LTTTC Two Week Wait # 7

kristie- I think you are UTD I hope the poas and the BT confirm my suspicions!! And yes, I have started going crazy unfortunately :redface:

yogi- glad you are feeling slightly better ( its the best we can hope for under the circumstances).... I know what you mean when you say you know you are not pregnant :cry: unfortunately we know our bodies so well.....I wish someone would look into the future and tell us what to do so it makes decisions easier...big hugs for you hun xx

bianeczka-how are you going hunny?? xx

afm: starting to go slightly crazy, i am so impatient, I'm feeling it could go either way with me so time will tell, don't want to get my hopes up too much cos I don't want the big letdown, only symptoms are cramping at night and v emotional, but I know its too early anyway....my boobs aren't telling me anything either :doh:

Well im out girls, woke up this morning to very familiar cramps that i get when Af is coming or here, And i was right that nasty witch has come. POAS anyways and it was a BFN. So i dont know where to go from here, im thinking of swapping clinics as i wasnt very impressed with the one we went to and they were ment to be one of the best in australia, but from the start of stims things didnt go to well i had 60 follicles but only 1 or 2 a decent size and that is how it stayed, They rang me to do the trigger and i questioned why i was even bothering when there was not enough decent follicles, why did they not cancel when they saw i wasnt responding as good as i should. So egg pickup was done and we got 4 eggs2 which fertilized, and went in for a 2day transfer to be told that the egg was very fragmented and only average, again why did they just cancel and not bother, I feel that they went through with the whole process just to get the money at the end, everything was always either average or not going very well so why not cancel and try again using another protocol instead they made us waste money when they knew that the whole cycle was crap.

Sorry for my rant i just had to get it off my chest, i had doubts about it all before and the doctors and nurses talked me into it when i should have listened to my head and my heart.

Best of luck to everyone else on their 2ww and hope you all get BFP'S because we really need to see some in here.

OH NO Kristie, I am so so sorry to hear that, :hug:, I wish it could have been different for you. I know what you mean about the clinic, I felt like my old one didn't give a sh*t about whether I got utd or not and just wanted the $$, so I swapped. Have a talk with your FS before doing anything drastic and tell him/her that you feel it was a mistake to have gone ahead and see what they say, they might have an answer. Some clinics do antagonist stim cycles which get less eggs but better quality, so you could ask about that.
Take care of yourself honey and do something nice for yourself today even though you will be feeling rotton.

Yogi- how are you?? xx

afm- feeling very pessimistic as I have no more cramping and feel completely normal, I know it is early still but I am resigning myself for the inevitable I think, don't know how I will get through the next few days.....if AF is going to come, she will start appearing Monday I think, going by past experiences, I would love to get to a BT without having started bleeding but that never happens for me...... anyway, need to try and stop being so negative :doh:

I'm out too...(not that I was ever really in IYKWIM)...AF just arrived. My only (small consolation) is that it was a natural (ie. cost-free) cycle....

*sigh*... :(

Now to decide whether to do another stim this month or wait a month....

Hugs to everyone who had a BFN and FX to those who are still in it!!!

x

kristie and n2l - :hug: it truly sucks :(

Very sorry for the BFN's ladies - :hug:
Hope you can have another attempt soon!

sorry to hear that N2L- you will get there hun, I hope its soon xx

:hug: for kristie & nothing2lose, hope you are being kind to yourselves. xxx

Saffy, i hope AF has stayed away? Did you poas? totally ok to be negative...its our defence mechanism i think, after everything we go through. Still, i have a good feeling and have all fingers & toes & arms & legs wrapped up in yogic position!!! :crossfingers:

Thanks so much ladies for your hugs and thoughts....i am very very nervous posting this and a little embarrassed too. I've had an emotional weekend!!...

...well, i've been so absolutely certain that this cycle didn't work, i did a hpt on friday night. its was a brand that i hadn't used before but had it 'lying around' so thought i would give it a try....negative. So friday night spent drowning my sorrows had about 5 drinks, i stopped my pessaries & clexane, woke up with a headache and threw down some panadol. On saturday i thought i would double check to be absolutely sure and do another hpt with a brand that i have always used 'First Response' and they have always been accurate for me...came up positive! I literally nearly collapsed on the bathroom floor!! my 1st reaction was 'oh ****..i just had all those drinks!!'...2nd reaction was 'oh ****, here we go again...i'm so scared!!' did another poas on sunday and still line there.

