Bel - sending you my best wishes for today. :hug:
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Bel - sending you my best wishes for today. :hug:
Hi Bel,
Just wanted to let you know we are all thinking about you, I hope your meeting went well with the Dr, sending you positive vibes and lots of :hug:
xx
Hi everyone,
Thanks for all your support and kind wishes.
Had my appointment with our FS this morning and another blood test. Another negative I'm afraid. I knew it would be after yesterdays result.
Sara and BDT- I wish you all the very very best and I hope you get a BFP at the end of your wait. Thankyou both for your support. I'm going to take the weekend to get my head around things before I turn the computer on again. I have the church rehearsal this afternoon for my SIL's wedding tomorrow, so things are going to be really hard.
I'll check in on Mon and see how you are all going.
You all really help to make this journey just that little bit easier and I am eternally grateful to each and every one of you wonderful ladies.
Hugs Bel
Bel - I know nothing I say will make this any easier for you so I will just give you big :hug::hug::hug::hug:
I am thinking of you. Be kind to yourself Bel.
Janie xxx
BEL - I am so sorry. I was praying so hard that it would turn out positive. Be kind to yourself. Thinking of you :hug:
Oh Bel, I am so very sorry, please know we are here if you need us and look forward to supporting you as you move forward. Take care and talk to you when you are ready. :hug:
Oh Bel...:hug::hug:...
Come take my hand
We will walk together
And though pass not a whisper
your pain says enough
come lets walk together.....
Good morning all, it is very quite in here.
Bel, just in case you are back on line, I hope you are ok. Been thinking about you.
Sarab, how are you going so far, I hope you are keeping well.
Me, I am very afraid I am out. I couldn't help myself and did a HPT yesterday and today. Stupid me totally did it the wrong way yesterday and ended up with a really weird result in the wrong spot of the stick that looked like two faint lines, so I spent all day yesterday in tortured hope, didn't sleep last night, and tested again this morning. This time it worked properly and was a very definate negative. So I am out of hope. I am 13dpo today, surely if it was going to be postive I would have had HCG in my system by now. The test was a lullaby conceptions at 20 iui. AF is due tomorrow, BT on Thur. I am dreading the next few days, now rather than wishing time away til Thur, I wish it would stop, I don't want the official confirmation from the BT. Although they say it is not over til its over, what's the point of senseless hope? So totally bumed, don't even want to look forward to the next cycle. Life sucks.
Baby Dreamtime - You poor thing... You have to think positive. It's not over till the blood test result is in. It is still early.. I am thinking of you often & am sending you positive thoughts. :hug:
However, in saying that I am struggling too.... I have wanted to do a pregnancy test every day & am trying so hard not to - because I think it is probably too early... Only 7 days since the ET.
This two week wait thing sucks.....:D
I wasn't this impatient when I did IUI... But I think the whole IVF process is so long & emotional & the long road that you take to get here in the first place... trying every herbal remedy & technique...
I went to a friend's baby christening yesterday & it was so hard. There were babies everywhere & pregnant ladies... I was almost homicidal...
I find it ultra difficult when people say things like "we struggled to have our third child - we tried for 3 months before I fell pregnant.. you just have to keep trying it will happen.." I know people mean well, & I don't say anything but it almost crushes me. :( They just don't understand.
Sorry for being long winded and whingy today...
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TTC Since 06
#1 IUI Aug 07 - BFP - Ectopic - Lost R Tube
#2 IUI Dec 07 - BFN
#3 IUI Feb 08 - BFP - Ectopic Again
#4 IVF Jul/Aug 08 - In the TWW - BT 22/08/08 :pray:
Hi Baby Dreamtime, sorry to hear that... I know you would have heard it before but HPT's readings before AF is due is often not accurate.:
Well.. BDT- I think I am out too... I have started spotting... & have had cramps since the ET. I don't know what to do now. :help:
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TTC Since 06
#1 IUI Aug 07 - BFP ? Ectopic - Lost R Tube
#2 IUI Dec 07 - BFN
#3 IUI Feb 08 - BFP - Ectopic
#4 IVF Jul/Aug 08 - In the TWW - BT 22/08/08 :pray:
Hi Sara,
Did you do a Day 3 or a blastie transfer? If Day 3, you would only be 10dpo, so it might be too early for AF? If a blastie I guess that would make you 12dpo? Is that right? Remember spotting can be implantation spotting so might be too early to worry. I really hope AF is not on the way, hang in there, this could still be the month. :pray::pray:
I too am bumed, have been on the verge of tears all day. Will do another HPT tomorrow (14dpo) just in case but not holding any hope. DH has sent me flowers to try to cheer me up, but it is not working. Just feeling so frustrated and 'why me' and 'it's not fair'.
