood because right now I'm so not feeling it.
Sunbeam - still keeping everything crossed, I hope you get good news soon :hug:
Sunbeam-when do you normally see a BFP? early before AF would be due or after AF i aways see a line about 10dpo but have friends who never see a line before 14dpo.
Crossing everything for you.
Thanks girls but another BFN this morning. The latest I got a BFP was 13dpo but my HCG was only 19 and the pg did not progress. Keeping busy with Christmas shopping. Have decided that I won't got straight into using my frozen embies but give myself 6 months to get my weight down, fix my back and get my debits cleared. I will test again on monday if AF not here but not hopeful. Bt is tuesday.
Sunbeam- hugs- sorry hun, but I don't think its over yet- i only poas at 9dp5dt- many people don't get bfps til after af is due. I know its hard, sorry you are feeling sad. Fingers crossed it is still coming for you babe xxx I'm trying to lose some of this ivf weight too, have no junk in the house and have spent the day peeking in the pantry hoping a packet of chips miraculously appears- it hasn't tho lol
afm- after seaching for EWCM for the last week I had some today- finally. Good timing as DH returns from Adelaide tomorrow, opks are still neg so hopefully next week I will lay an egg. And no doubt now Af will be due christmas day like last year just to make my xmas suck even more grrrrr good on you AF you cheeky b*tch
Sunbeam - I don't think it's over till the blood test. Fingers crossed for you. But if this doesn't work then I think a break to fix your back and get as healthy as possible is a good plan.
Saffy - hope you catch that egg. Christmas here sucks a bit too. I had a baby due on Christmas day last year that I never got to meet and my sweet little niece passed away Christmas Eve a few years ago so it's always tinged with sadness (can't imagine how hard that must be for her parents).
AFM - It's been one of the hardest weeks of my life. My poor dog was finally unable to stand up on her own and had begun soiling herself so I made a decision I didn't want to make and she was put to sleep at our house, on the back deck, lying in my arms. For the past 14 year she has rarely been more than 5 feet from me when we were together. She went to work with me for 5 years and then she has been home with me for the past 3 since I stopped working so we were almost always together. Rest in peace my sweet Georgie Girl.
India'smum: So sorry for the loss of your precious devoted furbaby. I remember how hard it was when I lost my first furbaby as a teenager. It sounds like her passing was peaceful: In your arms in the home she loved.
Saffy: I feel like I would be most helpful if I could give you encouraging words about how to feel ok with your friend's IVF pg... but I'm afraid I know how you feel and I struggle with these sorts of things myself. I find it terribly painful that friends have announced pregnancies the last few months and mine failed. I keep trying to focus on the other things I have going for me (not least of which my DD) and that helps. I hope you can find things that keep your spirits up too... and that you get a Xmas BFP instead of a visit from the old witch AF. Hope you can have fun with DH this week too and just enjoy being together.
Sunbeam: So sorry you don't feel more hopeful. It would be lovely if you got a nice surprise. I'll wish hard for you that it still happens.
Toomanyshoes: hope you are doing ok
Ferrals, T-hopes; belly rubs. T-hopes: Good luck for your scan Monday (i think?)
AFM: well, i think i am 4dpo. Thank goodness for that! It's hard work trying for a baby! Now I can relax and just DTD for fun! Oh but i think i need your help to not turn into a crazy woman the next two weeks. Seriously the last TWW nearly did my head in. I don't want to go to my 'crazy place' again like last month. Feeling sad too cos one of my best friends has now gone 'official' in announcing her 12wk preganancy. That sounds terrible but what i mean is i feel sad for me that i am falling behind where i thought i'd be. It's lovely news for her of course. On a happier note, one friend has just had a baby girl after 4 years of trying (including 2 miscarriages). Very exciting news.
India'smum-:comfort:
possummagic-yeah its hard, oh course we are happy for our friends but it brings up other feeling too. Hmmm how not to go crazy in the tww- not sure, but I just presume it isn't going to work ( and i'm always right :doh:) but I still get obsessed with going to the toilet and looking for implantation bleeds and poking my boobs constantly. Theres a few people in the tww thread if you want to talk to them too but we'll definately be here for you x
just wanted to send some cyber hugs to you all,extra ones where needed...afm-testing on tuesday,thinking it will probably be a bfn as we did a natural cycle,this next cycle will be trying fet
hello lovelies,
We are almost ready to head off - been to-ing and fro-ing seeing family in Melbourne, Canberra and Sydney but still checking in on you because I can't help myself, I want so much to see us all in our happy place with babies in our arms.
:grouphug: to you all
Sunbeam, honey I'm hoping so hard your test comes as a surprise but I know how sad and hard you are finding everything right now. IVF really takes a lot out of us and I have always found the need for breaks in between. I'll be back in six months or so too so hopefully 2011 will be our year xx
Saffy, I'm so with you. In the last week I have had such a big meltdown and couldn't figure out why now then of course realised that I'd had my friend staying with me who I was with the day I found out I was pregnant last year. She was 20 weeks at the time and her little boy is just divine - such a happy beautiful baby. It took a few days but after she left I just lost it. We all understand how you feel and you can't beat yourself up about it. You're a good person and a loving friend but you are entitled to your grief, just like we all are. xx
India's Mum, I'm so sorry to read about your recent loss. She sounds like she had a wonderful life with you as part of your family and I'm sure you will miss her very much for a long while to come. xx
:hello: MatthewsMum (good luck for this week), toomanyshoes, Ferrals, T-hopes, Possum M (hope you caught your egg!), Crafty (where are you Crafty?), Possums, Mildez, Porsche, and anyone else I might have missed.
Miss you all! xx
Hi Lovlies,
Alice - SO good to see your name babe, been missing you. I hope you have a lovely Christmas. I'm sure 2011 will be our year (it has to be!!)
Mathew'smum - Sorry for the BFN. When will your FET be? :goodluck:
Saffy - Good luck with catching your eggie :egg: lets hope AF stays away for christmas and most of next year :D
India'smum - I am so sorry your beautiful doggie passed away, I cried when I read that. My best friend lost her dog too this week. The though of losing a beloved pet tears at my heart. At least she was able to go peacefully with you by her side. I'm sure she will be greatly missed. :comfort:
Possum Magic - That is great news about your friend having her baby after 4 years and gives us all hope. I am no help in the TTW crazy stakes!! This TWW has been the hardest ever (and its not over yet!) and its not ever 2 weeks!
AFM - I did not test again because I just wanted to hold onto hope for a few more days, silly I know as it won't change the outcome. I did find one lady on the IVF sucess site who did not test positive until 8dp5dt and went on to have twins so who knows but I'll get bt result tomorrow arvo.
:goodluck::stickyvibesgirl::goodluck: Sunbeam for tomorrow- crossing everything tight for you babe xx
morning everyone, alice-miss you already...sunbeam-still got fingers crossed for you...afm-bfn this morning no surprise,waiting for clinic to get back to me,as from memory i think i have to have day1 blood test.Acupuncturist has suggested natural fet rather than hormone replacement fet.af due in a few days ,that's if it doesn't add insult to injury by going mia
Just a quick post as I have clients waiting. Beta HCG was 6 today! So obviously something started but didn't make it :shakehead: Have to go for bt again friday to ensure hcg below 5. Just have to wait for AF now. :wall:
massive :hug: Sunbeam, how disappointing, I know you must be so sad, can't believe you have to see clients xxx
possummagic how is the tww going??
alice- miss you too, keep checking when you are away xx
hi matthewsmum- so sorry to hear you had a bfn, hope af gives you a break and arrives on time
Saffy - OMG I can't believe how relieved I feel, not that I'm not pg obviously, but that the TWW is over. It was, without a doubt, my hardest TWW in the whole 3 years of TTC and it wasn't even 2 weeks, only 10 days but it felt like a month!!! I am actually a bit encouraged too to know that at least one of my little embies obviously tried to give it a go. I had a long chat with the nurse and told her I plan to take 3-6 months before using my frosties so that I can fix my back and lose some weight. She thought this is a good idea and said in all her learning the biggest factors in fertility are smoking and weight. She said if you can drop 5-10% body weight it massively improves your chances of conception and maintaining the pg. So that's the plan, no more baby making until I drop 4.3-8.6 kg (5 would be good 10 would be great). Its not going to be easy given my back won't let me exercise at all so it is all going to come down to diet but at least I'll have an awesome goal to work for. I'm also happy that AF will be here and gone before Christmas and not back till after New Year. I am going to get a big dose of valium so I can have my MRI (hopefully, still scared!) in my holiday break (can't remember if I said I tried to do it between EPU and t/f and I had a massive panic attack due to my claustraphobia and only lasted 20 seconds). I probably won't be in so often but I will pop in from time to time to see how everyone is doing. You are all so awesome and I want you all to know I don't know how I'd have got through any of this without your loving support. 2011 bring on the babies :clap:
Sunbeam - So sorry to hear that sweetie. Hopefully you can get healthy and fit for a few months and then successfully conceive in the new year.
Hi to all. I am reading most days but not posting much. We are still trying and ovulation should begin soon.