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Good morning everyone,
Today is day 9 since ET (day three embryo) yesterday I had cramps I was feeling that my period is going to come I had small pink discharge I am scared I don’t want to go to toilet. I am afraid that is an early sign of period, I don’t have any embryo left.
I am so disappointed before two days I had nausea but now every pregnancy symptoms has disappeared and period symptoms has started.
Thanks for your support
Afternoon everyone,
Cival I am :pray: for you that it is an implantation bleed. I'm rather new to the whole IVF thing, so I'm sorry I can't give you any more information specific to it. I do know that my sister had some bleeding early in her pregnancy (natural, not IVF) and felt like she was getting AF up until 12 weeks, she is now about 21 weeks into a healthy pregnancy. So, don't give up hope yet.
Rustybeth, I too live in fear of every trip to the toilet, especially now that I am down to the last week.
Bel, I don't know about you, but I am on edge now that I am moving into the last week. I have constant butterflies in my stomach!
Saph, hope you are feeling better hun :hug: to you.
:welcome: to the dreaded TWW Kaydee. I :pray: that this is the last one that you have to endure.
To anyone I have missed here is lots of :pink-babydust:
As for me, I am chugging along, nervous as nobodies business, dreading every trip to the toilet! I woke up again in the middle of the night last night and had to get up to go to the toilet... not like me at all. And not only that, but my nose has been really stuffy! Especially at night. I had so much trouble getting back to sleep last night partly because my nose was annoying me so much. Don't feel sick in any other way, so is a little puzzling.
Here's :pray: that ugly witch stays away from us all. :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: to all you lovely ladies.
Janie xxx
Afternoon Ladies,
Hope your day is are cruising along well. I'm doing ok...starting to panic already though. Sorry if TMI but the build up of crinone is starting to come out and with it some of what I assume is old blood..none bright but more pink tinged. All the old emotions and anxieties of the past come flooding back when this happens and the desperation starts to kick in. I just hate all of this so much. Wish you could go to bed and wake up on BT day with the news of a BFP. For me it is the mind games that get me. I just don't know how to deal with another round of bad news.
RustyBeth- I'm with you on the toilet thing, but for me I'm more petrified of going and seeing blood. My first pg was natural and I went to the toilet and BLOOD. My 1st IVF cycle I made it to the day before BT and BLOOD. My second cycle I got the longed for BFP then 2 days later I went to the toilet and guess what...BLOOD. So blood and the dreaded AF witch are my number 1 enemies!! I don't know about implantation bleeding myself. Never had any with both pg's so can't give you any advice there sorry. Hope you are feeling better than before. The rest will do you the world of good.
Civil- My last BFP I had period like feelings so please remain strong and positive. I know it is so terribly hard. We all want this so desperately and I really feel your anxiety now. Just be good to yourself.
Janie- Yep, I'm going insane..totally! We'll get throught the next week together though and with all the help of these wonderful ladies. I was feeling so positive after ET but that kind of just dwindles as the days pass. Stay strong though
Everyone else, I'm thinking of you all and hoping you aren't playing mind games like me!!
Hugs Bel
Kema, Belinda, Karly, Janie and Bel thank you so much for your kind words :hug:
DH and i had a very emotional day yesterday but we talked lots and cant wait to get straight back into the next cycle. We have a FS appointment on 20th June, the next available, and we will get straight back into it. Hopefully i will have the same luck as you Bel and be lucky second time round.
Once again, thanks for all your support ladies, i will keep my eye in here and keep updated on your progress. Cant wait to read about all your BFP! Best of luck :dance:
Paula- Happy to hear from you and very happy to hear you and DH had a good talk.It is SO SO important to keep the communication going with each other and to remember how important that relationship is to you. I would be lost without my DH on this TTC journey. Great news about moving forward and seeing the FS soon. That's exactly what I did. I felt that I had no control at all over having a baby and the only thing I could control was the decision to keep moving forward. You are definately showing your strength and your determination will pay off. Just stay strong and positive and know you've always got the support of your TTC buddies here.