Like you said earlier, it is not over til the AF shows, so :crossfingers: for you.
Hugs!
Thanks BDT - Had Day 5 blastie transfer so that makes me 12dpo. Have just done a HPT & of course it's negative. So am feeling extra awful now. Finding it very hard to concentrate at work. I just want to tell everyone at work that I don't care about their stuff..& to get lost - I am having a "poor me" moment.
Finers Crossed for us both!
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TTC Since 06
#1 IUI Aug 07 ? BFP ? Ectopic ? Lost R Tube
#2 IUI Dec 07 ? BFN
#3 IUI Feb 08 ? BFP ? Ectopic
#4 IVF Jul/Aug 08 ? In the TWW ? BT 22/08/08 :pray:
Hi Sara,
This life is crazy, what we do to ourselves for this hoped for BFP. And it is so unfair that everyone else seems to have it happen so easily.
12dpo is still early, they say the average to test positive is 13.6 dpo, so you are still in with a chance. :pray::pray:
I guess I have given up on this one, have already planned out the dates for my next stim cycle, I think I will have to go back on the pill next month and start stims around the end of Sept, EPU on the 10th Oct and ET on the 13th. EDD would be 2 July 2009. I am crazy! Ahead of myself already. I guess that is called being optimistic.
DH's sister gets married the 18th Oct, we will be away for 4 days and the timing looks close. Am now doing some research to see if it is absolutely necessary to go on the pill next cycle, or if I can go straight into a stim cycle. I hate to say this too, but I have been secretly fearing that she will get pregnant before me (she's 29) and have been so fearful that it will happen straight after the wedding. DH is 7 years older than her, I really wanted him to be the first one to have a child. I feel so guilty and just want to be pregnant and am so scared that it always happens to everyone else but me. Sigh.
I guess the waiting continues.
Stay positive, you only have a few more days to you BT, :crossfingers: and lots of :hug:.
Hi BDT, Dont give up totally - your blood test is still to come. :pray:
I don't know what to expect if this BT negative. I only have one in the freezer - as I got a call from my clinic the day after my ET to tell me that one of my blasties didn't survive freezing...
I guess I will have to wait a cycle as this was a very long stimulated cycle?? Had to start taking pill in June & had weeks & weeks of that before taking the synarel & then puregon injections. I also am not very fond of the Crinone cream - I have affectionately named it "no more gaps"....
I just seem to have to wait all the time. Each time I have had an ectopic I have had to wait a couple of cyles before trying the next thing IUI or IVF treatment. I am so sick of waiting...
I guess we are all sick of waiting & trying. Just ignore my rantings...
Thinking of you. Talk soon.
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TTC Since 06
#1 IUI Aug 07 - BFP -Ectopic -Lost R Tube
#2 IUI Dec 07 -BFN
#3 IUI Feb 08 - BFP ? Ectopic
#4 IVF Jul/Aug 08 - In the TWW- BT 22/08/08
Hi BDT and Sara- Ooh you poor girls. You both seem so stressed out. I have to tell you though and many ladies here have heard this story, but I have a bad POAS experience. My 2nd IVF cycle I did a POAS the day before BT and got a BFN....then I did 1 the morning of BT and got a BFN. I went to the clinic in tears and the nurse was like...oh well we don't have to do a BT if you don't want to then. I insisted on a BT and would you believe got a BFP!! My mum is also a nurse and the thinks POAS's are so inaccurate...especially if using them before AF is due. So..basically I'm trying to say, please don't give up hope. I am proof that a BFN on a POAS doesn't mean a BFN. While I totally agree in planning ahead in case of the worst, I want you to both stay positive until you get the call telling you otherwise. I have everything crossed for you both.
AFM, am moving forward again. AF came on Friday, so I started progynova again today, scan the end of next week, for a TF the week following. There is a really big chance my one last embie won't make the thaw as I have lost an average of 66% of my embies once they are frozen, but I have to try.
Stay strong girls
Hugs Bel
Hi Bel, glad to see you are back, we have been worried about you. And glad that you are looking forward, I guess once you get over the grieving you can move forward again in anticipation of the next cycle. At least with FETs you can go straight back into it.
I just did a hpt that measured 10iui, so super sentive, and nothing, zip, nil, BFN. I am no longer holding any hope...but will wait for my BT results on Friday before I have my meltdonw. I am dreading next month on the pill, such a waste of time. And I no longer feel guilty about being impatient. It will be 4 years TTC for us in Dec. Long enough, I don't know how much longer I can endure this.
Bel, I will pray for you that you blastie survives, and this is the one. Hugs, xx
Thinking of you girls....:hug: