LTTTC Two Week Wait - Dec to Jan

Hello - just popping in to wish those of you waiting for results and in the dreaded tww lots and lots of luck. I hope it all goes well - and meanwhile, step away from the POAS!!!

Hey guys -

Thanks for all your lovely support messages :)

MURRAYCOD... how you doing hun? REEEAAAALLY hoping you got some good news xx

L x

Thank You Lomndonmiss, I hope you and bubba are doing well honeyXXXXX

FGS, I hope you are feeling more confident with your situation today, remember, 1 day at a time my friend XXX How are you feeling?

My BT was Neg, no suprise, but DH and I are at peace, to close that chapter, and excited to start another.
Thank You to everybody for your support through my maddness and insane days, love you all XX

Goodluck to all in, and comming up to your TWW, I hope we get some juicy BFP"s in here very soon XXXXX
Will be keeping an eye out on all of you X
Take care, and take it easy.

Hey MC. I'm sorry to hear that you got a -ve result. But I'm glad that you and your DH are coping with it so well. I know you had resigned yourself to that result days ago but it still can't be easy to hear it. :hug:

I'm really pleased also that you are excited to be thinking about and planning your next move. My DH and I aren't up to that stage yet. We're going away this weekend to decompress. I must say I'm better today but not great. I know we will get there. It's what happens when you go in expecting nothing and then swing completely to the other side. That's me alright - one or the other. No half arsed feelings and decisions! ;)

FGS, I haven't forgotten you. Hope you are doing good and that you're coping with your tww better than the two previous crazy broads (MC & myself!!). :)

BJ81 and Sharee, still thinking of you both and trust you are as insane as the rest of us!

Ladies, I wish you all a fabulous weekend. Enjoy yourselves whatever you get up to and I wouldn't mind seeing some stories of illegal shananigens on Monday! :D

Bee good and if you can't be good, don't get caught! ;)

MF xx

So sorry murraycod. Glad to hear of the peace you and DH have, it's a great gift at this time. Don't ever give up hope! :)

Hi you lovely ladies

Hope you don't mind if I jump in here, I'm just back from holidays and have been catching up on the news.

MC - I'm soooo so sorry babe that you didn't get the result you deserve. Its just so damn unfair, isn't it? You don't know it, but you've been an inspiration for me, and your positive attitude is infectious. Keep your chin up sweetie.

Moonflower - sending big hugs to you :hug: reading your posts over the last week made me so sad. I hope that you and DH are enjoying your weekend away, I have found that a change of scenery works wonders for the soul (perhaps the biggest thing for me its getting away from the BBT charting program!). Know that you are not alone in your heartbreak, you have the support of all of us crazy chicks :-)

FGS - am waiting with bated breath for your news, and have everything crossed for you! :crossfingers: Your little embie is in the safest and best place it can be... (especially being away from that Negative Nelly embryologist :o can't believe she said that!)

Sharee - Welcome! :hello: I too had a giggle about the title of your old post - at least the words have SOME sort of meaning - unlike "eggplant umbrella" or the like!

BJ81 - Hi! Hope your 2WW is going OK.

Hi to anyone that I've missed!

AFM - I'm coming towards the end of my 2WW, and I must say, its been the best one I've had, coz I JUST HAVEN'T CARED this time!! Its crazy!! After the last failed IUI, I said to myself "stuff it all to hell" (after I'd stopped crying uncontrollably). We were going away on holidays so couldn't book in for another IUI until next month, and I decided I wasn't going to count days (too much), or take my temperature (too regularly) on this natural cycle. And DEFINITELY no BBT charting. God, it was bliss! Back from holidays today, and realised it must be getting towards the pointy end of things. I think I'm due on Tuesday? Or Wednesday? That's only if my cycle behaves itself, which it undoubtedly WON'T! :rolleyes: I'm resisting the urge to POAS, but I can already feel my resolve fading.... noooo... Hehe! I'm sure I'll get a goodly amount of stressing in before this cycle is done

Sorry for raving on! Hope you are all well and hanging in there!

MC - I'm so sorry about your result but it sounds like you are handling it in an absolutely inspirational way! I'm so glad that you are excited to go again. Loving your never give up attitude honey. Big big :hug:'s xxx

MF - I hope that you and DH had a good (as can be expected), therapeutic weekend away. Sometimes its good to just get out of the house and recoup. Hopefully you will feel a little better with each day that passes.

FGS - How are you going?? Hope you are feeling a bit more positive and things aren't dragging by too slowly for you.

Sharee - Are you hanging in there with me? How are you feeling? This is going to be the longest 2ww ever I swear! :wall:

Leabie - Hi! :crossfingers: that you won't even have to do an IUI next month, how good would that be!

AFM - I HATE I repeat HATE crinone gel, I had forgotten how hideous it it :( Have been having some dull cramping over the past few days which I'm guessing is from the gel and my BB's are still really tender but otherwise am feeling pretty good. You know sometimes I hate knowing so much about what is going on in there. Knowing that if everything goes according to plan my little 'lone ranger' (emby as nicknamed by my DH) should implant in the next few days....Sub-consciously watching everything I do and eat and every twinge. The truth is if it wasn't IVF I wouldn't have the foggiest idea what was going on and would have downed my favourite Margarita's at Mexican last night. This 2ww is never going to end.....

Girls, just popping by to wish you all the best, and let you all know i will be lurking away to see how you all are coping XXX
Get some BFP's cracken in here girls!!!!

Oh yeah, the Crinone is just soooo delightfull.....:rolleyes:

Thank you for all the well wishes, you are all a great inspiration to me too :grouphug:

Well... maybe not 'proud' - but... I have put a lot of thought into it and have decided to POAS through my 2ww.. and not beat myself up over it.

It all started after the conversation I had with the Embryologist... I was so down about it - and prior to that, I was so elated and hopeful... I feel like I did the right thing by POAS... I was so caught up in the propects of this little bean in my tummy... that if that kind of behaviour went on for 2 weeks... I would have been inconsolable when I got that call after BT...

I tested 5dp4dt... and the 7dp4dt, and 8dp4dt and all have come up flat negative. I know theres a small chance that it's to early, but I have pretty much accepted the fact that my little bean, like his/her embie-siblings didn't make it. I am not going to say that I am happy, or ok... but I am going to be able to deal better than what I would be if I was entertaining the idea that I was pg all along...

I've been thinking long and hard - and I am wondering why you choose not to POAS? I am really wondering what you all think the pro's and con's are...???

I figure.. if I have to pay 3k for an ICSI cycle this year - whats $100 more in HPTs?? lol... next time - I am going to test right from the beginning so I can see the trigger leave my system - and follow it along... I think.

It's been quite tough the last few days... hearing about Moonflower and Murraycod's BFN... devastating... it's just so unfair...

I am really worried about none of my 6 embies reaching viable blast stage... very concerning - does anyone know if that can change cycle to cycle??

MOONFLOWER - if you're around - hope you're doing ok...

MURRAYCOD - I am sooooo sorry to hear about your result hun... it just seems so, so unfair. I hope that your snowbaby is wonderful and strong... and that you dont have to do another cycle for a looooong time.

BJ - I hate the crinone gel also... I am actually more over just having to *do* it every night... I can't wait til next week when I can just stop... and these stupid estrogen patches are irritating my skin..!

LEABIE - wow! you've done well! Haha... I can't wait to finally see some BFP in here! It's about due!!! :)

Sorry to anyone I've missed!

Be really interested to hear your thoughts about my POAS theory!

L xx

Hi girls,

MC - I am really sorry you didn't get a BFP this month, I had everything crossed for you. DH was looking at me very strangely when I kept checking the computer to see if there was any word from murraycod, he thinks I have lost totally lost it.
Leabie - Hi! Glad I gave everyone a giggle with my strange post title :p I'm glad the 2ww hasn't been too unbearable for you this time.

MF - I hope you had a delightful weekend away and that you were able to focus on something else for a little while ! No illegal shennanigans for me (well none I want to share) :p
FGS - I hpe time hasnt stalled to a crawl for you and I hope you are feeling a little more positive. I really think (for what its worth) your little one has every chance now his back where he belongs!
BJ - How are you doing? All going according to plan our little ones should be implanting any day now! The crinone really is crap isn't it!
The first two days flew by and I actually thought I would breeze through the two weeks. I don't know what has happened today but I am suddenly really really sad about the prospect of my little embie not making it, I feel horrible I can't do anything to help!
And you're right it sux wathcing every little move you make, thing you eat, analysing every little cramp or twinge. All in all I think I have gone loopy and I am only 4 days in on my first ever cycle :rolleyes:

FGS - I kind of agree with your decision actually. I read your post a couple of times. I think the only reason that POAS is so discouraged is because it is all so early for us in IVF land and getting a neg result that may not be correct would get you down and not staying positive for your body.....but then, on the other hand if the neg result is correct then at least you are somewhat prepared. Honey I think you should do whatever you have to do and really we shouldn't let anyone tell us otherwise. If your tests are neg but then get a positive result at BT then what a way to be picked up again hey. But if they are right I was very glad to see you write...."next time" :) This is my 3rd and I'm sorry to say it doesn't get easier, right now I am having 100 emotions in a day. Convinced that this is the one, then convinced that it hasn't worked just like the others.....but no matter how hard it is and no matter how I can't imagine picking myself up from another disappointment....I can't give up. And obviously neither can you. Don't rule this one out just yet though ok, it's good to be prepared but you have to keep a little bit of hope.
I also wanted to know about your estrogen patch? Obviously estrogen is a problem for me leading up to EPU, and effects my egg numbers, do you think it could also be a reason why my embies don't stick (yet)? My FS has never given me estrogen support and now I'm kind of wondering why??

Sharee - I know what you mean, I just went from having the most awesome day and feeling so positive to bursting into tears. But I guess you hit the nail on the head....we can't do anything to help. I guess we just have to wait. xxx

Hey FGS, I have every intention of poas as well. For me it is too emotionally dangerous to hang everything on one phone call where as if I poas like you have done over a series of days maybe I can gradually accept a negative.
Having said that you are still 4 days out from testing and as cliched as it sounds it may well just be too early - I see keep peeing for the next four days you just may see that second line start to appear!!!!

i am just sending you girls some good luck for the crazy TWW. hoping for some BFP. x

Hi girls!

Can't believe its February already... where does it go?

FGS - I like your POAS theory. Being an addict myself, I agree with bj81 that its noone's decision but your own, do whatever works for you. I also agree with Sharee that it helps me to accept a negative result. I also chart my BBT, and that is just as crushing as a negative POAS when my temp starts dropping! :wall: A lot of people don't like POAS, and when you're taking HCG it really is just the drug that you're seeing, but hey, we do crazy things in this crazy 2WW! (I even POAS once when I was full of Pregnyl, just to remember what a positive POAS looked like :redface: ) My main justification for POAS is that I'm on a drug that I have to stop taking AS SOON as I find out I'm UTD... that's my excuse, and I'm sticking to it! ;)

BJ81 and Sharee - hope you girls are hanging in there, and feeling OK.

HI to anyone I've missed!

AFM - speaking of POAS... I've done it. Twice! Yesterday I thought I saw the faintest of faint lines (confirmed by DH), but today - zilch. I think the brand of test kit I used yesterday was just a bit dodgy. :shakehead: So I'm naturally a bit crushed. I had a +ve POAS on CD23 when I had my chem preg, so assume that if I was UTD now, it would show up (I'm on CD28). Big *SIGH*

Have a good week girls!

Hello ladies!

How are you all? Looks like I have a lot to catch up on. Just wanted to wish those of you who are in the mad house ;) all the best and I really hope that you're all doing well. Healthy, relaxed and not too crazy. :D

DH and I are doing better and I want to thank you all again for your well wishes. It really means a lot. Can't thank you all enough.

MF x

Soooo, Im not the only POAS queen out there hey!!!???? ;)

FGS, I promised not to POAS next time but I had my toes crossed as I was typing.
When I got all of my Neg's in the cycle it did make me feel worse and worse everyday, and yes I did loose hope in the end, but it did help me accept and be at peace with the result, before the dreaded phonecall, especially since the Crinone held off AF for me.
In saying that, when I did go for my bloods last Fri, I still held on to even a 1%chance it could sill be positive, even though deep down I knew It wasnt........the phonecall still does make you hit reality with a bit of a thump, prob just not as hard.
(is too early to know still FGS X)

Don't underestimate the side effects of that Crinone girls, I had the whole list.


On a more brighter note, you all deserve to be spoilt rotten, be happy and so very excited, you are all being so so strong!XXXX

I think it's all over for me.

Been noticing that the crinone has been coming out pinkish since last night - and progressively getting worse. Tonight the applicator thing came out with blood on it. Pretty sure AF is here tomorrow. I have a feeling that this ones going to be more painful than ever.

Feeling really, really down - even though I pretty much knew the result - there was always that tiny glimmer of hope...

Sigh.

Good luck to all you other wonderful, strong women - this forum is due for some BFP soon - suuuurely.

L xx

Oh FGS - I'm so sorry. BUT I read that the crinone can cause some bleeding, and mine was coming out a little pinkish after 3 days. Perhaps thats what you were noticing or even a scratch caused by the applicator? I know its always easier to be positive about someone elses cycle but you know what they say about it not being over till its over!
Its amazing how you ride with the bumps with the other women on this forum I feel horrible that you are feeling down and wish there was something else I could say to cheer you up.

Hi ladies.

How are you all going? Been a busy week for you? Keeping your minds off the mind numbing questions? ;) Hope you're all doing well and are looking forward to your respective weekends. :)

Hi MC. Nice to see you've popped in here too. Trust all is well with you and your DH. How are your plans coming along for your next cycle? Do you even have to do one as you have your lovely little snowbub. I didn't get any so I don't know what happens there.

FGS, I don't know what to say except that I really feel for you and know (to a degree) what is going through your mind and why. :comfort: You know that's what happened to me. I'm still hoping for you that you will grace us with good news and soon.

What about you other ladies? Are you experiencing anything different this month/cycle? I've only done the one cycle and was told everything I felt was normal. Anybody got any good tips we can use for next time? :)

MF x

Hey Guys...

BJ - I don't know about the Estrogen patches... I am normally one of those people who want to know everything about everything... but with this - I am almost happier being in the dark so that I don't keep overanylysing things (it's not working.. lol)

MF and MC - so nice to see you pop your head back in the 'madhouse' - good to see you're both doing better :)

LEABIE - that will teach you for buying dodgy HPT :) haha... I don't yet have a favourite... maybe the First Response Early Response ones.. but actually, I am sure the first on that ever registers a BFP for me will be my new 'favourite'

SHAREE - I know what you mean about riding other peoples 'waves' - seriously... when I was in here with MC and MF - it was a complete rollercoaster and I was totally gutted when I read the 'results' emails that I was bawling my eyes out.

AFM - still no AF... weird browny/pinky crinone bits still... and I thought it was getting a bit heavier yesterday, so I called the clinic. they said if theres no full-flow by Saturday to still come in for a BT - but not to get my hopes up... OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know, if it's over, I just want it to be OVER... I dont want to have to toddle off at 7am on a Saturday morning for a BT that I have to wait all day for the result of.. and then... the other thing... is I still hold that teeny, tiny bit of hope..!

Lol... I just realised my Ticker is wrong... it says 1 day til testing.... but it's 2 days...

L x

Oh... and I haven't POAS in a couple of days... I ran out.. lol

Hello Ladies sorry no personals just finally getting a chance to jump into this thread in between work.
Well had IUI on Sat 30th Jan with what I hope was two eggs, Scan earlier that week had shown two follies one in each ovary so hopefully they were both released. Been on Clexan since Sunday, pregnyl booster last night and another one on Saturday. BT tomorrow to check Prog levels and then the big one BT 15th won't get results till the 16th hoping af doesn't rear her ugly head before then.
Best of luck to you all and bring on the BFP's

Good luck WB!!!

Sooooo I'm an idiot. I just poas 7 days after a 2 day transfer. It was BFN, I feel totally despondent even though I logically know its too early.

Sharee- NO! I know that we agreed POAS was a good idea in certain circumstances but too early miss! I've promised myself not to do it til tues, day before my BT. Seriously I don't think I've read of anyone getting a BFP only 7dp2dt so don't give up yet ok. Give it a few more days and try again.

WB - all the best, hopefully your 2ww will fly past with a nice surprise at the end :)

FGS - how are you going honey? BT is tomorrow? Despite everything I hope that the result tomorrow shocks you with a BFP. I will be thinking of you.

Our Internet at home is still not working so I am still doing this off my phone so I apologise to the lovely ladies that I have missed..... I hope that you are all hanging in there and not going too crazy. Easier said than done!
I've passed the half way mark but am finding it hard to keep positive. My heart just trying to protect itself I suppose. I'm still getting regular twinges and odd cramps but my BB's are not really that tender anymore although they are still a tad bigger than usual. Otherwise no symptoms that couldn't be explained with prog support or impending AF. I don't think AF will show up before BT this time though seeing as I was on such a rediculously short cycle. Looks like I'll have to stick it out. I'll POAS tues and we'd though just to prepare myself but I just can't shake this negative feeling and regularly bursting into tears. Sometimes this is just too hard!

Hey BJ, we are over the half way - on the home stretch, I'm with you on the negativity and the bursting into tears - but I have a good feeling about your cycle for what thats worth :):)

So Sharee the idiot poas again this morning still negative :shakehead:

sending you all the very best for your upcoming BT. I was a POAS queen and would drive me insane when i was using the boosters! but i guess we just do this to ourselves!

if ever i thought this was not going to happen it was to me. after 15 cycles there is still a long way to go, i guess im just trying to say please keep the faith, i know some days are darker than others. but i am hopping for you all

Just popping by to wish FGS a happy ending tomorrow XXXXX Good Luck hun!