All my other friends, hope you are having a good night
Hugs Bel
Thanks Bel thats very sweet of you. It is definately wonderful to know that i have so many TTC friends that are always here when i need to talk.
I have to admit that this whole journey has definately brought DH and i closer together!
Hello Ladies
Well I popped in last Thursday to announce I was officlly in the TWW group unfortantly I have to leave you ladies early as AF decided to make a visit on Tuesday so I only made it 5 days in so it is back to square one for me. Gonna ring FS today and let them know see when they want me to start on Puregon and Pregnyl again also gonna have to get the script filled for my Pregnyl Trigger as we are going to use that this cycle.
Well wishing all you ladies luck sending lots of sticky vibes and hope you all have more success then me maybe I will join this group again later this month heres hoping.
Hi everyone hope all is going well. Well I over did it at work yesterday. I was i agony. my ovaries were so sore I couldn't even stand up straight. Rang the clinic they told me I need to rest, yep like that is going to happen. Anyway made DH cook and get DS organised last night and felt a little better. Will try and rest today.
hi all:
bel: hope that blastie is sticking, mind games, they're awfull.try to keep busy and i'm sure it's implantation bleeding, pray for you
Janie: we all wish for crystal ball ! good luck to you
Rustybeth: hope your feeling ok
Saph: try to rest, use dh as much as you can. fingers crossed and toes. please please stick little bub.
Cival: good luck
everyone elso hoping for lots of sticky dust to make those bubs stick
janet
Morning All,
How's the TWW treating you?? Well my DH has gone away for 3 days today...What am I going to do without him to keep me sane?? The pink tinge I had in the crinone that was coming out..(sorry TMI!) ended up only being a tiny bit 2 times so I am praying with all I've got that it was implantation bleeding. One episode was tues night and one was wed morning so maybe both little ones have stuck..how blessed would we be if that was the case. Well I spoke to the clinic this morning and out of 11 eggs picked up, we had the 2 embies transferred and 4 more frozen at blastie, so I'm pretty happy with that. Just another day of relaxing and watching tv. At least I can watch all my girly shows now DH is away!!! Got to look for the positive in every situation!!
Karly and Kaydee- How are you both going? Haven't heard much from you
Kema- How's the 1st TWW treating you? Are you coping ok or going bonkers like me??!!
RustyBeth- How's the pain in your sore parts..did you end up getting the agarol and if so did it help?? BTW I forgot to tell you it tastes like crap and made me gag...but if I'd told you that before maybe you wouldn't have considered getting it!!
Cival- How you doing lovely. Did the discharge stop? I hope you are relaxing a bit more now. If you need us we're here.
Janie- How are you feeling? How's the nose..hope you aren't sick and that it was just some wierd symptom of pg for you!
Janet- How's everything going for you? Are you cruising along ok?
Saph- Rest up when you can and let DH take care of you. I know my husband loves it when he can take care of me and he really does a great job too.
Wishing Baby- So very sorry for you. Stay strong and positive and know that we all understand your pain and are here for you.
HOPING I haven't missed anyone and if I have let me know. It's time for my midday viewing!!
Will chat soon
Hugs Bel
HI Everyone,
Well I had a "moment" today (not good when you are at work)... just got all teary and had to go to toilet to pull myself together. The stress of these last few days is just starting to get to me. I really think that I will be clinically insane by the time it gets to my blood test! Nothing much else to report, feeling much the same. Still have a stuffy nose, but don't feel like I am getting sick. So I looked it up on Google (as you do when you are going insane in the TWW) and lo and behold it is a symptom of pregnancy for some women, albeit a weird one! Apparently it can happen to some people due to the increased blood flow. So I am hoping and praying that the reason my nose is stuffy is because I am pregnant :pray:, but you know how much we can all read into every little sign.
Apart from that, I have been to the toilet so many times today. Keep thinking that "something is happening" down there... Only think I have been finding is old Crinone, so :pray: :pray: :pray: that AF stays away from me for the next 9 months.
Janet, nice to hear from you... hope you are doing well and get to do you FET sometime in the near future.
Saph, look after yourself darls. Hopefully all the not feeling well is due to a beautiful little baby.
Wishingbaby, so sorry that this was not the month for you. :pray: that next time will be your time.
Paula, good to hear you have got an appointment with FS. Get your DH to take very good care of you and you do the same for him. It is a grieving process, so take your time and be kind to yourselves.
To Bel, Karly, Kaydee and Rustybeth and anyone else I have missed lots of :bluedust::stickyvibesgirl:
Janie xxx
Dear Janie- It's ok to have a meltdown..it happens to all of us. I'm expecting one over the next couple of days now that DH has gone away and I'm on my own at home. You are obvioulsy a strong women though, you have to be to go through this and I promise you'll get to next Wed without going insane. Doesn't feel like it now but you will. I'll be here for you. And I thought maybe the stuffy nose was a wierd pg sympton!!
Hope your afternoon gets better.
Hugs Bel
"Keep thinking that "something is happening" down there... Only think I have been finding is old Crinone"
Same here :/
Hello ladies!
JBM, thanks for the checking, I'm resting and trying to feel better.
Bel, I did get the Agarol and I expected it to be horrible. It has helped some but I still feel as though I'm behind the 8 ball on that issue. I am still about 4kg above normal weight, and suffering but doing better. The nurse said it was still ovarian inflammation and excess fluid in the abdomen.
The misc comments about "old Crinone" are quite timely for me as I have been *hoping* that is all I'm feeling.
I have only been working half days and I am really looking forward to the long weekend. DH will be away with a guy bonding trip so I will be able to rest freely, not worrying about what he's getting into here at home. I have an acupuncture appoinment on Saturday. I've been an acupuncture fan for years now, but due to other issues, I didn't get to do a lot of it for this IVF cycle. If we do have to do it again, I will make sure that I've got more of that happening to support the effort.
Finally, I found out I only got ONE bubsicle. The other five blasties didn't make the grade. It made me so sad when I heard. I doubt that one can survive the thaw. I have been having those Crinone induced spells of low self esteem and feelings of unworthiness and it's getting really hard for me to rationalise myself. I even cried for the last 10 minutes of House on Wed night. The only other time I've cried at TV was during Steel Magnolias. (Pitiful admission, yes?)
Oh Rustybeth... I cried at the end of House too! Crinone really has a lot to answer for. I forgot that feeling down and unworthy are actually side effects... That makes me feel a bit better in some ways. I hope that you start feeling better over the weekend. It took me about a week before my ovary pain and bloating went away. For that first week everytime I sat down I felt like I was sitting on my ovaries they were that swollen!
Bel, thanks for your comments, you are a sweetheart.
Countryblue and Rustybeth, that Crinone is just horrible how it comes out...I guess it is a small price to pay if it does the job it is meant to!
Much love and :stickyvibesgirl: to you all.
Janie xxx
Hello All
I'm going ok. Have had a number of meltdowns this week. The latest has caused me to quit my job.....though I am waiting til BT day to give my notice. I work at a dr's and I do nightfill so i decided if I quit now and I am pg I will look silly cos I will have to quit the nightfill job aswell. If i am pg i will prob end up staying at the drs even though I dont like it anymore. Everything is getting on top of me and at times I wonder why I put myself in these situations. Hopefully it will be worth it in the end. It is so hard to prepare for the phone call. I couldn't wait for Mon to come quick enough but now I am nervous about it. I cant sleep at night because I toss and turn because I usually sleep on my tummy but that is not very comfortable at the moment.
Well enough about me me me. How are you all going??? Who has the BT soonish??
My two week mark since iui was yesterday so Im on the home strech now....3 sleeps to go. If its bad news my mum is taking me to melb next Frin night for the weekend...we r in Perth...so that will cheer me up.
Take care girls and I hope you all have a great weekend. For most of you its a long weekend so enjoy.
Karly
;)COULD I PLEASE JOIN YOU GIRLS
im on day 2 after transfer and not feeling well im so sore still.
i wish you all the very best with all your tww:pray:
Morning Ladies,
Hope you are all having a good day so far. Anyone going insane yet? I?m close and I?ve still got 5 sleeps to go. Man I?ll be mad by Monday. I?m now at the point where I am begging and praying when I go to the toilet. My mantra is..please no blood?please no blood!! :doh:
RustyBeth- Sorry to hear you are still not feeling well. I?d be going insane just from having that discomfort still if I was you. The agarol really worked for me after 3 days of taking it?and I can?t believe you don?t find it too bad. I was gagging!! Ooohhh acupuncture tomorrow. Am very jealous, I love my acupuncture. Make sure you tell them exactly what has been going on. I?m sure they?ll try to help you. And I?m really sorry to hear you are upset about having 1 bubsicles. I?m not going to so don?t be upset, cause I totally get it. What I will say though is that you are a lot luckier that a lot of other women. Some people don?t get any bubsicles, especially when you go to balstie, so you honestly have done really well .My best advice to you is to focus today on today. Don?t think about tomorrow til tomorrow comes. That?s how I get through this TTC madness. Just stay positive today that this cycle you will have success and you won?t even need to think about that bubsicle until you want your next baby. Stay strong, you are strong even to be embarking on this journey. We?re here for you.
Janie- Geez I didn?t even know that feeling down and unworthy were side effects of crinone. I?ll tell you a true story. I pulled the side effects brochure out of the box of crinone to read in bed one night and put it on my bedside table. It stayed there for 3 days unread and I through it out. I just thought?geez what other side effects could be thrown at me at this stage! Little did I know feeling down and unworthy was hidden in there somewhere! I should read all the side effects next time! Not long to go now and we?ll have our good news?hopefully. Enjoy your day.
Karly- I so so so get what you are saying about the phone call. I to am BUSTING to know but am dreading that phone call also in case of bad news?.See this is what I say about mind games, it just does my head in! I?m jealous you only have 3 sleeps to go. You just have a weekend to enjoy then you?ll be getting some good news I pray.
All my other friends, I hope you are doing well. Thinking of you all,
Hugs Bel
Hi Smithy- Welcome!! Glad to have you here. Sorry to hear you are still sore. Look after yourself and rest up as much as you can. I too was really sore this cycle but now am feeling great finally...that is physically!! Going a bit crazy but that's to be expected for me! Find this TWW one big mind game and I HATE mind games. I've got a couple of weeks off at the moment so I'm hanging round here if you need some-one to chat to. Stay strong,
Hugs Bel
Hiya everyone,
Yeah Smithy you finally made it here. Hope you are feelingbetter soon. As for Me I am completely shattered. Spent all night at the hospital with DS Oh my god I have never seen anything like it in my life. Projectile vommit. I am on my fourth load of washing of things covered in vommit. He is okay now just very tired. So hopefully i can have a sleep now too.
Geez Saph what a night. Hope DS is ok. Have a good rest when you get your washing done.
Hugs Bel
Hi Guys
Thanks bel. I hope your 5 sleeps go very quickly and you get that BFP.
I am having another moment. Just broke out in tears. Told DH he didnt care. I keep telling my kids off for things that wouldn't bother me. What is wrong with me???? I am just so upset and I know im worried about Mon but 3 more days is nothing to what I have waited. I am thinking about calling the clinic to see if I should see the counsellor but Im worried they will think I am a nut. I was a little moody and upset on Wed and again yesterday I was close to tears but today is worse again and the tears are here. AARHHHH. I feel like i only have you guys to talk to cos nobody understands. My family dont really get it cos they think I have 2 kids why go through all this.
Anyway sorry for the blog but I feel a bit better now
Thanks for being so understanding
Karly Sweets- I promise you are not alone in feeling like this and understand the way you feel about only having the lovely ladies here to chat to. I am so blessed though to have one very special TTC friend who has become my rock through all of this, but I couldn't annoy her all day..I'd drive her crazy!! So I annoy you all instead!
Ok...so about the counselling. Let's be honest here...why do you think a lot of clinics provide counselling?? It's because they KNOW we are going to need it. It is impossible to go through this alone and some of us, myself included need the help of a counsellor. They won't think you are weak or crazy for asking to speak to the counsellor. They'll think quite the opposite..that you are a very strong person to know that maybe talking to someone will make this easier for you.
Let yourself cry if you need to. It's perfectly healthy and normal. This is such stressful and emotional time for all of us. You are doing great. Be strong
Hugs Bel
hi all, well lots of crazy emotions happening here in TWW!
that damn crinone gel,i hated it. everything seems 100 times worse and your emotions are crazy!.
lets try to smile not cry!?
Bel, Carly, Rusty beth: counting down for you
Saph: must be something in the air.
one of my ds was vomiting other night too, not that bad but dh and i went out to dinner and movies. first time this year with no kids. while we were away ds started vomiting, we gave instructions over phone as this couple got no kids.
they lttc. maybe now they not ttc as our family has put them off
good luck to you all
janet
Hi ladies! Well I am really looking forward to the long weekend, hoping that my DH will be able to find enough things for us to do to keep me distracted from the looming BT!
Janet, always lovely to see you... hope you are well. How are you progressing with your FET?
Karly, I had a moment yesterday too.. Damn Crinone!!! So know that you are not alone in the crazy stacks. Getting it off your chest here certainly helps.
Saph, your poor DS and poor you! What a night you had. Hope your TWW is progressing well.
Smithy, it is great to see you here! Hope you start feeling better soon... Most of my pain was gone within a week, so hopefully you will start to feel more like yourself soon.
Bel my BT partner, good to see you are well.
Well I told my DH about my meltdown yesterday and he was his normal wonderful self. He said that I need to let go of the stress as I have done as much as I can, everything from now is "in the hands of the gods". The way he worded everything was just perfect. He said that each day that I make closer to the blood test without getting AF I should be celebrating instead of stressing about if it is just around the corner... I guess he means for me to live in the now a little more and stop stressing about something that I cannot change. Of course that is all easier said than done, however, I've made a concerted effort to be grateful for making it to today and you know what, I feel so much better! We will see how it goes, we do have that nasty Crinone to compete with!
Anyhow, I hope you are all well. Lots of :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: to you all. I hope you all have a great weekend and that we start seeing some BFP next week :pray::pray:
Janie xxx
Wishing everyone all the best!
Paula hun, I am so sorry to hear about BFN hunny. Huge hugs! GL with your appt with the Prof. He is great and he will get you UTD - dont you worry. The chances increase the second time round! Huge hugs.
Smithy - hope you feel betta ... sticky vibes !
Mon :)
thank you all for the warm welcome you girls are the best i hope your all having a great weekend.
me im going ok today just a lot of like bad period pains:rolleyes:
Hi All,
Hope you are all being kept nice and busy this weekend so that it flies by. My DH is asleep after working last night so I'm catching up on some TV.
I'm doing pretty good. 4 more sleeps to go til BT. Just begging that witch to stay away. I am feeling pretty positive though. Said to DH last night I am staying very positive but I'm also a realist. I think it's a good balance. That way if I do receive bad news HOPEFULLY I won't crash and burn. Though I have to admit I'm not sure if I can deal with bad news again.. See what I mean when I say mind games!!! Grrrr!!
So have a great day and will chat soon. Thanks for all the hellos and kind words.
Hugs Bel
Hi everyone.. wow! this is a busy thread!
Bel, you make me laugh. 2 weeks off from work is good for avoiding work stress but you've got so much time to think about everything else!! You're doing really well. I love the toilet mantra... you're not saying that aloud are you??!!!
Janie, hope the long weekend is a relaxing one for you. The emotion and stress of treatment can be a bit much sometimes. Sounds like your DH is a fantastic support.
Karly, not long until your BT. Hope you're feeling well and you start the string of BFP news from all of us!
Rustybeth, how are you feeling? Hoping today's acupuncture helps.
Saph, how's DS? It takes a few days to get back on top of things - sleep, washing!! - when your little one is so sick. Hope you're doing ok.
Welcome Smithy.. Sending you lots of :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:
Hi to anyone I missed. Hope you're all enjoying the long weekend. :dance:
Kaydee- I'm glad I make you laugh...I'm kind of doing my own head in today!! Ok..so the toilet mantra. SOMETIMES I do say out loud PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!! See what I am reduced to??!! It's madness really!
Hugs Bel
Lots of sticky vibes to you all
janie
bel
country blue
kaydee
rustybeth
karly
smithy
sorry just a quick reply. somone gotta cook dinner
janet
Hey Girls...
Here i am in the TWW with you all YAY! Just had my first FET after a BFP that ended in miscarriage. Anyway, we have a lovely embie on board so :crossfingers:
:2ww::goodluck2: to ervyone - bring on the BFPs!
rach xx
:dance:yay rach im so glad your here now
good luk hun:bellyrubs::crossfingers::crossfingers:
Hi Girls,
Sorry I haven't been in and thanks for asking about me. :D
The TWW is doing my head in. every litlle twinge I get or any possible symptom I'm trying to read too much into and then I remember most are signs of AF too!!! :wall:
Anyway good to catch up with you all.
:grouphug: to everyone.
And :pray: for lots of BFP's.
Evening all,
I'm starting to go a bit crazy with only 4 sleeps to go. I'm actually really scared today. My BB's aren't as sore as they have been the last few days. They are still sore but I know my body so well. Last time I was pg they were sore...ok, now I''m doing my head in. Feeling myself up every couple of hours like some sicko. I am just desperate for this cycle to work. It is so very hard to do IVF with my job and I am seriously thinking of taking 6 months off if this cycle doesn't work just to focus on this TTC. I'll just work a casual job to bring some money in to cover all these crazy bills. Just can't juggle my job anymore and TTC.
Welcome Rach. Hope your stay here is easy, stress free and a one you get through with your sanity intact at the end!!
So how is everyone else going? Any more crazy's in here or am I pretty much alone??!!:doh:
Hope you all are having a good night. I'm probably the only one awake right now..am off to bed now to read a trashy book so I can stop thinking about all of this.
Night all
Hugs Bel
Kema- Ok, just read that this TWW is doing your head in too...so I'm not alone. It's bad when it gets like this isn't it?? So hard to not lose it. BUT be strong. I am trying so hard to stay strong too. We'll all get there together.
Hugs Bel
xxx
:2ww: Rach. Best wishes for a speedy TWW and the result at the end of it all is a BFP!!
Hi Kema. Hope you're going ok. When do you BT?
Bel, it's so hard not to worry when you are getting closer and closer to BT day. I totally understand where you're coming from with work vs TTC. The travelling and juggling of appts can be exhausting. Fingers crossed you'll get your BFP this time round and you won't need to worry about it.
Good Morning
Kaydee - I'm really good thanks. My blood test isn't until next Monday 16/6. I'm only 1 week into it and I'm already going nuts. :lol:
If we cant obsess in the TWW when can we?
Bel - I too understand about work, when I told my boss I had to do IVF she was really understanding, then when I officially started her attitude changed and now I try to make my appointments on my days off, not an easy task because no one seems to get that you have to be at your clinic on certain days of your cycle not just when you have a day off. I have sooo much sick leave its not funny and I still cop attitude. :angry:
Sorry about the rant.
:hello: to everyone else, hope all is well.
I know I told them at work because the boss thought I was sick going in for all these OPU's I knew they were selling the business so I thought what do they care if I'm trying to get pregnant? Now the new owners are coming in and if this cycle doesn't work I want to begin again immediately. So that's another 2 days off and I've taken to having the BT day off too.
There's no way I can concentrate at work knowing the results come in at 1:30pm and I don't finish until 5:30. Beside's it's not the type of news I want to get at work good or bad.
My BT is this Friday the 13th. Oooooo Friday the 13th :/
;)morning girls.
work tell me about it im due back on tuesday and a bit scared to go:rolleyes:
im still having a fair bit of pain like af and a heap of cm when i go to the loo im also very teary today ,
i hope you have all had a wonderful weekend and soon we start hearing some BFP