LT TTC and Assisted Conception May-Jun 2012
Ok, so I just spoke to my FS. Things are now as clear as mud
He is happy for me to decide whether to go ahead and do another cycle fresh or frozen. He seems to think that the issue is the egg quality and he says even though they look really good sometimes its the chromosones which you cant tell by looking at them. He is not a believer in the NK theory or and of that failure to embed stuff. He said if I have endeometriouses then that would be a factor but he says my uterus is in good shape.
We did talk about and I am going to organise with my local GP to have a Pipelle Biopsy done. Apparently its meant to increase my chances, but he says the reports are saying its not a massive increase, and nothing to too get excited about but I figure I may as well try it anyway and he said he would recommend it. So I have to have that done on CD7. Good luck to me trying to get into my doctor on that specific day
Do I feel better. Not really. Still dont know what to do. I dont even know if we even have the money for another cycle, fresh or frozen. I will have to talk to DH tonight. I know he will say "whatever you want to do hunny".
Do I do another stim and try to get as many eggs as possible in storage or do I just do this one and be done with it all? Am I ready to use up any further eggs I get? Not right now I dont. I dont think I have the strength to do another stim cycle and everything that goes along with it. To top it all off I work for a family and they are all going off to Croatia for three months in June so I cant go anywhere. Its me running the office. By the time they get back it will be too late in my life to do anything.
I think I am finally starting to think that it will never happen for me. I think that I am starting to become ok with it. I dont feel the panic now. Just a bit of acceptance creeping in. Which is probably a good thing. I feel like I am running out of steam with this journey and cant wait for it to be over.
I know you all know how I feel, especially you really, really long TTC'ers. I am starting to long for time when I am no longer TTC. Either way.
Sorry for the all about me post (again) xxx
I have no words of wisdom for you. I can't imagine what your going through. I don't know how you ladies do it cycle after cycle. Your very strong women.
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