Just popping in to wish FGS - the very best for tomorrow, GL hun xo

I should be joining this thread too soon hopefully. Probably Valentines day

Hello ladies.

Hope you're all well.

Leabie - how's your relaxed, not a care in the world, cycle going? Any more POAS?

BJ81 - still hating that crinone gel? Hope you're well.

Sharee - wondering how you're going as you said you were loopy after only four days! Moving steadily toward insane? ;)

WB - thinking of you and hope you're feeling good.

Last and by no means least, FGS. How are you sweet thing? I want to wish you peace and happiness for tomorrow. I'm still praying for you gorgeous and am hoping for some good news.

Have a great weekend to you all! Go out and have some fun!

MF xx

Hi lovely ladies

Just a quick post, popping in to see how everyone is hangin in there.

FGS - will be watching to see how you went, have everything crossed for you!

AFM - well, I'm out. The witch arrived yesterday morning. Pretty bummed, haven't shed any tears yet, but I can feel them brewing. Today topped it off, a friend came round and I found out she's 20 weeks pg. So happy for her, she'd had 2 m/c's last year, but it always hits hard, doesn't it? Sorry for being a downer. Will snap out of it soon!

The rest of you ladies still here, sending a big :crossfingers: for you all! Hope to not see any of you here when I'm back next month! Bring on those BFPs. Thanks for all your support.

Hey Ladies...

Thanks for all your lovely well-wishes. Means so much to me!

Well, I didn't make it to BT this morning because AF came... Leabie... yes... the WITCH indeed. I was pretty cut up this morning, even though I knew that this was the result I was expecting. Went to the Adelaide Central Markets to do my grocery shopping this morning - pg women and happy couples pushing their bugaboo prams EVERYWHERE... I thought I was sensitive before... but O.M.G... today, I fel PHYSICAL pain everytime I saw a pram.. it absolutely killed me.

Feeling a little more optimistic tonight though - have my follow up appt with my FS scheduled for Monday the 15th Feb... really want that over with. I want to know what happened.. I really do... I am so worried that out of 6 embryos... I have nothing... am I wasting $$ to try again? Anyone have any advice? Stories?? It's so scary this unknown...

Anyway.. thanks again for all your support... definitely feeling the love!

THERE HAS TO BE SOME POSITIVES THIS MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fingers X'd for ALL of you... xx

L xxx

FGS, Honey, I'm so sorry XXX You have gone through a very stressfull Stim cycle and the TWW can be a long one, if you know things have not worked.
Darling we are here for you any time.
GIve yourself a few days to process your last month, take it easy, and then have a chat to DH about what you would like to do next XXXXX
I hope you are ok XX

FGS & Leabie - I'm so sorry :( No matter how prepared we think we are it's always hard when it's 100% confirmed.
FGS I know how you are feeling about wanting to know where to go from here...we are in kind of the same situation if this one hasn't worked either, over $2500 out of pocket for one shot! It's just crazy!
But honey this is your 1st go (I know that doesn't make it easier) and for your FS its a bit of a learning curve too, getting to know what will and won't work for you. Ask him lots of questions, tell him your fears and I'm sure that he will be able to come up with a new strategy. Just don't give up. You are both young and it IS going to happen for you ok xxx

Sharee - How are you going??

AFM - I was an idiot! and POAS yesterday afternoon BFN :( So I'm feeling pretty down even though it could still be too soon and I so shouldn't have done it in the arvo. AF still shows no sign whatsoever of arriving though....no spotting, no AF type cramps?? I still have pretty bad breakouts on my chin, my BB's are still a bit bigger than normal but are not tender at all anymore and I noticed some big blue veins that I don't usually have. I'm so confused! One should think that if my body was showing pg symptoms then there should be enough hormone in my body to show up on a HPT. So I'm gonna POAS again tomorrow and then on Wed before my BT......if AF hasn't shown up by then. AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!

So I POAS again this morning, another :bfn:. So I'm 99.9% sure that it's all over for me......again. I'm gutted to say the least and feel like someone just hollowed out my chest. Now I'm off to work and have to pretend to be polite and happy to people all day and have my boss rub her big pregnant belly in my face all day!

Oh BJ - bugger, but you might have a late implanter?
FGS and Leabie-big hugs, this sucks.

AFM-all over for me. AF came last night early and with a vengence. Had my meltdown and now I am looking forward to next month. I figure every failed attempt is one closer to the one that will bring me my baby.

FGS, hope you are doing ok X

Leabie, sorry I didn't see your post the other day, I'm so sorry. I hope you got a few tears out and feel a bit better darling X

BJ, hang in there honey, your almost there XX

Sharee I think that too :hug: One more step closer.

Take care of yourselves girls, will be thinking of you all X

BJ... I am so sorry hun... I know EXACTLY how you feel with the work situation... I had to work my whole cycle and 2ww... and there are THREE heavily pg women that I work very closely with - and the day I started spotting I found out one of my direct reports is 5 wks pg. FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's reaaaaaaaaaally hard to concentrate during the 2ww... but, now that it's over- regardless of the result - I am feeling so, so, sooo much better. I feel like I can look at things clearly now... like before my mind was so hazy... It's so hard to explain...

Leabie - how you doing hun?

Sharee- you're so amazingly positive!!! but life has to go on doesnt it....

L xx

Sharee - I'm so sorry honey, but your attitude is so amazing! I wish I had your positivity.

Thanks for all your kind thoughts and hopes ladies but I'm out :(
I asked if i could just go and have my BT today and got the call a few hours ago that it is definitely a BFN. Even though I kind of knew, it has hit me like a ton of bricks. This is my 3rd fail and I am starting to lose faith. I just can't pull myself together tonight, sorry to be a downer. I'll talk to you all soon. Thanks again for all your support. You are all amazing!
B xxx

This is so not the way I wanted to start this post but here goes
Sharee, bj*81, Leabie, FGS So so so sorry to hear this is not the one for you strong lovely ladies wishing all of you the best next time around hang in there girls it will be your time soon.

AFM One week down and only 5 days to go I have been trying not to over analyize anything but I have had sore bb's on and off and have started suffering from insomnia going to bed real late after work and laying there for a couple hours before I fall asleep only to be awake by 7am oh and then being dead tired about 3 hours after waking up but I am trying to not get my hopes up trying to think positive and not think about it at the same time is kinda hard to do. Also been kinda emotional driving home from a friends place the other day I felt like crying for no apparent reason and then watched Deep Impact and bawled my eyes out through the whole thing even though I have seen that movie a hundred times or so. :shakehead:

Hi everyone,

Gosh, it's been forever since I've been on BB. Sometimes ater a couple of BFN you get disheartened and can't bear talking to anyone....

Sharee, bj*81, Leabie, FGS - I know exactly how you guys are feeling. I'm so sorry to hear about your BFN's. Here I am at 37 still hoping and praying. The emotional rollercoaster never seems to get any easier. We moved into a new area last July and are surrounded by a whole network of new people asking "shouldn't you too get cracking on babymaking???" Well yes, but it's none of your business what's going on!!!

Well I am on the dreaded TWW. This is my last frozen Blastie from my sim cycle. If this doesn't work I have to go back for another laproscopy to clean out my endo - which I HATE and dread!!! The recovery is shocking.

Get a load of my weird symptoms :shakehead: :

7dpo - massive, sore boobies, massive stomach, literally 4 or 5 pink spots came out, and some twinging and cramping
8dpo - mild cramping (down legs) and severely sore lower back - boobs and stomach slightly deflated and much less sore, but still a little bit
9dpo - feels like I put my lower back out, so off to physio then major hot flushes with instant sweating for about 4 hours, and headache. Some pink discharge.
10dpo - mild cramping about twice a day, burping and grumbling tummy - cold coming on and shivering on and off. More discharge -normal colour.
11dpo -mild cramping twice a day, boobs and stomach same as 8dpo still (unchanged), burping now coupled with farting. Feels like I want to diarrhoea, but when I go to the toilet either nothing comes or it's very hard packed. Cold getting worse still with a few shivers. Even more discharge!!!
12dpo - (today) waiting to see......

What I have felt since 10dpo is similar to what I get with my normal periods. It was weird because I'd get a strange symptom one day only to have it back off the next day. And so they rear their heads then back off??? :doh:

The witch is due on Sunday, so that will be telling for me. At the beginning of this week I was thinking WOW this could be the one!!! But now I just don't know. This is the point it gets difficult.

I'm praying that I don't have to have another god damn LAPROSCOPY!!! You feel so butchered afterwards, like they've cut half my organs out..... :pray:

Take care everyone :grouphug: