I wish I could sleep past 4am. Seriously, the jokes not funny anymore!!

So I sent DH a photo of the pee stick. I knew he would be happy, I didn't expect him to cry! I think my DH is a pretty amazing guy - I don't think there are many blokes out there that would be happy to have 5 kids (well this one will be his forth - my eldest is from a previous marriage) but we have all four living with us most of the time. I think it helps that my ex husband is still my best friend, and he's good friends my my DH as well. I don't know many ex husbands either, who would be happy to move in to their ex wifes house for a week and look after all 4 kids (so that DH and I can have a holiday together once a year). I just feel really lucky to have such great men in my life (OMG the hormones must be seriously running wild hahahahahaha)....

Miss B, I think I can speak for everyone else when I say we will ALWAYS be here for you. No matter what. I've said it before, but I'll say it again, you are one of the most remarkable women I know (virtually, eg online). You always manage to find a kind word for others, even though sometimes you must not feel like it... You've also been dealt more than your fair share (hand) of 'crappy cards' - but you always hold your head high and keep moving forward. It's for this reason that I hope you cycle again... I really feel as though you deserve to get your bubba. I know everyone in here does - and maybe I shouldn't say this - but somehow ijust feel as though you 'extra' deserve it. I wish I could make it happen for you. I wish I could do something more...

Thank you for your beautiful comments about the embies from 'that' cycle! Yes, I agree with you - i think 'that' cycle for me produced amazing embryo's. I was really diligent in preparing my body for the one and only free cycle I've done. That said, I only had to do one (which I often feel so bad about, when there are so many long -termers, ladies who have been trying for years and years to have a baby). Sometimes I feel bad being here, because I feel like we have had it relatively easy... The only thing I can do though is try and be as supportive as I can to other ladies in here... And pray they get their happy ending.

Myturn - the day you got your bfp, I cried like a baby I was that happy for you, that i felt like I had got a bfp myself! Miss B, WHEN you get your bfp, I know I will be exactly the same.

I credit accupuncture with that cycle being so successful btw. I went religiously 4 times per week and I ate nothing but oily fish and green veggies for weeks. It helped that my FS and my accupuncturist worked together as well! They spoke once a week about my cycle for 8 weeks before actual egg retrieval and I'm sure that helped. The guy that I used to go to in Perth is well known for specializing in TTC accu. He had photos and letters from mummies and their bubbas all over his office wall which was kind of cool - just like an OB!

I am happy to report that I am no longer feeling anxious. I'm not worried about it being sticky, I just feel as though it will be (I hope I don't jinx myself by saying that!). I had a dream last night that I had twin boys... That made me feel a little bit anxious if it's meant to be, it will be...

Something funny I remembered last night.... About 12 months ago, I got one of those online readings done from a clairvoyant that was recommended by someone, somewhere on BB. I tried to find the thread last night, but I couldn't. Anyway, I hunt through my inbox to find the email reading she sent me (my question was - Will I have one final baby?). Anyway, I found the reading and I had forgotten it said that I would find out I was pregnant in April 2014! That's a bit of a weird one, isnt it!!

I'm just counting down until tomorrows BT now. I'm just hoping for an hcg result over 100. If that happens, I feel as though I will be able to relax somewhat. Strangely 2 people have commented to me in that 24 hours - oh your not pregnant are you?? (insert eyes like saucers emoticon). My ex husband came over last night - saw a chicken Kiev in the oven - and said it (I lived on chicken kiev's when pg with DS 12) and a girl in my class at uni said it yesterday afternoon! An 18 year old girl who I barely know - we were doing a Moot in my Torts class, and it was a medical negligence case, where the OB had done a forceps delivery, where he should have done a caesar and the woman was seeking damages because she had been told that any future babies would have to be delivered by cs. Anyway, 18 yr old girl says "what's the big deal? If she had have had a cs instead of a forceps delivery in the first place, then she would have to have had a cs for any future pg's anyway!" I was counsel for the plaintiff and I said "that's not true, plenty of women have a VBAC after a cs" and quick as a whip she said - "your very passionate about this subject - are you pg or something?" Needless to say I like her even less now, than I did before she made the comment.... (rambling rant over - sorry ladies I promise when DH comes home and I have someone to talk to, that I won't bore you with these incredibly boring comments)...

Counting down positively until you are PUPO and join this thread

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