I've decided to get the blood test done tomorrow. my negativity is still there and i'm preparing myself for a chemical pregnancy. I know i probably sound ungrateful and crazy but this is now my 5th pregnancy in a row (6 all up) and they have all ended in tears so, although i know this is a good start, i know that for me my biggest hurdles lie ahead now.

Anyway, see what tomorrow's bt gives. Geez this journey can truly screw with your head!!!

Take care everyone
xxx

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Yogi Bear that is so fantastic and I am so, so happy for you :dance:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are nearly there, hun - yay!!! I will keep absolutely everything I possibly can crossed :crossfingers: for you that this is the stickiest of sticky little embies in the whole wide word :stickyvibesgirl:!

I WILL BE STALKING :hide:, :pray:'ING & THINKING OF YOU! xoxo

omg Yogibear- :happyforyou::happyforyou:
what great surprise!!, don't worry about the drinks its too early to matter, :goodluck: for your blood test today, I will be thinking of you :crossfingers:

Sending heaps and heaps of :stickyvibesgirl::bluecheer::stickyvibesboy::cheer :


I haven't poas and am trying not to. This is the closest i've gotton to a BT without having bleeding so that is a good sign but I just realised AF isn't due until Thursday I had thought it was wednesday, so have to get through another 48hrs without any spotting, can I do it?? Still no symptoms, but thats not worrying me, I am just paranoid every time i go to the toilet, argghhhh, how can I get through the next 24 hours??!!

Just a quick one...

YogiBear - I can completely understand you feeling negative - how could you not after all you've been through. But how exciting. I know you said the biggest hurdle still lies ahead and that may be true but this may just be your little extra sticky embie that you've been waiting for. Sooooooo hope that it is. Shall be waiting to hear your BT results.

Saffy - great news for you. Hang in there for this last stretch - you can do it! The 2WW feels like some kind of marathon sometimes doesn't it. Anyway thinking of you and crossing everything that nasty AF stays away

All the luck in the world to both of you.
xx

wooooooooohooooooooooo Yogi! :stickyvibesboy: :leap: :stickyvibesgirl:

Saffy - Hope AF stays away and the blood test brings wonderful much deserved news :hug:

AAAHHHHH........the pathology lab never received my sample today so have to wait til tomorrow now! they are usually pretty good at getting results same day, and i specifically asked for it to be marked urgent :angry:

Saffy, i am so impressed by your will power not to poas...i'm so hopeless with them! well, just one more sleep for both of us now! :crossfingers:

I did another hpt yesterday and the line was a bit darker, but part of me is thinking maybe i got a dodgey batch and they are all wrong!! I had the slightest tiny bit of brown discharge yesterday & today...just to further screw with my head! :rolleyes:

...i think i can be officially put in the nuthouse now after this 2WW!! :lol:

oh yogi, that sucks, i hope we both get good news!

:dance: I'm making it to a blood test without any bleeding!! :dance:

had cramping at work last night and was running to the toilet constantly thinking af was coming but nothing yet, please god let us have sticky ones :pray:

Saffy - :happyforyou::stickyvibesgirl::noaf::stickyvibesbo y::happyforyou:

A quietly confident woo hoo for you Saff (you can have a big one this arvo when you get your results!)

Fingers crossed this is THE ONE yogi!!!!

I will be stalking x

:goodluck: GOOD LUCK TODAY Saffy :goodluck: !!!

Thinking of you and :pray:'ing for good news!

Hi
Just got my results and its positive! hCG 160, prog 236. Having another bt on friday...already nervous about that now!!
i know this is a good start but still being cautious not to get hopes up at all. I dont think i will ever truly let myself believe i am having a baby until i'm huffin 'n' puffin through labour!

Thanks ladies for all your support, means so much :grouphug:

Saffy....still have a good feeling for you :thumbsup: